Snowdrop
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I find that this has become a really bad habit of mine. I always wish I was somebody else, someone more confident and carefree. Especially in college I will see certain people that I admire a lot and wish I could have their charisma. When I look at them, it's like they have a strong personality that radiates off them. When I hear them talking I'll think "how can they talk so naturally?" and every now and then they'll say something that makes me think "I could've said/done that if I wasn't so impaired with SA" It's like I'm so far away from who I want to be, it's out of reach. Compared to them, I feel incredibly small and almost invisible.
But then afterwards I force myself to look ahead and once again I'm dealing with my own problems by myself as best I can.
I know it is useless to think this way but it's sort of become an illness.
But then afterwards I force myself to look ahead and once again I'm dealing with my own problems by myself as best I can.
I know it is useless to think this way but it's sort of become an illness.
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