theslowesthand
Banned
He he, that's a good 'un!!! :lol:
How are you feeling?
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He he, that's a good 'un!!! :lol:
BlueDays
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That is such a horrible thing to do to her own child! :sad:Was intending to do that, but my mother's resorted to emotionally blackmailing me. Sayin' she'll take her own life if I move out.mg: :sad: :crying:
So very selfish of her.
Feeling like a failure.
I have tried so many times over so many years to give up using sugary foods for comfort in stressful times.
It's like my mind is a separate entity from "me" - with its own ideas about what it wants to do - with me having no control over it regarding what foods it craves and ends up consuming.
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
She doesn't see it like that. Neither does my oldest sister, who keeps telling me that she - our Mum - needs me. Apparently, the responsibility of caring for her is on me. Yet, lately, I've just felt like she burdens me with her problems - forgetting I have my own issues to deal with.
Some life, huh? :sad:
I can kinda relate to that. I think I might've put all the weight that I lost 2 years ago back on due to the stress I've endure for the last 6 months. :
: Haven't really been keeping in shape lately.
theslowesthand
Banned
Why thankyou kindly! :bigsmile:
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Thanks, jinxed. :thumbup:
But, as sad as it is to admit, I'm used to how things are now. :sad: Realised 2 years ago that I'm not the co-dependent. And believe me, I've tried to get my mother used to the idea of not having me around, living on my own. But every time it's comes back to how will she cope. Cuz y'know... f*ck the fact I could more than manage with a little support since my operation back at the start of 2016.
While it might be important to her, I'm just sick of the constantly negativity, feeling for herself and playing the victim. I mean my oldest sister burdens me with the responsibility of caring for our mother, but what she doesn't realise is that our Mum's too lazy to change. She "promises" she will, but never does. And I've gave her plenty of chances, but she just betrays me every time.
I've told her to start treating my sisters as she has done me over the years, but she's huvin none of it. Even though being threatened with an inconvenient stabbing as yer wide-eyed mother angrily welds a kitchen knife, spitting expletives in their general direction might keep them in line? :question: It'd definitely make them consider their conduct before call Mum stupid or telling her to f*ck off! Cuz we never had an argument go to that level since, my sisters haven't seen that side of our mother.
But I doubt she'd ever get used to not having me around, cuz she always sounded resentful when I'd prove to her that I don't need nor want her to do everything for me.
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Anthropomorphic
New member
I feel the shit in my soul. I don't know if going to sleep or stand up without do It...
I like this place.
With love: The sutmiruski
I like this place.
With love: The sutmiruski
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Overwhelmed. I just... Ah rarely get a break. Also, fed-up with being the computer tech in my family. Not that I hate fixing computers or laptops, it's just everyone dumps them with me and expects it to be fixed by a certain withoot me even what's actually wrong with it myself. Cuz they huv'nae got a clue. :kickingmyself:
On a positive my mother and I are having a quiet, relaxing day. The first in a long time. No older sister and her kids coming and stay for most of the day. I've never been so happy to wake up to a snow blizzard... It's like Christmas here in the Scottish Borders.
So much so I near did this:
when my Mum woke me up this morning and told me there's been heavy snowfall overnight.
On a positive my mother and I are having a quiet, relaxing day. The first in a long time. No older sister and her kids coming and stay for most of the day. I've never been so happy to wake up to a snow blizzard... It's like Christmas here in the Scottish Borders.
So much so I near did this:
FountainandFairfax
in a VAN down by the RIVER
I went out to grab a cup of coffee and ended up eating enough food for three people... and no coffee.
PugofCrydee
You want to know how I got these scars?
Well you'd better go back out and get that darned coffee!
FountainandFairfax
in a VAN down by the RIVER
I know. I pulled up in front of my place and I was like, "damn!" :bigsmile:
AtTheGates
Banned
Iv had those moments...
It usually starts with seeing a bag of cheetos out of the corner of my eye or something like that.
theslowesthand
Banned
Sometimes you just have to accept defeat, and retire to bed.
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Oh, what a Make a Wish month February's been fur me... Aw, man !
Got concert tickets for The Proclaimers... Da lat da (Da lat da), da lat da (Da lat da)
Da-da-da dun-diddle un-diddle un-diddle uh da-da!
And yesterday, my older sister accepted a house up the scheme where we used live afore moving back in the early 90s. She's no too happy about the location like, but she says there's nay way she'd even contemplate moving back in with me and our mother again.
Should've went easy on that bottle o' booze ah bought near the end o' last year, could've done with it about now.
Got concert tickets for The Proclaimers... Da lat da (Da lat da), da lat da (Da lat da)
Da-da-da dun-diddle un-diddle un-diddle uh da-da!
And yesterday, my older sister accepted a house up the scheme where we used live afore moving back in the early 90s. She's no too happy about the location like, but she says there's nay way she'd even contemplate moving back in with me and our mother again.
Should've went easy on that bottle o' booze ah bought near the end o' last year, could've done with it about now.
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theslowesthand
Banned
My post was meant to help & comfort! Going to bed helps me, when everything seems boring; it comforts me.
PugofCrydee
You want to know how I got these scars?
Oh, what a Make a Wish month February's been fur me... Aw, man !
Got concert tickets for The Proclaimers... Da lat da (Da lat da), da lat da (Da lat da)
Da-da-da dun-diddle un-diddle un-diddle uh da-da!
And yesterday, my older sister accepted a house up the scheme where we used live afore moving back in the early 90s. She's no too happy about the location like, but she says there's nay way she'd even contemplate moving back in with me and our mother again.
Should've went easy on that bottle o' booze ah bought near the end o' last year, could've done with it about now.
Are you still moving out to your own place Graeme?
theslowesthand
Banned
:question:
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
:thinking: That's kinda up in the air now. We'll see how things go in the next couple o' months. I've not been offered a place yet. And with it being 2 bedroom, my Mum could choose to give the tenancy of the house and move in with me.
Something my oldest sister only recently told me.But I've made it clear to my mother that she can play the victim and resort to blackmail aw she wants, but if she doesn't make an effort to change her way, I'll pack my stuff n' leave.
And that's despite my mother admitting recently that she's feels she gets on better with me cuz I'm no flying into a rage and demanding a justification for why ah should do what my mother's asked of me. Unlike a certain middle sibling... :thumbdown:
Plus, with exception of my room, I try to keep the rest of the house tidy. More than my mother, who's compulsive habit of buying food that she then packs away and forgets about is really oot o' control.
mg: Oh, and it's kinda sh!%ty when my observations are now being agreed with rather than treated as joke punchlines. That might seem weird, but it's odd to huv yer own mother and oldest sibling actually agreeing with you, instead of laughing at ya when you give yer opinion on something or someone.
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Eh, I'm guy, jinxed.
You are referring to me in that post, right? Don't worry, I'm not pissed off at ya for mis-gendered me. :bigsmile: Just sayin'...
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Feelin' surprisingly upbeat and, dare I say... happy this morning. Which, in Scottish terms, means there's something wrong with me.
First time I've actually woke up n' felt like: "Och! Why tha f*ck did ah even bother...?"
Which, in Scottish terms, means there's something wrong with me. First time I've actually woke up n' felt like: "Och! Why tha f*ck did ah even bother...?"