sullyS25
Well-known member
Or are you so attached to this self-image of being shy, scared and feeling inadequate that it scares you to think about coming off as anything different?
I ask this because sometimes I wonder this about myself...I always say that I want to be more outgoing, have more friends and have the willingness to trust people but my actions do not coincide with my thoughts.
Every time I meet a new person that could potentially be a friend or more, I always convince myself that I can not trust them. I subconsciously believe that if I do trust them, I will eventually get hurt. Even with the most genuine people I convince myself of this. I do the same in social situations where I have the opportunity to meet new people.....
I know this is why they call it avoidant personality disorder and I understand the every psychological description of the "disorder" but for me it seems like I am unwilling to let go of these behaviors.
In order to change the way I am, I have to go outside my comfort zone and do things I am not used to doing. Things that make me feel uncomfortable....If I keep doing what I have been in the past everything will stay the same....But I hardly ever do these things then I complain that things haven't changed.
This is why I feel like I am holding onto these feelings because I am afraid to let them go. I am unwilling to change because deep down inside I like to feel inadequate and play the victim.....For ME, this must change and I must take risks. I truly to not enjoy the suffering and am not willing to put up with it any longer.
How do YOU feel about this?
I ask this because sometimes I wonder this about myself...I always say that I want to be more outgoing, have more friends and have the willingness to trust people but my actions do not coincide with my thoughts.
Every time I meet a new person that could potentially be a friend or more, I always convince myself that I can not trust them. I subconsciously believe that if I do trust them, I will eventually get hurt. Even with the most genuine people I convince myself of this. I do the same in social situations where I have the opportunity to meet new people.....
I know this is why they call it avoidant personality disorder and I understand the every psychological description of the "disorder" but for me it seems like I am unwilling to let go of these behaviors.
In order to change the way I am, I have to go outside my comfort zone and do things I am not used to doing. Things that make me feel uncomfortable....If I keep doing what I have been in the past everything will stay the same....But I hardly ever do these things then I complain that things haven't changed.
This is why I feel like I am holding onto these feelings because I am afraid to let them go. I am unwilling to change because deep down inside I like to feel inadequate and play the victim.....For ME, this must change and I must take risks. I truly to not enjoy the suffering and am not willing to put up with it any longer.
How do YOU feel about this?