Going to a concert on my own

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Lilyofthevalley

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Hi

I just joined today, mainly because I had a lousy night of panic over my huge "going out of my comfort zone" this thursday!

I am a huge swiftie ie Taylor Swift fan and so when I got an email to say she is going to England (my country, but live in France), I sort of casually said to my husband about it and there was silence, then he said: so why not go yourself and I am thinking: what the heck? I can hardly go to our bins without anxiety and he just comes out with that? I didn't argue, just panicked and saw a blank wall. Then miraculously, things cleared. You see, I don't drive and thus, things are difficult for me. Then I had in my mind: what about a coach and it went from there.

My best friend was going to join me, but something came up and so she couldn't and my other friend, is rather like me and so that was out. I then realised with horror that if I want to do this, I have to do it on my own and gradually, after searching those who go by themselves, I reasoned that actually, it is best that way, because I don't have to worry how I look in front of those I know - HOWEVER when on my own, I am soooo parnoid with what others think, it is awful just being on my own.

Well, after realising I could do it, my friend then said that I can go and stay a week with her and so I have made plans for that and further more, intending to learn to drive in my country!

I have an open ticket and currently, staying for a month and I am PETRIFIED.

I want to cancel, because I seriously cannot take this anxiety; wrecks my sleep as I am tossing and turning, thinking of all the disasters that could take place.

Basically, I am an utter IDIOT when out of my depth! I hate the ferries because I just cannot walk around like everyone else and as for eating, no way!

I am going with one suit case and a large bag, because being a foot passenger is no fun anyway and with the burden of items, a sheer panic for me.

I have run away all my life and know that if I run away now ie cancel, I will regret it for the rest of my life and so I have made up an itinery and the first on my list is my ticket and subsequently, each one that I use, leads to the next, so hopefully, I won't be all fingers and thumbs!

Brittany ferries contacted me and offered for someone to accompany me throughout the journey, but I declined because I figured that if I didn't particulaly gravitate to her, that would be a nightmare. I was also offered to swap my reclining seat for a cabin, which I turned down, for the last time I went, I did not leave that cabin and thus, need to be out there in order to gain courage.

To say I am frightened, is rather an understatement!
 
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Feathers

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WOW, YAY for being so BRAVE and going out and venturing! :)

I have utter ADMIRATION for you!

Do tell us how it goes! :)
 
Nanita

Nanita

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Sounds like a nice adventure! I can relate to the nervousness though! But it sounds like something I would do, despite feeling scared.
 
MikeyC

MikeyC

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That sounds awesome (except for the Taylor Swift concert :ironicsmile:), and I reckon you'll have a lot of fun with all these new experiences. :D
 
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Lilyofthevalley

Member
Thank you! I wish I could feel the same way about me lol but all I feel is utter stupidity for being 44 and like this!

Will do ie let you know how it went :D
 
Flanscho

Flanscho

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About six years ago or so, in my mid/late twenties, I went to a festival for the first time in my life. It would be a huge festival, HUGE, with over 200 acts from all over the world. And I'd stay there with people of which I only knew a couple, for several days, on a camping place.

I was worried and scared. But then in the end it was great. Sure, there were sometimes some moments where I didn't feel that awesome, but they passed quickly enough.

Of course I was there with people, but still... Going to that festival (I've now been there more often and to others) was one of many steps that helped me weaken my SA.
 
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Silatuyok

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Wow, I just have to drive two or three miles to see a concert. This sounds like a grand adventure. I very much admire you for your courage to get out there and give it a go. It may be uncomfortable at times, but in the long run you won't regret having done it!
 
Kiwong

Kiwong

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That's sounds wonderful, good luck with it. Enjoy the music. It is great you have your friends support.

I saw Dire Straits in Sydney in 1986 that was a great experience.
 
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Lilyofthevalley

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Thank you all so much for your encouraging words.

Well, I am virtually packed and oh my that was heart wretching lol had to face facts, that I could only bring a few clothes and even fewer shoes and ouch just two bags - what?!!!

My goal that is working is to go on the ferry with just one suit case and my big hand bag which is a straw bag and good sturdy leather handles that can be put over my shoulder with ease.

The trouble with me, is I can easily feel horribly inferior and sort of: should I do that or this? Is that a good idea etc etc so really I am a follower, rather than a leader.

I have no choice but to change some euros for pounds, which means, I have to find a machine, and so will take this opportunity to find the toilets. I would like to have the courage to get something to drink or eat, but that is something that I shall play by ear, so to speak.

And I agree that I won't regret it, which is why I am pushing myself to do this and yep, I hope that it will bounce me out of my fear of living in France!!!
 
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