mariecherrie
Active member
Yeah this is pretty sad how cruel people can be. Well I am not so shy anymore, growing up i was and people thought it was cute. And now that im older i have people tell me i am outgoing , a lot, actually, but i know i am not exactly a social butterfly. Anyway, i used to absolutely dread presentations. Like i would rather do anything on a given day than presentations. Well in a lot of my classes lately we have to get up in front of the class (sometimes 60 or more people). When it first started i took meds before and it helped calm my nerves soo much. After a while i didnt need medication. And i began to do quite well. So this one semester, our group was the first team to present. And i was the last person to speak for our team. I liked my teacher and I think she liked me. Well we had only one boy in our group and he plays baseball for our school. He was pretty laid back and i got along with him a lot better than the bitchy girls in my group. So its me and him on one side and the other girls on the other. We are waiting our turn to talk. And before he has to talk he says to me, "I need to go to the bathroom." And i said, go i think you have time. So he leaves. When he gets back he says to me, "I just threw up." I was like, ohhh wow. As nervous as i thought i got i've never thrown up. And the first thing he says was, "Sorry im so nervous!" And our teacher reassures him. And then its my turn. I never feel comfortable enough to say im nervous. And i acutally wasnt anyways, just jittery/kinda excited. Well so i begin and realize it is kind of fun! I was getting really into what i was saying, and even adding funny comments i didnt even plan on saying. It came natural. And i said something our teacher apparently loved, cause she stops and goes, "Now that deserves some snaps!!!" haha, its a thing we do when we like what some one talking has said. I felt comfortable in that class from then on. In fact, the teacher asked me to explain something else to the class.. i had a good feeling about the class, until one day the teacher completely humilates me in front of everyone (though the one guy in our group wasnt there that day, I don't think). And I never spoke up after that. Who would? What motivation did she give for me to be involved anymore? What she did was so horrible. I told my advisor about it and she had tears in her eyes. ANYway, Towards the end of the semester, we had a guest speaker talk to us. And we were getting ready to start, and the guy (who i thought was cool... i guess. kinda thuggish to me, but cool to just talk to) he goes, "are you psycho?" I was like what the f***-- honestly , you of all people should be the last to ask me that..
Anyway sorry this example is so long. But yes, people are cruel, they dont understand some ones comments can be taken with them for LIFE thats why we should make them POSITIVE not something to hurt their self concept. Pretty much if you arent a bitch or a hole, people will say things to you. Outgoing or not.
Anyway sorry this example is so long. But yes, people are cruel, they dont understand some ones comments can be taken with them for LIFE thats why we should make them POSITIVE not something to hurt their self concept. Pretty much if you arent a bitch or a hole, people will say things to you. Outgoing or not.
,and when I don't want to talk they think I'm in a mood or something-sigh! All I want to do is get on with my job-listen to my favourite radio stations (planet rock and bbc6 music) and not talk non-stop about nothing, not too much to ask is it 
