How are you feeling?

Kinda sorta MORE drunkisshhhhhhhh..... eheh

Like a real douchebag.

superfluouslyme said: ↑

ETA: Scratch that. I just logged on to Mediafire and found that all of the music I uploaded is gone :mad

Yeah, that would indeed be annoying .. esp if no backup (have you a backup?)

The thing is, most file-hosting (free account) sites limit the files to between 30-90 days, after which they are automatically DELETED (no "Recycle Bin" here!), UNLESS the files have been "accessed" within that time (or maybe you log into your profile). The reason for the limited file life, is that "file-hosting" sites are designed for the FILE-TRANSFER (via internet) of large files from one pc to another (ie pc's in remotely different locations; ie2 TEMPORARY file transfers). But many people use them for "PERMANENT" hosting of files, which is why in some older forum threads (esp if which are "image-heavy"), there can be some posts which show "place-holders" instead of their images (meaning the links are broken, ie files on hosting site have been deleted).

I myself have been looking for a PERMANENT (no expiry, unless site disbands) place to store certain files, mainly for images some of my forum (spw & other) posts use.

So i can see 3 options:
1) Continue using a FREE account, & regularly log into it (mediafire can send reminder emails - check account settings)
2) Get a PAID account with a file-hosting site (so files NEVER expire)
3) Use a "file backing-up" type of site (files will last indefinately)

I'm feeling all right. Not looking forward to all the homework I've gotta do over this weekend, but ya gotta do what ya gotta do.

this_portrait said: ↑

I'm feeling all right. Not looking forward to all the homework I've gotta do over this weekend, but ya gotta do what ya gotta do.

^Yep, same here 😉

PipsMcClawski said: ↑

Like a real douchebag.

What's wrong? Hope you feel better soon 🙂

I feel sad; I need to find new friends on here and on the outside but I'm too scared to initiate anything. I really shouldn't be but if things went the way they were supposed to, then the world would be a much better place. I also need to find a job but I can't find any jobs that I can do and I don't know where else to apply.

Saskia said: ↑

Sad. It's so hard to cry, I am such an emotional person and I hate it.
I wish I was a strong person, a mental stable person. That's what I wish for every single day. I'm so not cabable of dealing with my feelings, I keep on breaking cuz it hurts. If someone tells me a mean thing, I always get so in pain because then I start to think the world is breaking apart, I am so suffering sometimes that I start to think this, just because I cannot handle the situation. I hate being this way, that's even worse. I don't wanna be sad, I wanna build a wall and not let other's break me all the time. Cuz everybody can knock my wall, I don't want to be hurt any longer

This may help...

TheSmallestLoser said:

Think of yourself as like a boat out at sea battling this hurricane. Your life, body, personality, past & future are the boat. Your thoughts & feelings are the waves on the surface. Both of these are very much at the mercy of outside elements (such as the hurricane). But below all this violence, chaos and mayhem, deep down into the still depths of the sea, lies the constant, calm, stable, eternal "real you", which is totally free of all problems found at the surface & above (anger, guilt, loneliness, frustration, ........).
What i think you need to do is to regularly "go to this place" of calm, to "decompress" (in the sea analogy, there's far more "pressure" at the surface, than deep down). Perhaps meditation?. Or even just regulalrly reminding yourself that "you" are not your mind/body/problems/life

(In another words, although it may seem, dear, that others are break you .. they cannot "break into" the deep/real you. And although it feel world be "breaking apart", at worst is only the "outer" of yourself (feelings, thoughts, personality, roles), and only very temporary (ie not actually broken beyond repair, but maybe bit burnt or sth, which heals). The thing that cannot be seen (or even experienced for most), nor can be "touched" AT ALL by others, is your inner essence - your very core, which is ALWAYS 100% at peace!!! 🙂

Overwhelmed.
I don't know how other people manage it. I wonder if a lot of people just pretend that they cope ok with it.😕

thesmallestloser said: ↑

This may help...


(In another words, although it may seem, dear, that others are break you .. they cannot "break into" the deep/real you. And although it feel world be "breaking apart", at worst is only the "outer" of yourself (feelings, thoughts, personality, roles), and only very temporary (ie not actually broken beyond repair, but maybe bit burnt or sth, which heals). The thing that cannot be seen (or even experienced for most), nor can be "touched" AT ALL by others, is your inner essence - your very core, which is ALWAYS 100% at peace!!! 🙂

Thank you, it's really helpful. And I do meditate, time to time.
Not much, I should find patience and do it more regularly. :/
I think it would make life so much more relaxing.

Cuz i'm always rushing, I can't seem to relax.. that's a real bug

Angry and depressed. I didn't get a job promotion I was lead to believe I was going to get. Sometimes I don't even know why I bother getting out of bed. At this point I don't really care If I drop dead. Life is just one big disappointment for me.

drganon said: ↑

Angry and depressed. I didn't get a job promotion I was lead to believe I was going to get. Sometimes I don't even know why I bother getting out of bed. At this point I don't really care If I drop dead. Life is just one big disappointment for me.

I understand that one. The bastards in the army did that to me. Made out I was getting promoted then slammed the door in my face.

FriendlessGirl said: ↑

What's wrong? Hope you feel better soon 🙂

Eh dont worry about it. I feel better today but thanks for asking. :]

Not good. Broke up with the girlfriend today (it was imminent). Now she wants absolutely nothing to do with me and I feel terrible.

I haven't drank much in the last 3 months or so. Will change tonight.

MikeyC said: ↑

Not good. Broke up with the girlfriend today (it was imminent). Now she wants absolutely nothing to do with me and I feel terrible.

I haven't drank much in the last 3 months or so. Will change tonight.

I'm sorry to hear that MikeyC. Break ups are tough:🙁: Hang in there.

Dead_on_Arrival said: ↑

I understand that one. The bastards in the army did that to me. Made out I was getting promoted then slammed the door in my face.

That's the thing that really pisses me off. They strung me along making me think that I was going to get it. I don't just feel angry, I also feel stupid that I believed them.

Very alienated from society.

Consumed by procrastination.
Everything seems so damn hard atm.:🙁:

I feel neutral, lots of things i wanna do but there are some small doubts that stop me from doing them.

I want to cry