How are you feeling?

[lily]

Wow, it's so quiet today

 

[lily]

I wish more people would come to this forum. Why do more people go on SAS? this style to me is much more like a community

 

[lily]

I need more friends. None of my friends appeared today.

 

[koyaanisqatsi]

I'm feeling OK. As long as I can isolate, I do OK. But then there is the depression that comes with isolation. So it goes. I'm older..much older. And I've lived alone for about 40 years. Gainfully employed for long periods.

In 2015-2016, I was in crisis and was in a psych ward on and off. I felt there was a trigger. I had a series of urinary tract infections and I believe that was what caused the problems. Of course, the psychiatrist I was dealing with at the hospital would have none of it. But several other people said the had friends or relatives who starting having real mental problems when they developed urinary tract infections. So beware! Recently, I again had a urinary tract infection and was feeling more than the usual amount of anxiety and depression. Tough going. The infection has been cured. But I saw my primary care physician to head off a crisis. Rather than prescribe medications that have a history of working well for me, clonazepam and/or Nardil, she prescribed a medication that has a history of causing more problems for me. Trintellix! All seratonurgic medications (Prozac, Paxil, Zoloft, Effexor, Wellbutrin, maybe a couple others) caused extreme drowsiness for me. First dose of Trintellix yesterday and I'm wiped out today--can't do a thing. I'll tough it out for a couple more days, but if it doesn't improve I'll stop. The UTI is gone so the crisis has passed for now.

Thanks for listening.

 

[Graeme1988]

Thanks for listening and being a friend Graeme.

Awww... thanks.

 

[SilentAndShy]

I'm feeling incredibly low. I've got driving anxiety so when I drive, I have a tunnel vision focus on what I'm doing but unfortunately on Friday, it came at a devastating cost.

On a return journey home, I noticed two cars parked up. The weird thing about it was the first car was parked at angle on the grass verge. I just assumed it had been a road traffic accident and went on my merry way home, anxious about getting home and working. Soon after, piles of police cars drove past by my house.

Later on it emerged that one of the cars had a family relative who had been in the driver seat having died from a heart attack. I had driven past - unknowingly as I'd not seen his car - mainly focused on my anxiety than what was happening around me.

I'd rather have stopped, got out, seen whatever state he was in and at least I could console myself that I did something but this alternative, of guilt due to what I didn't do, is worse.

I'm avoiding the family home of theirs until the funeral but yeah, not sure if I will shake off this feeling for a while

 

[Hoth]

That'd be a horrible feeling. But if a heart attack is sudden and severe enough that someone goes off the road and presumably loses consciousness, their chances of survival were low even if a paramedic were on the scene immediately. And probably hundreds of other people passed by doing nothing too. I don't think there's anybody (other than law enforcement) who stops to check out every car that pulls over.

 

[SilentAndShy]

That'd be a horrible feeling. But if a heart attack is sudden and severe enough that someone goes off the road and presumably loses consciousness, their chances of survival were low even if a paramedic were on the scene immediately. And probably hundreds of other people passed by doing nothing too. I don't think there's anybody (other than law enforcement) who stops to check out every car that pulls over.

I felt slightly better meeting his children yesterday who seemed so at peace with it all that it put my thoughts in perspective and the right context. Maybe next time I'd try to do something but with my driving anxiety, probably not.

I have to add to this that I spoke to my manager today to say that I was working from home as I was physically exhausted and wanted to take it easy but unfortunately - and she has been excellent with me so far - she barely showed any empathy and instead started to discuss rules and changes to office policy about WFH than putting the former as a first talking point to ask "how are you?" etc. I was so disappointed and listening to a MH webinar which talked about checking with your team about mental wellbeing, I thought it was a huge misstep from her part.

 

[lily]

feeling lonely. I've got to go to my walk tomorrow. I don't usually post a lot on here but it's bc I hadn't got to my walks, etc. I hadn't because I had appointments and I'm tired of them bc I get tired bc of my medication. I wasn't on time once. I also have bible studies I reserved in place of the walk so I have had little exercise these day but I have 1 more bible study and then I could go to the walks full-on.

 

[Graeme1988]

Feeling a bit exhausted. Like I'm missing a day due to attending 2 concerts. One on Tuesday night and another last night. Nice to get out the house, though for what were my first concerts of the year. Even if there was a mix up with mine and my sister's tickets last night due to Ticketmaster giving up incorrect disabled access tickets - despite getting our usual wheelchair user and companion tickets that we've always booked.

Thankfully though, the female staff and woman who was in charge of the box-office were nice enough about the situation and let us stay at the show, instead of kicking us out of the gig. They just moved us to the disabled seating area in the venue's balcony area upstairs, so we still had a good view of the concert stage. Just a shame the headline band wasn't as great as the previous times we'd seen them live in concert.

 

[SilentAndShy]

feeling lonely. I've got to go to my walk tomorrow. I don't usually post a lot on here but it's bc I hadn't got to my walks, etc. I hadn't because I had appointments and I'm tired of them bc I get tired bc of my medication. I wasn't on time once. I also have bible studies I reserved in place of the walk so I have had little exercise these day but I have 1 more bible study and then I could go to the walks full-on.

I'm not sure if walks in this situation is a negative but it reminded me of a long walk I took yesterday to the dentists. I could have taken my car, been home in around 30 minutes. But the way I've been feeling (so physically and mentally exhausted) I thought the driving of a car gives me anxiety so why not walk it. I took two different routes, the way home was longer but it's a space I found to talk to myself as I do about everything. Did I finish it with a plan of how tackling it all? No. But it made me try to action a walk if I don't need to drive somewhere just for space away from everyone.

Hope the walks help for you

 

[lily]

feeling depressed. I'm feeling depressed bc I don't think I will be going out today and it won't be anywhere I want to go. I'm also feeling depressed about something else too which I don't want to talk about.

 

[lily]

Feeling a bit exhausted. Like I'm missing a day due to attending 2 concerts. One on Tuesday night and another last night. Nice to get out the house, though for what were my first concerts of the year. Even if there was a mix up with mine and my sister's tickets last night due to Ticketmaster giving up incorrect disabled access tickets - despite getting our usual wheelchair user and companion tickets that we've always booked.

Thankfully though, the female staff and woman who was in charge of the box-office were nice enough about the situation and let us stay at the show, instead of kicking us out of the gig. They just moved us to the disabled seating area in the venue's balcony area upstairs, so we still had a good view of the concert stage. Just a shame the headline band wasn't as great as the previous times we'd seen them live in concert.

aw, you seem so... sad. Why that sad?

 

[Graeme1988]

aw, you seem so... sad. Why that sad?

Disappointment, mainly. Because my sister and I were hyped and really looking forward to the concert. The pandemic had forced it to be postponed and rescheduled for this year.


It was a triple bill of bands we liked. 2 of which we'd seen in concert before. The headliner we'd twice when they toured with Def Leppard. The band who were 2nd on the bill, we saw back in 2008 - so it'd be over a decade since we last saw them. And they were the best band of the night, in terms of their sound, musicianship and the crowd interaction. They played their set as if they were headlining the show. And the actual headline band just sucked compared to the previous times my sister and I had seen them that we left the gig early.

 

[lily]

Disappointment, mainly. Because my sister and I were hyped and really looking forward to the concert. The pandemic had forced it to be postponed and rescheduled for this year.


It was a triple bill of bands we liked. 2 of which we'd seen in concert before. The headliner we'd twice when they toured with Def Leppard. The band who were 2nd on the bill, we saw back in 2008 - so it'd be over a decade since we last saw them. And they were the best band of the night, in terms of their sound, musicianship and the crowd interaction. They played their set as if they were headlining the show. And the actual headline band just sucked compared to the previous times my sister and I had seen them that we left the gig early.

I see, not totally though but kind of get what you're saying. Ok well, wish you luck in the other events you go to.