How are you feeling?

FriendlessGirl said: ↑

I want to cry

crappy - why do I take things soo personal yikes?? Why do I let 'em push the buttons??

I wish I could lock 'the buttons' like you can on a cellphone or such

really miserable this week, probably it's the PMS too, yikes...

twiggle said:

Sad. My sister and nephews left today and now its back to feeling lonely and looking for jobs. I hate feeling like an unemployed, oafish lump that just sits around and has no friends. Each day I'm more and more tempted to move back to the capital where I know I could be with my friends and have a thriving social life, or even go travelling again and teach English abroad or something.
But I'm so determined to make it work here first because if I can then this place would be perfect.
But how long do I give it?
Every day that passes just makes me think about how behind I feel compared to everybody else my own age. They're all getting engaged or getting their own place, at the least they have well-defined careers. I know I'm not alone but I also know that the only person who can change all this is me.
I NEED to get my act together.

^That's the spirit. I'm sure you can do it twiggle, you have a very positive attitude.

planemo said: ↑

Awww thanks! That made me feel much better.

NOT hungover 😀

But I have this awful hacking cough that started last night and is now much worse. Ughhhhhhh

I'm jubilant and miserable at the same time! On one hand, I just figured out that my favorite game Persona 4 is getting a port to the PSP Vita. It has all new material and a new character and there won't be any downgrades like what happened with Persona 3 Portable. Persona 4 is also getting a fighting game with a crossover with Persona 3! It's also being produced by Arc System Works, which produced another favorite game: BlazBlue. Even though I can't play fighting games to save my life, this may be a good enough game that I could buy it anyway!

On the other hand, my body is in excruciating pain: my left arm feels like it's in a compactor and my right just feels like it's being crushed. My legs feel like there's an anchor wrapped around it and my chest feels like it's being punched repeatedly. I know exercise is supposed to hurt, but this is just ridiculous. But, I won't let this stop me!

Now, I just need to flirt with someone on here. Any volunteers:cool:?

tigerlilja said: ↑

I'm extremely drained from the week, but somewhat relaxed now. Had 3 engineering exams, had a mental breakdown yesterday because I couldn't start homework until 8 last night. I hate people seeing me cry, when they asked what was wrong I cried even harder. I just wanted everyone to get out of my face, which is unavoidable in my situation (living in a dorm).

I hope things get better for you, tigerlilja. Just try to tough out the hard feelings or go talk to a counselor. I'm sure your college has one, right?

twiggle said:

Sad. My sister and nephews left today and now its back to feeling lonely and looking for jobs. I hate feeling like an unemployed, oafish lump that just sits around and has no friends. Each day I'm more and more tempted to move back to the capital where I know I could be with my friends and have a thriving social life, or even go travelling again and teach English abroad or something.
But I'm so determined to make it work here first because if I can then this place would be perfect.
But how long do I give it?
Every day that passes just makes me think about how behind I feel compared to everybody else my own age. They're all getting engaged or getting their own place, at the least they have well-defined careers. I know I'm not alone but I also know that the only person who can change all this is me.
I NEED to get my act together.

You're not behind other people your age, believe me. You've found what you want to do in your life, and you're actually doing it! Of course you need another job to bring you money, but can be happy with what you already have. A paid job will come as you're working so hard to find one, you'll find new friends in your new area because you're really friendly and kind, and all the rest will come with time.

I'm sure you can do it! 😉

MrJones said: ↑

You're not behind other people your age, believe me. You've found what you want to do in your life, and you're actually doing it! Of course you need another job to bring you money, but can be happy with what you already have. A paid job will come as you're working so hard to find one, you'll find new friends in your new area because you're really friendly and kind, and all the rest will come with time.

I'm sure you can do it! 😉

Thank you Jonesey 🙂

Pretty good so far today. A woman asked me about a class I was taking that she was just starting today (to take notes or something like that) and I answered her questions well, wasn't perfect but going as a win in my book. Also got my political science exam/quiz back, got an A. Nice to see that the work I'm putting outside of class is really paying off, wish I started this last year :😛:. Plus I got a good enough nights sleep last night to NOT be falling asleep for my first few classes, so the beginning of my day has gone very well so far, going to see if I can keep it up for the rest of the day!

First day back at school and it turns out to be senior skip day.
I feel like a failure.

Depression and self-loathing is back with a vengence. My confidence is also low. :🙁: I still feel awkward as f**k in social situations, even when it's just family members. Even though they're just trying to help.

Any creative artistic idea sounds okay in my head, and yet when comes to putting pencil to paper or canvas - my mind goes blank. Much like interacting socially and feeling I have nothing to say.

I feel life is passing me by, and I'm just watching it happen, observing, on the outside looking in.

twiggle said:

Sad. My sister and nephews left today and now its back to feeling lonely and looking for jobs. I hate feeling like an unemployed, oafish lump that just sits around and has no friends. Each day I'm more and more tempted to move back to the capital where I know I could be with my friends and have a thriving social life, or even go travelling again and teach English abroad or something.
But I'm so determined to make it work here first because if I can then this place would be perfect.
But how long do I give it?
Every day that passes just makes me think about how behind I feel compared to everybody else my own age. They're all getting engaged or getting their own place, at the least they have well-defined careers. I know I'm not alone but I also know that the only person who can change all this is me.
I NEED to get my act together.

I feel that everyday too I'm too age obsessed aka what ppl my age are doing, should BE be doing, should have been doing etc. You know what you gotta do Twiggy. And bleh engagements and stuff they'll fail anyways mid twenties getting married these days? =D

But that's a bad habit gotta kick - it's hard. Esp in the FB era when everyone
's status/progress is updated every hour or sooner. But you DO have options; AND time - there's no deadline really only what YOU decide's a deadline and goal. Which you'll no doubt reach whatever you decide 😀

MidnightStar said: ↑

I just feel so...blah. I'm not happy, and I'm not sad, I just feel really blank/numb at the moment.

*pinches Midnight* you feel that? :😛: I feel this state is the worst for me - apathy and indifference in mood. Hope you get out of it soon, over towards the happy end! 🙂

Relieved. I feel so much better after posting in the "Post what you cannot say thread". Now I just look forward to the day when I actually have the confidence to say all those things to those people's faces.

Incredibly lazy and unmotivated.

Just hit an all new level of depression. Gonna go drown myself in 12 hours of non stop gaming...

Cough has grown really bad. I'm hacking like a smoker 😛 Ugh it sucks, I feel so sick...

PipsMcClawski said: ↑

Just hit an all new level of depression. Gonna go drown myself in 12 hours of non stop gaming...

🙁 Hope you feel better soon. You can message me on FB if you want to talk.

Man. SPW just rejected my friend.
That sucks.
I feel bad.

Tino said: ↑

What do you mean?

I mean, they got an email after trying to sign up that said they weren't approved or somethin' like that.
I dunno the details, I was just told this...