How are you feeling?

[twiggle]

Like a rant that I may delete later.

I'm sick of people thinking they're better than other people because they don't participate in certain activities. I myself choose not to participate in many things that a majority of people do, but I most certainly don't put people down because they don't do what I don't. Then on the flip side I am annoyed with people who think they're better because they participate in certain activities. I'm so sick of this holier than thou attitude from people.

I hear you.

Not doing something just because the masses do it is no better than doing something purely for the purpose of fitting in with the majority.

The biggest strength is in not being wavered by these aspects and just doing whatever you want.

 

[KiaKaha]

Good Morning Northern Hemisphererers...

How ARE you...?

Me? Meh.

*scratches bum*

 

[Nathália]

It's not easy being "different", that's for sure! Just keep being you, Beleza!

I was confused for a second. Until I read your name.
Ha.ha.ha! At your photo. ♥♥♥
I only know how to be one way.
Super Nerdy, creepy and weird.

I feel bad. Just bad. I got a job next week, I think I'm just not enthusiastic on my future, I don't know what will happen "next", like it's completely a puzzle to me. Like in autumn I planned to start this engineering course, mostly because I have to start doing something, later that course will result me in a job. Maybe I just need other people in my life, that would cheer me up eventually, but my SA isn't letting that happen, or maybe it's just confidence...
I'm a type of guy who can help others but not myself, when we talk about the same issues.

I'm sorry Daniel. Good luck to you on your engineering course. I know, it is hard to open up to people with SA, there are times when people come into our lives unexpectedly. Just keep pushing.

I hear you.

Not doing something just because the masses do it is no better than doing something purely for the purpose of fitting in with the majority.

The biggest strength is in not being wavered by these aspects and just doing whatever you want.

Your responses are always the best because of your clever wording that seems as if you've formulated such ideas at ease. I get in states where I'm vexed and can't determine my real emotions until I write it out. I do hold beliefs like each individual, I just feel lousy when I hold things against people. There are good people on each side of the fence and people never get to know them because they hold things against them.


Just me babbling.................Thanks.

shi t, nervous, anxius

You've been upset lately. What's going on?

I just wish I could wake up in a different place all together. Somewhere remote and far away from people and any urban environments. Somewhere close to nature and far away from society and it's pointless and toxic ideals.

I love nature. This is probably weird, but I so would take a vacation to a jungle just to escape life. I know just how you feel, sorry. I watch a movie or put my head in a book just to escape reality when I feel that way. I hope you feel better.

Sick fed up! Really tired with feeling like I have to please everyone all the f**kin' time. Wishing people would stop forcing me interact socially when I don't feel like it. "But you have to..." Hmmm, oh really?! So I've got nae choice in the matter...? Get tae f**k! Well if ya want it that way, it'll be just as akward - if not more - for you than it is for me. Because I'm actually more use to silence. Since I rarely talk, anyway.

On a happier, more upbeat note, just ordered the new Zoom H2n Handy Recorder microphone from Amazon.

The last part made me chuckle. Glad you have your microphone, you really are putting a lot of work into this project. I'm sure you will do well. Sorry people are still bothering you to socialize.

 

[Graeme1988]

The last part made me chuckle. Glad you have your microphone, you really are putting a lot of work into this project. I'm sure you will do well. Sorry people are still bothering you to socialize.

I'm glad to hear that, Beleza. Because I went through 3 microphones - a desktop; clip-on lapel; and USB microphone - all o' which were cheap and utter sh*te! Couldnae even pickup my voice! Wouldn't go so far as tae say I'm putting a lot of into this wee voice recording project - though, some here may think otherwise. Truth be told, I'm quite a lazy bastard.

But... as long as the microphone gives good sound quality and can pickup my voice without making me sound more Glaswegian than I actually am, - no that that's a bad thing, by any means - it should be fine! Anyway, the socialising doesn't bother me as such, it's the fact I don't do small talk, find it quite boring, actually.

Sorry I'm just rambling on now. A sign of things to come, perhaps...? ::

 

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Your responses are always the best because of your clever wording that seems as if you've formulated such ideas at ease. I get in states where I'm vexed and can't determine my real emotions until I write it out. I do hold beliefs like each individual, I just feel lousy when I hold things against people. There are good people on each side of the fence and people never get to know them because they hold things against them.


Just me babbling.................Thanks.

Wow, what a compliment, thank you Beleza :: I'm not so good with words when I'm speaking them though haha.

I'm feeling really relieved. Was quite worried about something and have been for the past week but all okay now.

I've also just found out that a lady I know thinks I'm a b*tch because I'm stand-offish around her. I also found out she calls my friend 'Fat Ass' and told somebody to **** off because they told her not to yell in the street at 2am whilst a 7 month baby was trying to sleep upstairs.
I'm glad this lady doesn't like me

 

[vj288]

Depressed about life I guess. The things I've never done, the things I'll never do, the way things are, things that can't be changed. It's all stupid stuff that doesn't matter, I've just had too much time to myself lately. I really need some sort of project or something to keep me occupied, I need something else to keep my mind on.

 

[Invisibleman]

I went out in public for the first time in a while today. A friend was over and we walked around and hung out at the mall,oggling girls and the whatnot.

My friend was also over that previous night,we got into the liquor cabinet and well...I got drunk for the very first time. I was iffy at first but my friend persuaded me by giving me the whole "everybody does it" and telling me to try it atleast once in my life. And im glad I did, because I got to see how pointless it is and how much of a waste of time it is. <Thats my PERSONAL opinion and OH BOY can I see how ridiculously that will be spun

Personally I really dont see what the big deal is. For starters I always imagined in my mind that alcohol tatses good, because obviously many people do it. But alcohol is f**king MORBID!!!!!! I took a sip of Crown Royal and almost vomited on the spot. Even when I mixed it with stuff, you know the various cocktails and stuff, it was still seriously disgusting. Its not even that pleasant to drink, its like drinking battery acid.

And then second of all was the way I acted. Most people when drunk like to get up on the table,sing kareoke and then fall face first onto the floor. My friend told me that when I was wasted I was NO DIFFERENT. I acted the exact same as I always do just laughing a tad more frequently.

And then lasty I woke up and felt like absolute sh*t. Not even just physically but mentally. I took a shower and got all cleaned up and even still I felt so dirty and sh*tty.

Im probably not going to get drunk again. If I need a poisonous beverage to have a good time then im doing something wrong.

 

[vj288]

For starters I always imagined in my mind that alcohol tatses good, because obviously many people do it. But alcohol is f**king MORBID!!!!!! I took a sip of Crown Royal and almost vomited on the spot. Even when I mixed it with stuff, you know the various cocktails and stuff, it was still seriously disgusting. Its not even that pleasant to drink, its like drinking battery acid.

Hah that's exactly what I thought the first time I drank! "Why do so many people enjoy drinking this, it's disgusting!" It does have a positive effect on me though, sometimes more subtle then other times, it doesn't for everyone though. If it didn't help me at all I wouldn't bother drinking ever though, it is disgusting ::

 

[JuiceB]

I went out in public for the first time in a while today. A friend was over and we walked around and hung out at the mall,oggling girls and the whatnot.

My friend was also over that previous night,we got into the liquor cabinet and well...I got drunk for the very first time. I was iffy at first but my friend persuaded me by giving me the whole "everybody does it" and telling me to try it atleast once in my life. And im glad I did, because I got to see how pointless it is and how much of a waste of time it is. <Thats my PERSONAL opinion and OH BOY can I see how ridiculously that will be spun

Personally I really dont see what the big deal is. For starters I always imagined in my mind that alcohol tatses good, because obviously many people do it. But alcohol is f**king MORBID!!!!!! I took a sip of Crown Royal and almost vomited on the spot. Even when I mixed it with stuff, you know the various cocktails and stuff, it was still seriously disgusting. Its not even that pleasant to drink, its like drinking battery acid.

And then second of all was the way I acted. Most people when drunk like to get up on the table,sing kareoke and then fall face first onto the floor. My friend told me that when I was wasted I was NO DIFFERENT. I acted the exact same as I always do just laughing a tad more frequently.

And then lasty I woke up and felt like absolute sh*t. Not even just physically but mentally. I took a shower and got all cleaned up and even still I felt so dirty and sh*tty.

Im probably not going to get drunk again. If I need a poisonous beverage to have a good time then im doing something wrong.

Lol. Getting drunk IS a waste of time believe me. Plus you started out with Crown Royal? I can see your room spinning in my head and can only imagine how you feel. Maybe it was a good lesson for you. When I do drink I only do so in moderation. People talk about going out and getting drunk but there's no fun in that.

 

[HumanZ]

Lol. Getting drunk IS a waste of time believe me.

Also waste of money. I'm not sure about the prices in other countries, but in here the entrance costs like 12e + cloakroom 2e. The cheapest drinks cost 5e.

It's funny when my mates come to tell me how they spend like 50-100e for one night in a nightclub and a half of their student allowances went there. And what's left. Don't remember anything and a hangover.
Well, not my business how people like to spend their money but alcohol isn't my thing. I've my own temptations.

 

[Nathália]

I'm feeling really relieved. Was quite worried about something and have been for the past week but all okay now.

I've also just found out that a lady I know thinks I'm a b*tch because I'm stand-offish around her. I also found out she calls my friend 'Fat Ass' and told somebody to **** off because they told her not to yell in the street at 2am whilst a 7 month baby was trying to sleep upstairs.
I'm glad this lady doesn't like me

And you found out that she was the meanie pantz.
I doubt you're trying to be a you know what.
I'm sorry she called you that, but glad you're over her.

I'm glad to hear that, Beleza. Because I went through 3 microphones - a desktop; clip-on lapel; and USB microphone - all o' which were cheap and utter sh*te! Couldnae even pickup my voice! Wouldn't go so far as tae say I'm putting a lot of into this wee voice recording project - though, some here may think otherwise. Truth be told, I'm quite a lazy bastard.

But... as long as the microphone gives good sound quality and can pickup my voice without making me sound more Glaswegian than I actually am, - no that that's a bad thing, by any means - it should be fine! Anyway, the socialising doesn't bother me as such, it's the fact I don't do small talk, find it quite boring, actually.

Sorry I'm just rambling on now. A sign of things to come, perhaps...? ::

You're not that lazy. I would have been like aww screw it my microphone is crappy and ended it there. My microphones are junk as well. Well I'm also a cheap wad. I agree with you about small talk, if only I knew how to get around it.

I went out in public for the first time in a while today. A friend was over and we walked around and hung out at the mall,oggling girls and the whatnot.

My friend was also over that previous night,we got into the liquor cabinet and well...I got drunk for the very first time. I was iffy at first but my friend persuaded me by giving me the whole "everybody does it" and telling me to try it atleast once in my life. And im glad I did, because I got to see how pointless it is and how much of a waste of time it is. <Thats my PERSONAL opinion and OH BOY can I see how ridiculously that will be spun:rolleyes

Aww. I agree with you about the taste. My family tried to get me to drink alcohol as a sedative. I've tried all kinds and left them alone after the first sip. I hope you feel better.

 

[this_portrait]

Slightly irritated from earlier, but hopefully some dinner will make me feel better. I just want this temp job to be finished already so I can relax for a bit, find a part-time job (preferably one with more physical activity), and (hopefully) go back to school.

 

[Labyrinthine]

Awesome since the general manager isn't in tonight
Won't have to be called a brat lol

 

[Graeme1988]

You're not that lazy. I would have been like aww screw it my microphone is crappy and ended it there. My microphones are junk as well. Well I'm also a cheap wad. I agree with you about small talk, if only I knew how to get around it.

Good point about the microphone.

 

[Hellhound]

Decent at the moment.

 

[Labyrinthine]

Really uncomfortable now. The chef came out and was making comments about how quiet I am, that he forgot I was here, that I'm a statue, etc. I'm sure it was just a careless "joke", but my mood dropped just the same.

 

[Silatuyok]

like a tall glass of milk.

 

[KiaKaha]

It's uncomfortable talking about my lack of spiritual faith to a devout christian - I kind of want to delve deep into the reasons why I dont particularly believe in god - and bring up all the questions and paradoxes etc - but I also feel that if I did it would make THEM feel uncomfortable - which would make me feel a bit bad.

Can you dig it sucka?

 

[dottie]

i'm surrounded by people all day at work. no privacy. it is draining. my boyfriend wants nothing more than to socialize when i get off of work and on my weekends. i just want to be alone.

sometimes i like that he pushes me a bit but i WANT to be alone. this weekend i want to shut in and work on my sewing.

 

[dottie]

and don't wave the tip jar in my face and guilt trip me for not shelling out. like i'm going to tip someone who makes at LEAST 10 times what i do in a year busting my ass full time just because they strummed the guitar pretty. like i ever had a chance to be shipped off to the fancy college you ship off your kid to.

yeah, i'm bitter and it's unbecoming. that is why i hide it and post it here where no one sees.