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mrb

mrb

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illuminationSP said:
Everyone else here appears to be going about their business as if nothing happened... well not me. I'm so tired of this life and I can't believe where I am. There are always these little reminders of how heavy things can become and the mess I've found myself in. I'm tired of drowning in the consequences of this and that. How weak am I if I can't even maintain myself as soon as something else unfolds in front of me? Every single thing is a trigger, as if there are land mines under surrounding ground. How the hell am I supposed to be released in a weak if I'm just made of glass? I've continued to walk for this long because I've closed my eyes while doing so, but in certain moments, I just fully realize. I can't stop crying again and I don't want to tell the staff. I feel unsafe, again. I'm on the verge of doing something to myself. Into the pit again.
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your not weak mate , if you were that weak you would have ended it all , so your not weak your strong enough to come on here and look for help , and also you have got yourself into a place were you can be helped , its going to be a long hard road to get better , but if your strong enough to look for help your strong enough to get better ;)
 
illuminationSP

illuminationSP

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mrb said:
your not weak mate , if you were that weak you would have ended it all , so your not weak your strong enough to come on here and look for help , and also you have got yourself into a place were you can be helped , its going to be a long hard road to get better , but if your strong enough to look for help your strong enough to get better ;)
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Thanks mrb, as always. You're great. I don't know what the status is with him, but I'll mention something as soon as I find out.
 
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overcome.

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I think it was nice of a person (who I do not know of) to rep me earlier on today, leaving me with a compliment + a comment saying at the end "I'd let you date my sister, for real." Ha, you made me laugh, man. Thanks, whoever you are.

I felt pretty bad earlier. I still do quite a bit. But I'm doing something pretty productive and cleaning out my whole room, getting rid of old stuff and organising some other things. It's amazing the amount of things you can look at or read, and get a huge blast from the past and smile. Plus, it's nice to read tonnes of old birthday cards with meaningful messages in and inspirational words. Even though they're things people haven't told me in years, I'm cared for. I'm grateful for that.

Tomorrow I'll be working for a few hours, then I'll go to the gym. After that, I'll spend the afternoon and evening with a friend. Tomorrow is going to be a good day.
 
Silentknight

Silentknight

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I feel like fate has snatched another chance at maybe finding that special girl who can like me despite my AvPD and can cuddle up with me to watch a movie on the TV. :( oh well I should've known better then to get my hopes up.
 
mrb

mrb

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well im getting ready for work , big sigh , i dont want to go to work today ::(: oh well never mind :) hi ho hi ho its off to work i go :)
 
Zeyla

Zeyla

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Confused and sick. The girl who I always used to be jealous of because she was so socially-competent just killed herself.
 
fudgy

fudgy

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Zeyla said:
Confused and sick. The girl who I always used to be jealous of because she was so socially-competent just killed herself.
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I am not trying to make an example out of this very very tragic story , but surely it does tell us all that things are not always as they seem !!!
 
Remus

Remus

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Zeyla said:
Confused and sick. The girl who I always used to be jealous of because she was so socially-competent just killed herself.
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I've experienced three people I know commit suicide during my lifetime, there was never an indication anything was wrong. I can understand your shock.

Some people can have normal lives and seem happy go lucky, then one day something snaps. ::(:
 
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