Shyness is the desire to please and the fear of not succeed in it;
Take this steps if you want to get better:
1)Think more in what YOU want and YOU need
Dont care about the other people judgment
This is hard, cause shy people usually are perfectionist and care too much about the other people feelings and thoughts.
And we suffer so much because of it, but we have the wrong vision of the world, why there are some many people with the appearance and personality like ours (or worse) but they can live fine, go to parties, have dates, have fun or at least live???
Because they dont care like we do, our expectations are so high and we care too much, every time you open your mouth you dont need to say the smartest thing or the coolest thing, just say what YOU WANT or NEED to say, like "normal" people do, they also get awkward or some times say stupid things, this is normal, the problem is the "worries" and "expectations" that we have. And some times they came from our own minds, we are our worst enemies, we think people are judging us the way we judge ourselves, this is so wrong...
In your post you said "Im so pathetic." THAT IS WHAT >>YOU<< THINK! idk you but i can say, you are not pathetic, you just have your problems and must get over it like everyone in this freaking and hellish world. You are GOOD ENOUGH to live a good life, everybody deserves it... you are not the best but neither the worst...
You were born to be just like you are today, maybe you made some bad choices or chose wrong things but you wouldnt be much different, live YOUR life, take this as a challenge...
2) Face the fear
i know its freaking hard to face the shyness, but you'll have to do this sooner or later... I'm feeling exhausted of fighting it, i'm even taking medicines cause it raised my Anxiety and my Depression, if you can, look for professional help and open yourself to your parents or friends, they can help so MUCH, say what are disturbing you or argue about it to them, they might get worried (in a good way) and support you.
Its a war, fight the battles against the shyness and fear... if you lose some (say stupid things or get awkward) use them as experience to the next times, learn how you must act is these moments, get prepared!
Get excuses to face it, like pay the bills for your parents, walk with your dog, go to a park, say HI to new people, ask things to other people just to talk... idk what you can do, but dont stay locked inside your home or run away from other people, things only get worse... Running away dont solve the problem, only delays it.
3)Build your self-esteem and be more confident
As you see progression you'll feel better! people might praise you and notice that you changed... this is so good and make us keep going on!
but you have to move forward... idk how old are you or what you want to do for living!
just fight for it... make plans for your future, try new things, WISH things, learn things...! (not high expectations plz)
**RELIGION AND FAITH HELPS SO MUCH, try it**
GOOD LUCK, srry my english
>> I might look like the most confident guy in the world or something, but these things are what i'm trying to do, this is what i have in my mind to keep fighting for my life. Step by step...
Today i'll put a profile picture in my FB cause i dont have it yet, an HUGE step... all my friends we'll see it! ;s