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Old 05-14-2017
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St John's wort
Beer=hops = good
Mandarins Vitamin C releases cortisone.

I feel relaxed or numb.
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And they say life's too short..............................
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My future/success is dependent on me getting a driver's licence/car right now and it has been a very slow process because of me. I drove today, but not long, really. I drove to my hiking spot, but didn't drive home - kind of pissed at myself. I need to find the courage to drive during regular traffic hours and not just at 6:30 - 7:00 am. I need to sign up for adult driver's training classes, but have been procrastinating as usual - I annoy myself. I don't want to be a dependant anxiety ridden loser forever. Aside from the disappointment of my failures in being a productive, independent adult, I am angry at my parents for not giving me the right tools to succeed. My dad was never around/doesn't care about me and my mom wasn't around when I was a teenager - she didn't want to teach me how to drive or enforce it. My sister got lucky because my mom paid for her to take the driving classes when she was younger. I get so angry because I feel like my growth as an adult has been hindered by my parents inability to be good parents. I am the one who has to live with it, not them.

So I guess the question now is: how do I extinguish the flames of anger and stop lamenting over my former life/how things could have been if my life wasn't full of abuse?
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Old 05-14-2017
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An ode to (most) Mommys

Mummy o' mummy
To my dearest & best
You brighten my life
Go f*ck all the rest
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Old 05-14-2017
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Jeebus, what a rotten life.
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Old 05-16-2017
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Be paranoid...
(5 parts)
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Old 05-18-2017
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I can't have a one-night stand as can't ...
I can't get a prostitute as can't ...
I can't go on dates as can't ...
I can't get a girlfriend as can't ...
I can't get married as can't ...

Since can't get any of these (except prostitutes in past), I feel 100% rejected by women, which is not a nice feeling, it's quite nasty, esp when my mind is focussed on a single rejecting woman. It can make "my blood boil" all of that sh1t.

So it's good that i avoid thinking about such stuff or having my mind on such stuff. But sh1t can still hit the fan in real life, if i'm unlucky.
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Old 05-18-2017
 

I wanna die but didn't wanna die!
No one understand me! Even people same as me
Forever anxiety! Anxiety never 100% cure
Plan to be a monk somewhere else as 30
I'm like a dead body living cuz my soul dead 2 months ago
F*ck everything!
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Old 05-18-2017
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Chris Cornell dead: Soundgarden and Audioslave leader singer dies, aged 52



Devastated right now. Even though, I may not have known him personally, this guy's music got me through some tough times as a teen.
Was so looking foward to that new Soundgarden album as well.
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Old 05-18-2017
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Chris Cornell dead: Soundgarden and Audioslave leader singer dies, aged 52



Devastated right now. Even though, I may not have known him personally, this guy's music got me through some tough times as a teen.
Was so looking foward to that new Soundgarden album as well.
...Suicide....
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Old 05-18-2017
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...Suicide....
Yeah... My mum just told me that detail a few hours ago. Still in shock.
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Old 05-19-2017
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about to go to bed. I have work tomorrow -_- *cringe*


I can't decide what kind of degree I want to get...I guess i dont have to worry about what I want to major in because I'm just going to start off getting an associates degree...but when the time comes I was thinking about something in anthropology ..the problem with that there isn't much job growth in that career field and you generally have to have at LEAST a masters degree for most of them. plenty of traveling involved with a degree like that though.

my sister has a masters degree in sociology and had a hard time finding the job she has now..she barely makes more than ME though currently ...and i dont even HAVE a degree yet.


I want to get a degree in a field that has a lot of estimated job growth but I suck at math and science ....idk maybe I could re-evalute my math skills at least..havent done much math since high school.




this is all going to be daunting though..regardless of what i decide to major in : /


I wish I could just win the lottery, travel all over the world/go on adventures to historic places, and not have to worry about working.....I feel like school/working takes up such a large portion of someones life....it doesnt seem right.
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Old 05-20-2017
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I think I'll go outside today,
To walk the woods, to shop, to play.
Perhaps I'll take a friend along.
We'll have some fun! What could go wrong?

Oh, but so much ugly, so much shame,
So many stains upon my name.
I'm much to scared to go outside.
I'd better stay at home and hide.
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Old 05-20-2017
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It's so strange that the whole 5 days that im busy at work i'm somewhat normal, maybe because i'm too busy to realize how crappy of a life i really do, but every single day I can't wait for the weekend to come, but that's the issue, once the weekend comes, i can't figure out what i want to do with my time and depression kicks in.... it's so bizarre how my working life is basically perfect but my social life is so bad, well I go no social life... no friends no people to talk to that has the same interests as me, i gave up long ago on my social life.. it's so hard when people don't get you.

Some people wonder if they had a good job, had money, had a good stable life they would be happy, in my opinion it doesn't make you happy.. well everyone is different.. at least i'm not happy and haven't been for so many years now...

happy weekend everyone
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Old 05-21-2017
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I've seen my parents too much this week and now I feel like I need an exorcism
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Feeling pretty good today - I drove and am starting to get more comfortable with it. I got that new job and my BLS certification earlier this week - I start on June 11th. I get paid more and work 3 12 hour shifts and get 4 days off, so that's pretty awesome. I had a doctor's appointment earlier this week and am waiting on some important blood work - kind of nervous about it because I might still have cancer... On the positive side, I know it won't be life threatening - just another thing I need to get through. My endocrinologist didn't seem too concerned, though, so I am hoping it's nothing.

I may have changed my mind about my career path because I was talking with someone at work and they said what I want to do is at the bottom of the radiology department - he said it's really boring work, so I might reconsider. Thankfully, radiology has many modalities to choose from. Things seem to be looking brighter for me everyday - it's really nice to finally be coming out of that deep depression I was in after my breakup and to be making some real progress in my life.
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Old 05-22-2017
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Feeling so much dread
For the hours, days & longer ahead
That i wish i were dead
There's no tears for these fears

General anxiety has grown
As winter is making itself known

I will on earth forever be loveless and alone
Only upon death will i return to my true home
...
(PiP, Poetry in Progress ... < SUSPENDED >)
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Old 05-23-2017
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Sometimes I wonder why I no longer have any real-life friends, family, career, really no face-to-face social outlets at all. Then I look in the mirror and at the way I live, and suddenly it's not so surprising. Who wants to hang out in a filthy sewer with a rotting piece of garbage when they could be going out to nice restaurants and bars with beautiful, hip friends who know how to play the social game with class and style? Nobody loves a degenerate outcast. Nobody.
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Old 05-23-2017
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Sometimes I wonder why I no longer have any real-life friends, family, career, really no face-to-face social outlets at all. Then I look in the mirror and at the way I live, and suddenly it's not so surprising. Who wants to hang out in a filthy sewer with a rotting piece of garbage when they could be going out to nice restaurants and bars with beautiful, hip friends who know how to play the social game with class and style? Nobody loves a degenerate outcast. Nobody.
You and me both, pal.
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