dyingtolive
Well-known member
Are you good enough for yourself? Do you think you're good enough in the eyes of the opposite sex as a partner? Do you think you're 'more than good enough'?
Do you think you're not good enough, but if you worked real hard, could become good enough? Or Do you think that you're not good enough and no matter what you do, will never be good enough?
Well me, i think i was rejected at an early age and from then on thought that I was not good enough. But if I just worked really hard, there was a way that I could become good enough for someone to like me.. And growing up thats what i tried to do.. But I also had alcohol to help myself believe that I was good enough.
Now I don't feel good enough but I believe that if i just worked really hard, then someday I will feel good enough again, and perhaps I will accept myself enough to gain confidence in myself and feel that i am good enough for someone to like me.
But nowadays its so complicated. I'm older now. But i still feel like a kid coz i can't handle things like other adults do. I can barely even order at a restaurant. That's one of my weaknesses.. and a whole lot of other things.
For the last several years, the thought of a partner really wasn't something I thought about. Things were just too messy, and I never really got lonely. There were a couple of girls that I met that I had to distance myself from because I knew I was not ready and I couldn't handle them. I was not good enough for them.
But lately, I've begun to feel lonely sometimes. Maybe its coz im getting older.. So I still have hope for myself... But i still have some work to do... and maybe one day ill be good enough..
Do you think you're not good enough, but if you worked real hard, could become good enough? Or Do you think that you're not good enough and no matter what you do, will never be good enough?
Well me, i think i was rejected at an early age and from then on thought that I was not good enough. But if I just worked really hard, there was a way that I could become good enough for someone to like me.. And growing up thats what i tried to do.. But I also had alcohol to help myself believe that I was good enough.
Now I don't feel good enough but I believe that if i just worked really hard, then someday I will feel good enough again, and perhaps I will accept myself enough to gain confidence in myself and feel that i am good enough for someone to like me.
But nowadays its so complicated. I'm older now. But i still feel like a kid coz i can't handle things like other adults do. I can barely even order at a restaurant. That's one of my weaknesses.. and a whole lot of other things.
For the last several years, the thought of a partner really wasn't something I thought about. Things were just too messy, and I never really got lonely. There were a couple of girls that I met that I had to distance myself from because I knew I was not ready and I couldn't handle them. I was not good enough for them.
But lately, I've begun to feel lonely sometimes. Maybe its coz im getting older.. So I still have hope for myself... But i still have some work to do... and maybe one day ill be good enough..