How are you feeling?

[defiance]

I feel as if I am stuck in the middle of an f5 tornado that will never die out.

 

[theslowesthand]

Flabbergasted and amazed, that's how I felt at work today. For those of you that don't know I work at a restaurant full time and something beyond comprehension took place tonight....here's how it went down in graphic detail:

A large Hispanic man enters the restaurant and heads straight for the restroom. Me and my coworkers don't notice him because we are dealing with so many other customers. It turns out the man spent close to 30 minutes in the restroom and then left without anyone noticing this fact until it was too late.
Next thing I know I hear my coworker let out a yell from the same restroom the large Hispanic man had just used. Literal human sh*t painted on the walls, on the paper towel dispenser, toilet, handrail, and door, fresh human sh*t everywhere. I DO NOT GET PAID ENOUGH FOR THIS AGGRAVATION!! I cannot make this kind of stuff up and some customers are just plain @$$holes (no pun intended).

A large man - probably a large bowel movement.

I wonder if he washed his hands before leaving? What's the bet he did? :question:

Dat's some bad shit...

 

[defiance]

I feel as if I have failed not only as a man but as a human being. It's pretty much over for me.

 

[theslowesthand]

I feel as if I have failed not only as a man but as a human being. It's pretty much over for me

Oh yes, that certainly goes for me.

 

[Hot_Tamale]

I feel as if I have failed not only as a man but as a human being. It's pretty much over for me.

Nature abhors a vacuum. If there is nothing good in your life it will be filled with something good eventually I bet. Never give up hope.

 

[Graeme1988]

Like life is going at such a pace that I barely have time to properly appreciate it. :sad: Does that make me seem like an ungrateful effin' knob-end? :idontknow:

 

[Graeme1988]

I feel as if I have failed not only as a man but as a human being. It's pretty much over for me.

Oh yes, that certainly goes for me.

Yep! Same here.

 

[theslowesthand]

Like life is going at such a pace that I barely have time to properly appreciate it. :sad: Does that make me seem like an ungrateful effin' knob-end? :idontknow:

Thankfully (i think), I wouldn't know what life going fast feels like, as i cannot handle any change at all, so my life has always been lived in the "slow lane" (more like the road verge actually). So even though my life is slow, i don't feel like i appreciate it; but that could be due to my constant worrying/anxiety/restlessness - so there's never really a "quiet moment" in which to contemplate life.

 

[FountainandFairfax]

I haven't been able to get anything off the ground creatively speaking in a few weeks.

I desperately need a muse.

 

[Graeme1988]

Thankfully (i think), I wouldn't know what life going fast feels like, as i cannot handle any change at all, so my life has always been lived in the "slow lane" (more like the road verge actually).

It's a right b@$%@*^, so it is. So, I envy you in these sense that your life not as chaotic as mine. But then, I'm having to make up for those around me being quite immature and incredibly lazy at times.

So even though my life is slow, i don't feel like i appreciate it; but that could be due to my constant worrying/anxiety/restlessness - so there's never really a "quiet moment" in which to contemplate life.

Possibly? :question: :idontknow: I guess when yer constantly worry about stuff ye don't really have time quietly reflect on things. Though, I'm not really appreciating my life as much as I should, y'know? Don't know if I try to do too much, or go to too many things, like concerts and comedy shows? But then my life would be pretty empty if I didn't get out the house once in a while, despite my anxiety.

I haven't been able to get anything off the ground creatively speaking in a few weeks.

I desperately need a muse.

What are you try to create, exactly? Since, if you can get that goal of what you intend to do defined, then you can start searching for a muse (inspiration). A mission statement, if ye will.

I've kinda manage to get my creativity going in the past few days. Though, writers block has suddenly stuck, and I'm at a loss as to how I should progress with this original song I'm trying to compose. :thinking:

 

[FountainandFairfax]

What are you try to create, exactly? Since, if you can get that goal of what you intend to do defined, then you can start searching for a muse (inspiration). A mission statement, if ye will.

I've kinda manage to get my creativity going in the past few days. Though, writers block has suddenly stuck, and I'm at a loss as to how I should progress with this original song I'm trying to compose. :thinking:

Thanks Graeme, I mostly do fantasy/horror type stuff in Photoshop and 3D, nothing special.

I'm just being a turd right now, it'll pass.

As far as song writing goes, good luck. I've scribbled a little poetry here and there over the years, but composing songs completely baffles me.

It's an art unto itself. :kickingmyself:

 

[defiance]

The blueprint to my, almost, everyday life.

1. Wake up and be greeted by an indescribable amount of pain and misery.
2. After phase one lasts for about 4-7 hours, I then move onto feeling completely numb.
3. A combination of 1 and 2 then brings about an insane urge to end my life by any means.
4. Remember all the things that I should do but I can't do and feel like the biggest waste
of life
5. Go to sleep as this is the closest thing I get to numbing the pain.

I have tried for years to get control of these things but these demons are so powerful that they let you know everyday that they are the ones in charge of your life and not the other way around.:crying:

 

[justlittleoldme]

Is this website even active??

I'm extremely PO'd that I introduced myself, experiences & quest for resources in an extensive post. Only to be prompted that I didn't have permission???

Could some human please respond? I haven't received any response when I contacted "Contact" button.

VERY VERY upset ince I thought I could get some help.

 

[GraybeardGhost]

Is this website even active??

I'm extremely PO'd that I introduced myself, experiences & quest for resources in an extensive post. Only to be prompted that I didn't have permission???

Could some human please respond? I haven't received any response when I contacted "Contact" button.

VERY VERY upset ince I thought I could get some help.

Did you perhaps include a link in your post? I believe new members are prevented from doing so in an effort to reduce spam on the site. I had the same thing happen when I was new. Maybe one of the mods could take a look?

Meanwhile, welcome to the forum!

 

[Graeme1988]

Thanks Graeme, I mostly do fantasy/horror type stuff in Photoshop and 3D, nothing special.

I'm just being a turd right now, it'll pass.

Sound pretty cool, actually. I'm not that skilled when it comes to Photoshop, myself.
So, you make 3D models? Or am I way off in that assumption?

As far as song writing goes, good luck.

Thanks. :thumbup:

I've scribbled a little poetry here and there over the years, but composing songs completely baffles me.

It's an art unto itself. :kickingmyself:

Oh, crumbs no! I'm not even going to attempt singing or writing lyrics. Keeping the instrumental music side of composing only. Though, I'm equally baffled by how ye write a song. Just going off what sounds good to me for the most part, really. But I'm struggling to come up with a smooth transition from the intro, to what would be the verse section. h:

 

[Graeme1988]

Is this website even active??

I'm extremely PO'd that I introduced myself, experiences & quest for resources in an extensive post. Only to be prompted that I didn't have permission???

Could some human please respond? I haven't received any response when I contacted "Contact" button.

VERY VERY upset ince I thought I could get some help.

Hiya, welcome to the forum. :greeting:

 

[theslowesthand]

The blueprint to my, almost, everyday life.

1. Wake up and be greeted by an indescribable amount of pain and misery.
2. After phase one lasts for about 4-7 hours, I then move onto feeling completely numb.
3. A combination of 1 and 2 then brings about an insane urge to end my life by any means.
4. Remember all the things that I should do but I can't do and feel like the biggest waste
of life
5. Go to sleep as this is the closest thing I get to numbing the pain.

I have tried for years to get control of these things but these demons are so powerful that they let you know everyday that they are the ones in charge of your life and not the other way around.:crying:

I've always maintained that the first step to (possibly) overcoming one's problems/demons/etc is ACKNOWLEDGEMENT (you seem able to acknowledge that the issues or bad feelings are there).
The next step is to NAME them (you gotta name it to claim it). Perhaps write them down, whenever they occur.

 

[FountainandFairfax]

Sound pretty cool, actually. I'm not that skilled when it comes to Photoshop, myself.
So, you make 3D models? Or am I way off in that assumption?

Nah, I've tried working with Blender and Z-Brush, but I'm way too lazy to make my own figures. I mostly use the ones that are already made by people who aren't the creative equivalent of a sloth swimming in a tar pit.

Oh, crumbs no! I'm not even going to attempt singing or writing lyrics. Keeping the instrumental music side of composing only. Though, I'm equally baffled by how ye write a song. Just going off what sounds good to me for the most part, really. But I'm struggling to come up with a smooth transition from the intro, to what would be the verse section. h:

I hear you. Are there other musicians you can collaborate with, or are you a one-man-band?

 

[defiance]

I've always maintained that the first step to (possibly) overcoming one's problems/demons/etc is ACKNOWLEDGEMENT (you seem able to acknowledge that the issues or bad feelings are there).
The next step is to NAME them (you gotta name it to claim it). Perhaps write them down, whenever they occur.

Unfortunately using methods like these haven't helped me in the past. Maybe that's why I am willing to give alcohol, in moderation, another go.

 

[theslowesthand]

Unfortunately using methods like these haven't helped me in the past. Maybe that's why I am willing to give alcohol, in moderation, another go.

That's a shame .. as to find a name
Well it's the name of the game
It is the foremost aim
Another thing is to try find the thoughts to blame

As for alcohol, good choice, it's a big :thumbup: