Frustrated. I can't sleep. I have to get up in 4 hours and go to my loathsome job. I just can't turn my mind off. I have to do this project, and it seems I chose a difficult topic and I'm struggling to wrap my mind around it, so as to capture its essence. I can't even seriously start because I don't know where to begin. It's like a huge snake has been lumped into my lap and I can't find the head to begin to wrangle it... that and I'm freakingly terrified of snakes... I'll just start stabbing it at random, which will piss it off, and then i'll be snake food. I'm going to be surrounded with multitudinous piles of books trying to synthesize all this information... That and I think I have that weird expression disorder I read about briefly on this forum awhile back. It's a mess, but there must be some way. Self-doubt will be overcome, but first I must light a fire in my mind; this is everyday crap afterall, and if so many other empty flesh vessels have done it, why can't I join their ranks?