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theslowesthand

theslowesthand

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lily said:
I'm back and just posting to get by time.
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We all missed you jinxed! Socialphobiaworld needs every single active member!

Btw how was your 3-week trip overseas? what did you do there? how did u fill in the time? do u feel better now than before you left? did you feel better there than here? :question:
 
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Graeme1988

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
Just trying work out the how much things are going to cost will me when I move out...

Y'know, the basics. Heating, the lecky bill, - ie, electricity - and internet. :thinking:
 
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SilentAndShy

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I feel overwhelmed by all the things in my in-tray, in order of anxiety levels:

* Finding, purchasing and maintaining a car (this being a complete uninformed person about them and struggling to ask for help)
* Impending fatherhood
* Dealing with the responsibilities of the aforementioned fatherhood and what it entails (shopping, feeling like I can't look after my wife, my mood swings)
* Still struggling with issues at work, feeling envious of others' relationships and lacking the assertiveness and firm in my decisions.
* Money is in the bank but all it seems to do is go out

But besides that, everything is going great!
 
theslowesthand

theslowesthand

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I wish i were a dog (or a cat). They do stuff-all during the day, mainly sleeping/resting, & just hanging about, but don't seem to get bored. The little/simple things in life seem to entertain them & keep them busy. They also seem to have a different view of the world - a different mindset.

But if a dog is at home alone all day, and barking all day, does that mean it's bored & lacking stimulation?

It doesn't seem natural, to be a human, as i'm bored all the time. I can't live like this.

Do i use the computer too much? I'm on it all day, every day. I heard that too much screen time is harmful (eg can make you depressed). But it's become a habit, and i don't want to (or can't) do anything else really.

Often, the only thing that helps, is "spiritual" alcohol & junk food. They say 'junk in, junk out', but my junk has been there since birth; i've got a "faulty head" (God took it from the "discards" pile when he made me).
 
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BlueDays

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theslowesthand said:
I wish i were a dog (or a cat). They do stuff-all during the day, mainly sleeping/resting, & just hanging about, but don't seem to get bored. The little/simple things in life seem to entertain them & keep them busy. They also seem to have a different view of the world - a different mindset.
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I wish I was a dog or a cat, because they never have go through Job interviews.

Job interviews are pure torture for me. :crying:
I would rather be whipped with a Cat-o'-nine-tails, than have to go through one.
Even animals that humans put to work, transporting a rider on their back somewhere, hauling carts/backpacks packed with goods, pulling carriages, performing in a Circus/Water Parks. They never had to go through an actual Job Interview to get their work. I would prefer to be a cruelly treated Circus animal, having to perform the same routine every day, than be a human and living with dreading Job Interviews. :sad:
 
Kiwong

Kiwong

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I gave a talk in front of 8 people at work. ABout the vegetation survey I did at Lord howe Island. Went OK, got some applause.
 
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SilentAndShy

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Didn't go work yesterday, and not today citing a reason that is untrue.

I just couldn't face going in with the multitude of thoughts in my head that are causing me angst.. where to start?!
 
Graeme1988

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
Creeped out, my older sister asked me... - actually came upstairs to my room and asked me if I’d copy some of my DVDs, so she didn’t need to take from my collection all the time. :eek: Usually my Mum asks for her and an argument ensue.

Mind you, an argument did occur today over Mum not taking her pain meds for her joint issues. So, I’m just gonnae take over in that regard, and keep check on whether she’s taking them. If she’s unwilling to help herself as she should be... :thumbdown:
 
BlueDays

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^So that proves that your older sister is capable of being nice and treating you with respect, Graeme, she just chooses not to, most of the time. :sad:


SilentAndShy said:
Didn't go work yesterday, and not today citing a reason that is untrue.

I just couldn't face going in with the multitude of thoughts in my head that are causing me angst.. where to start?!
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You mentioned before that you are anxious about your impending fatherhood. That is the type of thing you could ask your parents for advise on. Are you able to ask them?

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Hella Hopeful
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Hopeful for something good?
 
theslowesthand

theslowesthand

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Been to town today. Spent 2 hours at a Wellness Recovery Action Plan (WRAP) course. One of things it states to try to avoid is alcohol. So right now, i'm all stressed & nervy & that, struggling with 'no, i don't NEED a glass ... i'll just have another beer'. MAYBE i can drink a bit less, & less spirits, but no way am i gonna stop altogether, i just CAN'T. Nothing can replace alcohol, for me.

Okay, i held off for a while, having another can, but then i relented & poured my self a lovely mix of vodka/fanta/fruit&vege-juice/milk (it has a nice orangey look & taste; reminds of the orange sodastream & icecream milkshakes i had as a kid, & also orange choc-chip icecream). I gotta have something to help me through the "craziness" that i endure after going abroad. Is it just me or is it hard to be all alone after being in company for a while (say couple hours); you are left to mull over all the craziness/aftermath by yourself (ie anxiety is up quite a bit, & you are nervously jiggling your leg, pulling hairs outta your beard, etc).

Crazy (Aerosmith). Now that's another type of crazy, and i have no idea how i'd cope with all that. Perhaps i could handle it okay, or perhaps not. I don't think i'll ever know tbh. It's just one of many [good] things in this life that i'll never get to experience, as my life is all about "lack" - that's my purpose in life, to experience extreme lack in things crucial to human emotional wellbeing. I'm like a "lab experiment".
 
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Graeme1988

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
BlueDays said:
^So that proves that your older sister is capable of being nice and treating you with respect, Graeme, she just chooses not to, most of the time. :sad:
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Aye -- that's how things are between us, sadly. Not really help by her smug "It's not good enough for me" attitude, her resentment and inability to empathise at times. Which is why we've never gotten on. She gets the latter two traits from our mother who is the same. Nay idea about the superiority complex and sense of entitlement, though. :idontknow:

My oldest sister and I have debated about that for the last year. Despite me, trying to an exact answer to this, in the aftermath of the middle sibling kicking off and start one of her prolonged arguments where she becomes a broken record; and ye just attempt answer her repeated shrieking cries of "Why? Whit did ye dae that fur?! :eek:mg:

Since that argument last year, when I tried to make her see how ridiculous and immature she looks when she starts yelling; I've stopped trying to reason with her. Cuz ah know that, no matter what, she won't listen - just like our mother. So, it's not worth wasting time n' energy over.

Sorry, didnae mean for this reply to turn intae a mini-rant. :bigsmile:
 
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