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I don't have that optimism I usually do, or that perhaps unjustified feeling of contentedness with things as they are. I feel like I'm at a standstill. I feel pathetic and lonely and like I'm wasting my life away and have no one but myself to blame and the longer I keep doing it the less people will think of me and they'll be right.
Never thought I'd post in this thread but venting feels good and I feel a lot less guilty dumping it on the pile than on any one specific person.
eek im doing something really scary for me. Having not really been out and about much lately with my illness( because I hate being vulnerable in public) and doing stuff especially stuff that stresses me generally higher risk of triggering an attack but anyway I walked 20 mins to a bus and now im on the bus its an hour to where im going.after a few mins i felt the fear that leads to a panic attack. i looked around and recognised my threat. ppl everywhere. so I took out a notebook and asked someone cud i borrow a pen. By talking to threat, threat removed Fear illeminated be there in 5 mins now to give my godson his 3rd bday pressie. They dont know im surprising him![]()
Like I want to strangle a baby.
...okay not really, but pretty damn close.
Is this a specific baby, or would any baby do?![]()