How are you feeling?

[Graeme1988]

Me too but for a year I didn't watch any news, sports, and listen to music except for old music :sad:

I haven't done that, myself. I mean I'll watch sports outta sheer bored at times. Oh, and out of curiosity, what's your definition of "old music"?

Why was it rough?

It was rundown, crammed. The neighbour's were arseholes. There was a lad who lived just a couple doors down from me who used to bullied me. So, not great. Then when we moved, it was slight better in that we lived next door to a family just as dysfunction as we are. Though, they've had less fight than us as time goes by...

School or public bus?

Oh, public bus.

I never saw a pedal go-kart, how does it look like?

One of these bad boys... :bigsmile:

So posh means middle class and rich at the same time?

Aye, that's how it goes.

Yes, same here. A lot of interests i had when younger now hold ZERO interest for me now. Life has become very boring & uninteresting.

That's pretty much how my life's gotten as well - very boring. Despite my family telling me otherwise. It's not much when music is about the only thing keeping going.

 

[Graeme1988]

Wish this constant joint and muscle pain in my legs would just f*ck off! :thumbdown:
They've been really sore as of late.

 

[theslowesthand]

you don't believe it's in the cop's jurisdiction to deal with cyber attacks but you're not sure?

No, i'm sure it's not, come to think of it.

 

[theslowesthand]

Wish this constant joint and muscle pain in my legs would just f*ck off! :thumbdown:
They've been really sore as of late.

I dunno, but COULD taking some pills/lotions that elderly people take for joint stiffness/etc help at all :question: :question:

 

[Graeme1988]

Nine Inch Nails - Everyday Is Exactly The Same - YouTube

^ My life for the last 6 months... Pity me if ye must. Ah couldnae give a f*ck at this point. :sad: :kickingmyself:

Death can't come soon enough for me like. The big sleep - f*ckin' bring it Gawd! C'mon ! Ma time on this earth wus done afore it started anyway.

Plus, naebuddy, man wummin or whatever ye considering yersel', should huv to tolerate a member o' their ain family behaving like an entitled 'tardcore f*ckwit, always playin' the victim. Pathetic! mg: :thumbdown:

And if ah spoke to our mother, the way my older sister just did upon entering the house an hour ago... It doesn't bare thinking about in all honesty.

 

[Graeme1988]

joint stiffness is usually an elderly symptom but i know that omega fish oil 3&6 no artificial flavors, colours and preservatives and in a dark container helps with it like arthritis, good luck

Thanks. :thumbup: I'll look into that. I only get joint stiffness cuz of my disability (cerebral palsy). My mother's the one with arthritis, but, being stubborn, she'd rather not take steps to help her condition. :sad: Regardless of how often I try to encourage her to do so... :idontknow:

 

[Graeme1988]

I dunno, but COULD taking some pills/lotions that elderly people take for joint stiffness/etc help at all :question: :question:

I've got some cooling cream, but that's just for reducing swelling. Whereas, I'm in pain when I'm moving about. :idontknow:

 

[Marc7]

I also had an issue with this thread when I click to open at the most recent post from the homepage, and it opened at posts from a few days previous.

When you are logged in or not logged in?

It will say under their avatar before the specified user status.

Oh, thanks but they don't post on threads a lot so idk who they are.

 

[Marc7]

I haven't done that, myself. I mean I'll watch sports outta sheer bored at times. Oh, and out of curiosity, what's your definition of "old music"?

Me too I watch sports only if I'm interested but other than that no. Why don't you watch news, sports, and etc? "Old music" is music that is not recent like 6-4 years back. The only time I listen to new music is if I have too.

It was rundown, crammed. The neighbour's were arseholes. There was a lad who lived just a couple doors down from me who used to bullied me. So, not great. Then when we moved, it was slight better in that we lived next door to a family just as dysfunction as we are. Though, they've had less fight than us as time goes by...

You mean a small and rundown area? Oh that sucks.That's good but not good lol.

Oh, public bus.

Wow they didn't provide school buses because you lived so far?

One of these bad boys... :bigsmile:

Cool

Aye, that's how it goes.

That is confusing.

That's pretty much how my life's gotten as well - very boring. Despite my family telling me otherwise. It's not much when music is about the only thing keeping going.

My life has got very boring recently because of anxiety,I haven't done things in a long time, fear of the unknown, and I'm behind in things.

 

[Graeme1988]

When you are logged in or not logged in?

That was while I was logged in.

 

[Graeme1988]

Me too I watch sports only if I'm interested but other than that no. Why don't you watch news, sports, and etc?

The news tends to get depressing after awhile. I mean, I try and come up with it now and then. But I don't watch it as much as I used.

Sports. Well, other than the Olympics or Athletic Championships, I can't be arsed. Football (soccer) has too much rivalry BS amongst the fans for it to be worth support a team. And whole Champion's League, I'm rare watching matches before that starts so I don't keep up with it. Due to not knowing when that league starts.

"Old music" is music that is not recent like 6-4 years back. The only time I listen to new music is if I have too.

Oh right. I listen to a lotta 80s music, mainly because that's all my local radio station seem to play. I'm mean they'll play the odd bit of new music, but not very often.

You mean a small and rundown area? Oh that sucks.That's good but not good lol.

Yeah. Though, having taken a trip back recently - my sister took me while she had a break during her work, recently - it's gotten worse. A lot of drug addicts and dealer going about. All I can say is: I'm glad I moved when I did.

Wow they didn't provide school buses because you lived so far?

Nope. My local council didn't bother with that, on the basis that I only lived a yards away from the school. The trek to school was hellish, up early everyday just to get ready. It got better once we moved closer to the town centre.

That is confusing.

That's the class system for ye! But I mean, apparently, I'm considered "posh" purely because of my Scottish accent not being a stereotypical. Despite my upbringing being anything but posh...

My life has got very boring recently because of anxiety,I haven't done things in a long time, fear of the unknown, and I'm behind in things.

Same here. Though, I'm trying to get back into learning the guitar and making music. But I still don't think I'm that great at either, to be honest.

 

[Graeme1988]

I, I... Ah cannae put up with this dysfunctional family pish for much longer. :kickingmyself: :sad: :crying: I feel on the verge of having a family "therapy session". A large chunk of which would just be me going full on Gordon Ramsay. Meaning ever other word uttered rhymes with duck. And my criticisms would be more rough wiping yer arse with sand paper.

Aye, that's where I'm at mentally folk. On a the edge, wondering if I should just go:

Sod it ! Nuthin' left to lose, nowt to gain. Might as well jump. :idontknow:​

 

[vj288]

For money, I've been looking into scanning thrift store items (specifically textbooks) and then selling them online. I started yesterday, and it was a good first day of scanning, but I felt awkward placing myself in front of the bookshelf for 30 minutes in the middle of the store with my smartphone out scanning every textbook for value. I hope in time it becomes more comfortable and not more awkward.

 

[Graeme1988]

Congratulations Marc7 for helping Graeme1988 so much it's complicated

He does his best. And appreciate his, or anyone else's help/advice here. :thumbup:

It's not exactly easy understanding a lad who grew up with a dysfunctional family. Ah mean, ah huv a hard time as is making sense o' it, myself. :kickingmyself:

 

[Graeme1988]

Been thinking about suicide a fair bit lately. :sad: Like ah couldnae give a f*ck the impact on my family. Cuz frankly my offing myself would be on them, and their inability to get along. Or more tae tha point, my older sister's inability to act like a f*ckin' fully grown adult. :kickingmyself:

I'm either on the verge of killing myself, or opening ma gob n' telling each of them what I genuinely think of them. And I'm talking the kinda stuff that would have them in tears and possibly never speaking to me again. Don't know

That's where I'm at, since the dream of independence has been crushed - an all too familiar feeling if yer a Scot. So, I can't move out. :crying:

 

[Marc7]

The news tends to get depressing after awhile. I mean, I try and come up with it now and then. But I don't watch it as much as I used.

Sports. Well, other than the Olympics or Athletic Championships, I can't be arsed. Football (soccer) has too much rivalry BS amongst the fans for it to be worth support a team. And whole Champion's League, I'm rare watching matches before that starts so I don't keep up with it. Due to not knowing when that league starts.

So you watch the news occasionally? To be honest I don't watch news, music, sports because of the fear I would disagree with something, fear of the unknown, I don't want to feel inferior, and I have no one o talk too about how i'm feeling. I been avoiding the Olympics because of fear of what going to happen.

Oh right. I listen to a lotta 80s music, mainly because that's all my local radio station seem to play. I'm mean they'll play the odd bit of new music, but not very often.

So what are the genres you listen besides rock and from what era?

Yeah. Though, having taken a trip back recently - my sister took me while she had a break during her work, recently - it's gotten worse. A lot of drug addicts and dealer going about. All I can say is: I'm glad I moved when I did.

Wow, I'm glad you moved too.

Nope. My local council didn't bother with that, on the basis that I only lived a yards away from the school. The trek to school was hellish, up early everyday just to get ready. It got better once we moved closer to the town centre.

How much yards did you live away from the school? Yea probably was hellish.

That's the class system for ye! But I mean, apparently, I'm considered "posh" purely because of my Scottish accent not being a stereotypical. Despite my upbringing being anything but posh...

Yea. Because your Scottish accent is not stereotypical your considered posh?

Same here. Though, I'm trying to get back into learning the guitar and making music. But I still don't think I'm that great at either, to be honest.

Why did you stop? That's good you have hobbies though.

 

[Marc7]

Congratulations Marc7 for helping Graeme1988 so much it's complicated

Thanks I do the best I can.

He does his best. And appreciate his, or anyone else's help/advice here. :thumbup:

It's not exactly easy understanding a lad who grew up with a dysfunctional family. Ah mean, ah huv a hard time as is making sense o' it, myself. :kickingmyself:

Hey I do the best can lol.

Yea.

 

[theslowesthand]

For money, I've been looking into scanning thrift store items (specifically textbooks) and then selling them online. I started yesterday, and it was a good first day of scanning, but I felt awkward placing myself in front of the bookshelf for 30 minutes in the middle of the store with my smartphone out scanning every textbook for value. I hope in time it becomes more comfortable and not more awkward.

I once thought of having a video scanner, & going to garage sales taking the video, and then using software to recognise each item, in case its a rare/expensive item, & then buying it right then (& re-selling). Just one of my crazy project ideas i've had over the years...

 

[theslowesthand]

Been thinking about suicide a fair bit lately. :sad: Like ah couldnae give a f*ck the impact on my family. Cuz frankly my offing myself would be on them, and their inability to get along. Or more tae tha point, my older sister's inability to act like a f*ckin' fully grown adult. :kickingmyself:

I'm either on the verge of killing myself, or opening ma gob n' telling each of them what I genuinely think of them. And I'm talking the kinda stuff that would have them in tears and possibly never speaking to me again. Don't know

That's where I'm at, since the dream of independence has been crushed - an all too familiar feeling if yer a Scot. So, I can't move out. :crying:

You do tend to be GREATLY affected by having squabbles/etc with your family, eh?. So great, that you have thoughts of suicide. Only a month/so ago i had a violent argument with my dad, & afterwards i felt suicidal, & then attempted suicide (but not cause of the argument, but due to the threat he made that he's evicting me from my home, ie the CONTENT of the argument). So, do they say things that make you depressed & worried for the future, or what?

 

[theslowesthand]

Had an alcoholic binge last night, & reached my limit. So i expect that's why i have a headache & mood issues this morning. So i took a couple painkillers, had breakfast, & having a coffee. Headache gone, & feeling better after being on spw! :thumbup: