Kiwong

And you finally found all your courage to let it all go.

Pictures of You The Cure


Sadness: a hunger, to live in beauty

Hope: a belief, that a place in the darkness, could become one in the light

Happiness: to reach beyond fear and failure, and to hold for a moment, onto everything ever hoped for.

A Dream: only a thought away from starting, only small steps from coming true.

Me

When the world screams at me to stop trying
I scream silently back at it
by never giving up

Me

With my photography, running, and writing it's like I am screaming out as loud as I can to all those who have seen the worse of me "there is this side to me too" I am not my anxiety or depression, or my strangeness and awkwardness, or my anger. I guess I should save my voice, because the critics don't care anyway.

It seems like I have opportunities to try to make some dreams happen. I will forever regret it if I don't try.

My anxiety is not only the fear of being judged talking to someone. When I go out in public and then afterward for days I pick through the evidence of my every word and action for evidence of failure. It is sitting and my desk at work riding an emotional roller coaster, tears in my eyes one moment, anger the next. It is my angry reaction to people, it is my doom and gloom imagination creating life threatening scenarios, where I need to defend myself in imaginary court cases. It is 4:00am when my thoughts are flying a millions miles an hour, and I can't sleep, sometimes creative, sometime destructive. Worrying about what has passed, and what is yet to come, sometimes weeks before. It is pages and pages of ranting posts on my blog, sometimes that I want to delete as soon as I have written it.

The last few sunrises and sunsets the light has been drab

37 species for my book. With day light savings after work I can get to a local headland to take seascape photos, but then I stay up late and miss my run.

OH Wow good luck on your book! 900 is a lot! Is that in the wild rose family below? Looks like some we have here.
Yes, I was wondering the same about your camera btw. it is tops.

Aw those dolphins are adorable!!! I would be there everyday if I lived close by. What a way to wake up.

There is pleasure in the pathless woods
There is rapture in the lonely shore
There is society where no one intrudes
By the deep sea and music in its roar
I love man not the less, but nature more

George Gordon Byron

I started on my plant book tonight. There are 900 different plant species to photograph in this national park. A big challenge, something I will have fun trying to achieve, even if it never gets published.

Kiwong, you are a masterful photographer! I am in the market for an upgrade myself. Mind me asking what camera you use?

those pictures of the ocean are some of the most beautiful colors ever...you are so fortunate to live there and have a gift for photography, too. Keep it up!

Nice photos mate

Sometimes I wish the sky

would lift me up

and carry me away

back to you

Sometimes I wish I could

rest in sunset clouds

and dream

of days spent with you.

But here I am

anchored to the ground

I shout your names

to the wind

and try to hold

onto faded dreams

of you.

My happiest day, my happiest night
always next to you
and held deep inside
keeps me alive

Before Three The Cure

beg ur pardon ...i was not careful...