How are you feeling?

zharl

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But Concerta and Ritalin are not supposed to treat social phobia. They are for ADHD and narcolepsy only.

Edit: Just making this clear because those drugs are way different than antidepressants, they give a "rush" so to speak.

RIGHT! Sorry for the confusion! I knew that, but I shouldn't assume that everyone else does. :eek:h:
 

this_portrait

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It's way too hot in my apartment. I wish the building didn't remove the air conditioners in each unit for the 7-8 months of the year when it's mostly cold, because then I could at least put it on fan mode. An open window and a small fan running just aren't cutting it. Hopefully wherever I move I can keep my a/c in the window all year long.
 

Kiwong

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I look at all the sane people around me, and I see a hotbed of dysfunction and insanity. Sane people reacting in an irrational manner. Perhaps it easier to observe coming from my understanding of mental illness.
 
Like a robot who has no idea how to turn themselves "off". I don't want to be "on" anymore, but my owner refuses to turn me off.

I picked up a medium sized sledgehammer where I volunteer the other day and my mind got excited as thoughts about what I could do with something like that instantly flooded in.
That scared me.
 
I look at all the sane people around me, and I see a hotbed of dysfunction and insanity. Sane people reacting in an irrational manner. Perhaps it easier to observe coming from my understanding of mental illness.
Yes, everyone seems to just have different ways and degrees of "being dysfunctional". And some are just exceptionally skilled at hiding it from the general public.
I don't think we humans are all that far removed from animals as we would like to believe.
 

SilentAndShy

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I've had my third spell of high temperature/headache since March - meaning I've not been able to go to work. Trying to think of what reasons it has happened. Might be my stress/anxiety?
 
this is my week so far lol

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MollyBeGood

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So here is what I was able to get out of my head:


Ominus cloud,
Stretching out bitterly,
Horizon beaming,
Dust warm wind speculate and positive bright,
We have seen many dents in our armor,
Our holy cell cycle in it,
Of unholy repetition inside the casting,
Maddening spherical,
Today I saw the hawks circling and I thought of you,
Dry warm wind as they ascended and descended smoothly against the deep sky,
Wrath in circles,
Circles, weaving, bobbing anger their wings festooned the blue,
My heart is the prey and the meat for nothingness,
And nothingness is round like the flight of those vultures,
Then I thought of armor like skin,
Like dirty skin protectant for us,
Nothing can penetrate it's wrath,
I fear we shall always be angry clowns.


Not the greatest but felt good to write something.

I wanted to say, this is very good!!

also, thank you for the Bukowski clip a while back. I rewatched a movie about him but got so turned off by the Bono and Shaun Penn interviews I stopped watching. I wish all famous people would die. Ha I have gotten so hateful but I really don't care.
 

defiance

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My world is falling apart at a faster rate than I thought. If I can muster the courage, I will write about it sometime soon.
 

S_Spartan

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I wanted to say, this is very good!!

also, thank you for the Bukowski clip a while back. I rewatched a movie about him but got so turned off by the Bono and Shaun Penn interviews I stopped watching. I wish all famous people would die. Ha I have gotten so hateful but I really don't care.
Thanks man! (I know you arent a man..lol) I need to do more of those on-the-spot poems just to fan the flames.

U2 is a good band but I can't give a crap about what Bono says anymore. That's a dude who has done a lot of preaching while living the luxurious life of the top 1%. That kind of thing may have worked in the 80s/90s but now it just seems yucky.
 

S_Spartan

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Eh...the thing about hope and disappointment is that the feelings are kind of fluid. You'll feel hope again soon enough!

Hope, like happiness is fleeting, but it tends to pop-in again every so often. :D

I believe a person needs some good "magic" every now and again to keep hope going. Some good thing or opportunity that comes easy, just falls in their lap, and really gets them ahead or at least takes their mind off of how crummy their lives are.
Say for every 20 struggles there is one good and easy piece of magic that keeps a person going. I truly believe that average people's lives work like this. They struggle, but they also get good things handed to them. Or at the very least their efforts are rewarded with positive results on a fairly consistent basis.
Then there are those of us that are stuck in this perpetual state of bad luck/no luck. We try and try, and try some more but no magic comes. Nothing changes. Nothing propels us forward. There is no help as we are on our own. We are living like aliens in this world. We are kept alive but never privy to the riches. Life isn't as much about ups and downs as it is about a numbing, slow degradation.
Now I think I will go fix myself a little drank! ;)
 
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