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grapevine

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Invasion day today in australia. 26 january, the day Captain Cook came. Its celebrated as Australia Day, yet its basically ignoring on aboriginal identity and their story. I call it Bogan day lol. Because people go out with ignorance on this day in celebration but for some reason share it with meat. No thanks. lol
 
Boy, was I wrong to get my hopes up. :sad:

My older sister didn't take the flat, which would've been ideal for me. 2 bedrooms, a walk in shower. The reason(s)? The shower too small, and she doesn't like the wallpaper. :eek:h: :kickingmyself:
 
When this going to end? I can't put with this much longer. :crying: :kickingmyself:

Hate, all of a sudden, my family are seeing that I was all along about my older sister. The attitude, the contempt, the childish overreaction. :thumbdown:

Why couldn't I have had a normal family? :sad:
 
Try to find some hope if you can & cling onto it like a life raft. Hope will return in time i'm sure (as it has for me in my current crisis). Day by day, things will improve in your mind & the reality you perceive.
Glad to hear you've got a bit o' hope to get ye through in your time of crisis, slowesthand. :thumbup:

But for me, sadly, it's no as easy how you put it. :sad: Since August last year ah huv went to bed every night thinking, "Things'll get better, it just takes time". Then when things seem to be improving, my older sister throws a f*ckin' tantrum, cuz she doesnae like something. And we're back where we started. :eek:mg:

Cuz naebuddy, apart from me, has the balls to tell her how she's perceived by those around her, when she goes off and starts swearing and shouting. Then she cry n' feel sorry for herself. That way, she doesn't have to apologise for her words or actions, cuz she's the bloody victim, apparently! :kickingmyself: Sorry, just venting. Nothing's changed since the summer of 2017, as far I'm concerned.
 
Invasion day today in australia. 26 january, the day Captain Cook came. Its celebrated as Australia Day, yet its basically ignoring on aboriginal identity and their story. I call it Bogan day lol. Because people go out with ignorance on this day in celebration but for some reason share it with meat. No thanks. lol
I see it differently. I'm proud to be an Aussie, proud of my ancestors (no that doesn't make me a racist) and proud of my country. We're not perfect as a community but we ALL have it a lot better than a lot of other countries.

One of my best mates was full blood Aboriginal. Even he said the Aboriginal people are their own worst enemy today. No one alive today is responsible for the mistakes of the past. You can't change history, people need to move forward. Also, you can't help those that don't want to help themselves. That's a fact.

After all this time, people still don't get what some Aboriginals want. Do they want whites to leave Australia? That'll never happen. If they're so opposed to white mans way of life, don't partake in it.

So what is it exactly that the Aboriginals want?
 
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Glad to hear you've got a bit o' hope to get ye through in your time of crisis, slowesthand. :thumbup:
Well a've got hope & worry/despair in equal measure. But judging by how i've becoming more hopeful in past couple weeks, i think given some more time & confronting/experiencing my worries, that those worries will diminish. I mean, worries are about the future, & when the future becomes the present, the worries tend to quickly subside.

One such worry is how i'm gonna fill in the days, as at present i dont want to do hardly anything at all, and thats boring as hell. I have no idea how i'll spend my days when i go flatting. The only idea is to set up my old PS2 & play games. Also being in town, i will in theory be able to walk to various places of interest (eg walk to a cafe & have a coffee & cake, walk to the movie theatre to watch a movie, i dunno). I've always lived out in the country. I'm also worried that the noises will "get" to me (cars/etc & also my flatmates & their visitors). So i have all these worries about flatting, and those will probably remain until the future becomes the present & i can prove to myself that i can "handle" those things. Also, when i lived with my parents, i used to stay in my room most of the time. I think it may be a tough ask for me to change from a total hermit to somebody who can be around people; its a big change to my personality. Also i have pretty severe mood issues - often i have bad days.

But i'll make sure i'm stocked-up with booze, and i can just numb myself out if things get too much. :thumbup: (that's the way i've always coped with extreme feelings)
 
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Well a've got hope & worry/despair in equal measure. But judging by how i've becoming more hopeful in past couple weeks, i think given some more time & confronting/experiencing my worries, that those worries will diminish. I mean, worries are about the future, & when the future becomes the present, the worries tend to quickly subside.

One such worry is how i'm gonna fill in the days, as at present i dont want to do hardly anything at all, and thats boring as hell. I have no idea how i'll spend my days when i go flatting. The only idea is to set up my old PS2 & play games. Also being in town, i will in theory be able to walk to various places of interest (eg walk to a cafe & have a coffee & cake, walk to the movie theatre to watch a movie, i dunno). I've always lived out in the country. I'm also worried that the noises will "get" to me (cars/etc & also my flatmates & their visitors). So i have all these worries about flatting, and those will probably remain until the future becomes the present & i can prove to myself that i can "handle" those things. Also, when i lived with my parents, i used to stay in my room most of the time. I think it may be a tough ask for me to change from a total hermit to somebody who can be around people; its a big change to my personality. Also i have pretty severe mood issues - often i have bad days.
Well, to be fair I'm in a similar situation. Not saying to make ya feel even more depressed or anything, but it's true. I can definitely relate to the whole living with yer parents, but spending most of your time in yer room. And whole being a hermit for so long, that being around people takes a lotta effort.

Though I haven't a clue how things will go for me when I do get a place of my own. :idontknow: As for filling my days, making music is about all I've got going for me, really. Bit of [email protected]$%@rd that I get creative ideas in the wee hours of the night, though. :eek:h: Doesn't exactly help the insomnia.
 
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