Have you found yourself?

[Lanciao37]

Most young people cant decide what path to take in life, Where to live, what career to take ect..A need to find their inner self? self discovery?

I am at this point in life now and It frustrates me, I just dont know what I want to do or where! I like many things, But I cant do all of them and I need to choose but also get my priorities right, But this scares me, what If I make a mistake?

I want to know How did you discover yourself? Travel? or something else? I think I need to travel, But this isnt easy when you have SA

 

[nicole1]

I thought I had at one point but now I don't think so.

 

[vj288]

I think my second signature should answer that question. I have looked,a lot, for a long time but it always feels like the more I find out the farther away I am and it gets tiring and causes me to run into many dead ends. At this moment in time I am not currently searching, but I can only stay in limbo for so long.

One thing you said specifically I can relate to a lot, "What if I make a mistake?" For me this is what makes it so difficult for me to come to any conclusions. Whenever something is important (Which includes this) I always have the mindset that I can't make any mistakes, and everything has to be perfect, correct, right.

I almost consider myself no one right now, almost like a blank slate with some defaults to work with. And I can write anything I want on the slate, I can be any person I want to be, but who that is lies where my not wanting to be wrong becomes a problem. I can't tell the future, so I don't know what the future lies and can't pick any sort of personality, interest, path without the possibility of it not being what I want.

Or maybe it's I actually do know who I am but am trying to hide, run away from it. I have skeletons in my closet so I try to stay away from there as much as possible, but maybe I'm in there too and I won't get my answers until I take a visit.

Sorry for ranting on your thread, maybe I should start making my own instead of venting in everyone else's.

 

[Lanciao37]

Feel free to rant, You helped a lot!
Thats pretty much how I feel, Maybe You dont find yourself, But make yourself? Perhaps Life right now really is a blank sheet of paper, And the story (Life) is yet to be writen? But I wish I had a little something to begin with, Then I could continue on from that, Currently I am stuck in a cave of nothingness with no visible directions of escape.

 

[mattbarneswillkillu]

I think about life and my future from time to time, but I don't like to worry. I try to stop if I ever catch myself. I don't know what life holds and neither does anyone else...on earth
My thinking goes something like this, if you do the right things(this is different for everyone) you'll be rewarded. However It's (life's) not that easy, you'll have to go through some tough situations and tests along the road. Whether you choose to respond(positively) or react (reactions are usually negative) will ultimately set you up for bigger things in better places.

 

[Phoenixx]

Can't say that I've fully found myself yet. I know what I want to do for a career and I know where I want to go to school, but other than that, I don't really know much of anything else. I'm not frustrated because of it, I'm actually rather intrigued about where I may end up or what other things I may end up doing.

 

[Kiwong]

Well I was working as an insurance clerk, very unhappy, being bullied by another employee in the office, being criticised by a boss who wanted me to treat a dead end job as a career.

So I applied to study environmental science mature age, I studied extremely hard, fearful that I wasn't going to pass and would be forced back into a job I hated. I passed with high distinctions, and got employment in the environment area and eventually became a botanist.

Unfortunately, I probably made a worng career choice and moved away from family and the place I grew up. I've kind of got lost these last 10-15 years, and developed my anxiety in that time, but I seem to be finding myself again.

 

[Shant]

No and I look all the time. Every conclusion I come to seems to make me feel negative about myself, others, and/or the world in general, and soon, I realize that said conclusion didn't make sense to begin with. Start from scratch.

I have no idea what to do with my life. In a perfect world, I'd be able to be a musician and live off of that. But this clearly isn't a perfect world, is it? Sigh. So I have to find what else I'm good at and like doing, and I have not yet found anything. Ugh.

 

[Sprunk]

No.I'm still trying to work it out.I bought my first house recently and i thought that would give me some kind of grounding or something.Though it hasn't worked out that way.I'm still as lost as ever

 

[coyote]

I thought I'd found myself once

it turned out to be on old Cheetoh that had fallen under the sofa

 

[Darryl]

Discovery will come first by understanding your disorder and how it ticks in you.

Your inner self is controlled by SA, so once you truely understand it only then can you function in the outside world.

Darryl

 

[EscapeArtist]

How to find yourself? Well, I'm not so sure on how to, but I know that when you do there is no questioning it.

I would guess that experiencing all things that interest you would help.. So yes, travel. Experience every aspect of life (social/relationships, economical, environmental, yaddaaa)

How I found myself, when I saw things that awakened who I was, there was no questioning it! It spoke to my heart and soul. I'm sure you will find the same. Take all opportunities and experience as much as you can despite the SA. So easy to say..

 

[Psychedelicious]

Just Done

I don't know who I am. I don't know who I am "suppose" to be, or what I am meant to do in life. I don't know where I am suppose to go or what to do. I don't know what job I should have. I don't know what my future is. I don't even know if I will ever have a future. I don't know anything really. So no, I have not found myself, and don't really know if I ever will.

I feel endlessly unimportant and worthless in my life. I feel like I am not meant to be someone special or do anything important. I don't think I have a purpose. I feel so unauthentic and pointless that I don't even know what myself is. I don't even know if I should "search" for myself sometimes because I feel like I will find NOTHING. Right now I'm just existing for no reason whatsoever, and it makes everything so pointless. I need something to do, and a reason to live. And what this is, I have no idea.

 

[kihira]

It can sometimes simply be a journey of exploration & learning where there is no final destination, no true-you revealed, just growth and discovery with pleasant opportunities along the way.

 

[CosmicNeurotica]

Purpose in life is what you make it.
I have no purpose either. I just wonder aimlessly hoping I'll find at least something to make me happy for a moment.

So in answer to the topic question, no. I don't think there is such as thing as finding yourself anyway. We all change, depending on circumstance. The longer you live, the more people you can become. You can either live, or stay the same. But you have the power to change, always.
It's finding that power that is the basis of everything.

 

[Tiercel]

Occasionally I stumble upon a small piece of the person I was years ago. For now it's just another collection of stuff, but maybe if I can find enough pieces....

 

[MoniqueNS]

No, but i'm desperately trying to. i think travel has something to do with it for me, just cause no matter what mental state I have been in I've always dreamed of seeing the world. I'm working very hard on figuring this out though.

 

[Darryl]

Psychedelicious,

Everyday we continue to find our selves- I see it as a long road we walk down gathering experiences.

Every experience good and bad is a learning curve and it will come a time when your personal experiences will make you stronger than your disorder.

When we first start our journey the SA/AvPD towers above us.

The road throws us curve balls all the time, till we eventually hit that ball out of the park and move on to the next issue.

Every curve ball every experience gathered and the sizes slowly change between SA till the time when you tower.

Darryl

 

[Aussie_Lad]

One thing you said specifically I can relate to a lot, "What if I make a mistake?" For me this is what makes it so difficult for me to come to any conclusions. Whenever something is important (Which includes this) I always have the mindset that I can't make any mistakes, and everything has to be perfect, correct, right.

You don't know how much I needed to hear that right now, you see I am very much the same, and it's not the way to be. Mistakes are a natural part of being human and it's okay to make a few mistakes along your way, so long as you learn from them. I had forgotten that until your post reminded me, and I face some rather big decisions in the not too distant future that could involve me quitting a job that I have held for 5 years. The fear of making a mistake in choosing the wrong path, has potential to cause me to become stagnant, and that is no way to be.

 

[Honda]

You dont need to go anywhere... Just sit oneday, think and plan what you want to make out of your life, career, future, etc...

Its as simple as that.... Regarding finding myself: im right here sitting behind this computer screen typing this post... Im not anywhere else...