I´ve been feeling so horrible, I feel always horrible but today it´s somehow unbearable. I am translating a book but can´t concentrate on it, I am trying to but I feel so frustrated, something keeps telling me to get out of here right now, but my mind is telling me to calm down, concentrate and do my work. I couldn't take it anymore so I burst into tears. I think I am going insane, I read the text million times over but don't know what it´s about, my concentration is totally gone. I thought I could earn some money now with translating when I don't have anything else but if it´s like this every day, I won't earn even enough to buy a salt water. It's like this always, in any employment. I just find myself totally impossible and can't cope even with the most simple ridiculous tasks. I always set myself some plan but don't have the ability to pull it through. If I didn't have this place by my parents, I would long be living somewhere under a bridge. If I can't cope even with this homework, how can I cope with something else, damn??
: (What will happen to Ben!?!)
