I, too, feel like I'm not meant to be in a relationship all because it's hard for me to get passed my own negative outlook of the way I am. Sometimes I think there's just so many things that I need to improve on like being emotionally stable, finishing my education, more experience with various jobs or finally getting my career settled... or something like that. I just feel like at this point, I'm not quite ready yet or maybe people can sense that I'm not there yet based on my level of confidence.
Hmm... I need to socialize with more different people I guess... but I'm fine with the way I interact with people. I tend to reach out to the ones who are a little shy and more introverted but are interested in being my friend. But when it comes to meeting potential soulmates, it doesn't seem like it'll happen anytime soon. I imagine myself waiting until I've already established success in my own life and getting close to that point where dating is so low in my priority list that I've made plans on adopting a child from a third world country. It would be nice to have at least one beautiful friendship with the opposite sex for a long period of time with the hopes that the friendship will grow into a romantic relationship.
It's topics like these that I dread contemplating on, followed by a forlorn sigh. :-/ Sometimes I'd rather that I focus my attention on things that fuel my passion for art or science or economic crisis, which require a lot of studying and research... work that is all too time consuming but at least prevents me from moaning my lack of fun and adventure in the dating department. 'Cause they say, 'someday it'll happen, you just have to wait.' And sometimes I hate myself for obsessing over these things every now and then.
: Are you okay?
