I don't expect anybody to read all this... but if you do thanks.
My social life is 99% entirely online. The only personal social interaction I get is when I see my roommates in the kitchen when I go to make food or am walking to/from class. The bulk of my online time is spent on Yahoo Answers, my forum of choice, which I spend way too much time on. It's become distracting to the point that I actually think I'm addicted to it. The more Adderall I'm on, the more obsessively I go between my favorite sections to see if I get thumbs up, thumbs down, answers to my questions, etc. I took a management test today and I think I did averagely, despite studying long hours for it. Knowing me, I probably spent twice as long studying for it as the next closest person. The reason I think I did averagely is because of Y!A. I get myself into e-arguments and then I can't stop checking for the other persons response. It breaks up my studying and makes it hard to retain anything I read. It's really annoying. Also another weird thing is that I'm starting to actually get emotionally attached to other regular users on Y!A, it's really weird and disturbing. I feel like I am actually friends with some of these users, despite having no idea who they are. I have never spoken to these users about anything outside the context of Y!A, yet I feel so close to them because of our "alliances" against other users and common interests. It also concerns me. I feel kind of sad about it. Like I should be developing these friendships with real people, and not just in cyber-space. I've started to go on Y!A on my cellphone during class now. I find myself thinking about Y!A users at random points during the day when I'm separated from my computer. When I wake up in the morning I go on Y!A, before I go to class I do one last Y!A check, the second I get back to my apartment from class I get on Y!A, you get the picture. Why did this happen? My theory is that all the emotional stimulation I get comes from Y!A. From the joys of getting thumbs up on an answer to the perils of being insulted and seeing that user get thumbs up. In my friendless life that is absent of any relationships in my local area, Y!A makes me emotionally stimulated. I feel appreciated there and popular. It's my escapism from my dark reality that nobody even knows that I exist.
Does anybody else feel guilty about having an online social life?::
My social life is 99% entirely online. The only personal social interaction I get is when I see my roommates in the kitchen when I go to make food or am walking to/from class. The bulk of my online time is spent on Yahoo Answers, my forum of choice, which I spend way too much time on. It's become distracting to the point that I actually think I'm addicted to it. The more Adderall I'm on, the more obsessively I go between my favorite sections to see if I get thumbs up, thumbs down, answers to my questions, etc. I took a management test today and I think I did averagely, despite studying long hours for it. Knowing me, I probably spent twice as long studying for it as the next closest person. The reason I think I did averagely is because of Y!A. I get myself into e-arguments and then I can't stop checking for the other persons response. It breaks up my studying and makes it hard to retain anything I read. It's really annoying. Also another weird thing is that I'm starting to actually get emotionally attached to other regular users on Y!A, it's really weird and disturbing. I feel like I am actually friends with some of these users, despite having no idea who they are. I have never spoken to these users about anything outside the context of Y!A, yet I feel so close to them because of our "alliances" against other users and common interests. It also concerns me. I feel kind of sad about it. Like I should be developing these friendships with real people, and not just in cyber-space. I've started to go on Y!A on my cellphone during class now. I find myself thinking about Y!A users at random points during the day when I'm separated from my computer. When I wake up in the morning I go on Y!A, before I go to class I do one last Y!A check, the second I get back to my apartment from class I get on Y!A, you get the picture. Why did this happen? My theory is that all the emotional stimulation I get comes from Y!A. From the joys of getting thumbs up on an answer to the perils of being insulted and seeing that user get thumbs up. In my friendless life that is absent of any relationships in my local area, Y!A makes me emotionally stimulated. I feel appreciated there and popular. It's my escapism from my dark reality that nobody even knows that I exist.
Does anybody else feel guilty about having an online social life?::