kayelle

oh it's okay no worries. That's cool and I know what you mean about the panic. I always hated working on the really busy days. I always felt so self-conscious on those days.

I still have a couple of years to go, but I'm looking at grad school for English, particularly English Composition. I'd love to teach college level writing courses. And yes I'm having a great week. Just got back from bowling with friends which was a lot of fun. Thanks for asking. How are things on your end?

o haha yea it happens when you search sauk, you have to search social anxiety uk for it to come up. thats the first SA forum i found and it was great

Hi, no im not registered with the disability office i wasn't aware of that you could for anxiety i could look it up. I never had an exam in one of the really big halls yet but i don't think it would affect me to much so im not really sure but its good to know that they can organise something like that. you really have to do presentations i didn't know that you had to do that. Yea i go home for weekends, im at home at the moment.

Well nobody likes their own accent heh. I live in Middlesbrough in North East England. Never been to Ireland, looks nice from all of those ‘Discover Ireland’ adverts they always show at the cinema.

Thanks! It's gotten a bit easier, yeah. It's a temp-to-perm job through an agency, so I'll stay as long as they think I'm doing well, I suppose... it's a bit stressful to always be wondering if I'm doing well enough though! :-( I drank two cups of tea this morning and I'm really caffeine sensitive so I shouldn't have - I started getting really jittery and feeling shaky from it, which made me start feeling nervous and fluffing my words on the phone! Argh, so embarrassing!! Ah well, maybe it's true what they say about whatever doesn't kill us making us stronger (or is it just stranger?! LOL)

Glad you're going to be living with friends next year, that sounds like a lot of fun! I'd love to do that Yeah it's good that my bro is shy too, we have really long conversations on the phone every week and he's a good friend to me. We used to fight loads as kids though, haha! Hope you have a great weekend xx

Yaaaaaay *hugs* for you having a good day, it's about time hehe i've had a few good days as well, it must be something in the air lol i'm feeling a bit more positive which is much, much better than how i was feeling!
I'm lucky with my bf i met him on this forum so he knows exactly what i'm going through, i don't think i could be with a "normal" person, only because i know how messed up i am and it wouldn't be fair of me to put it on someone sane lol but i think you're bf is wonderful, not everyone would stay with someone like us, he's so cool and you're so lucky but yeah thank gawd for this forum, i'd be lost without it as well. How long have you got off from College? have you got any plans? just make sure you enjoy every single day! lol yeah you mentioned loving London before, so do i, hey next time you're here i'll take you to all my old haunts in Camden, you'll love it hehe

im staying in rahoon (croc na oir) its a long walk in but i dont mind it. have have done more study last semester and im finding it hard to get down to the work now. I almost didn't go for that group thing i kept walking passed many times before i decided to go, i was so nervous but once you find that everyone is the same it doesnt feel so difficult. its so worth doing it though. Yea it would be so cool to meet up sometime!

Have a good weekend

I‘m ok thanks, how are you? You’re from Ireland, it’s a cool accent. I’m quarter Irish now that I think about it.

ok i used to get panic attacks alot before yea i have a social phobia big time mainly cos i was bullied alot in school, cool you are doing pharmacology and anatomy! yea my first year is going fine just have alot to do before exams. I joined a group here at the college for shy ppl. I think its the first year it has been done.

wow its really cool to find a galway person i wasn't expecting to i feel less isolated. I am on a different forum to SAUK its for UK but i ciuldnt find an irish one

im doing astrophysics first year. What year are you in?

what no way do you go to college in galway

I am lucky i guess, some people have useless doctors that just don't want to help them out in any way at all, my doc has always been there for me no matter what, i am on medication though, but i think if i wasn't i'd be a total loon by now lol I probably definitely will go and see a therapist of some kind, i need to get some stuff off of my chest and it's not the kind of thing i want to talk to my mum or bf about, because i think it's not fair to lumber it on them you know! awwww it sounds so beautiful where you live, i wish i could just pop down to the beach, when i was at school i used to bunk off to Camden Town so not as nice as the sea and sand hehe

Glad that made you laugh i live in australia, i would love to go to ireland!
i didn't get to see Yes Man Murray is indeed very funny!

Well, I love where I live. But I do have to say that Oklahoma isn't much to look at. Just a whole lot of flat ground really ::. But it's relaxing and quiet here so it's all good.

Hi, thanks for the add

Hi Kayelle! Sorry it took so long to respond, I get busy with my kids and i've been writing some music lately so I haven't been using the internet as much.

Yeah I know what you mean about having kids, I never thought I would want kids, I never thought I was the type, but once I turned 23 and met my husband I changed my mind and got that "need" I guess you could say. I'm 26 now and my daughter is definately my last child, I got blessed with a girl and boy so what more could I want? In a way having children has helped me to be more social, although I still have a really hard time making friends or approaching anyone. I try to show my children that I can overcome this disorder so they don't have the same problems I do. I still worry though, that they will feel the way I do some day.

Anyways, what are you up to? Where do you live exactly? Are you in school or working??

Have a good day

Heya Well done on going back to uni after your year off, that's really brave of you! I dropped out of college after only three months and I regret it now :-/ Hopefully I'm going to do some open uni courses this year though! I had my first day at my new job today, it's in a call centre so it's massively stressful for me as someone with SA! I could feel my heart rate going crazy every now and then and got tongue tied a couple of times, but I made it through the day at least, lol! Just hope it's not so bad tomorrow. Are you going to move in with mates from uni? That's what my brother's doing next year, and I'm really happy for him cos he's shy like me and this is a big step for him Hope you had a good day today xx

Lol I headbang all the time, nothing better than a bit of air guitar and air drums when no ones around.

Hey, hope your studying went well! Are you at uni? My brother's doing biochemistry at uni and he has to spend hours studying and doing coursework every day, I wish I were that dedicated!! Maybe I would be if I was doing something that really interested me though I'm ok thanks, just waiting to hear back from the employment agency whether I have any work this week, which is stressing me out a little as I hate not knowing if I have tomorrow free or not!

awww thanks for the hugs, i can never get enough of them hehe yeah things at the docs went ok, i just needed to have a good old chat with him, he's really good i've had him as my doc for absolutely years and he's been there for me through thick and thin, so i trust him and his opinions, he reckons i do need to see someone so i can have a natter every now and then, i have a habit of bottling things up until i feel like i'm going to explode, so he's sorting all that out for me!
Oh wow! you live near a beach? i am so jealous, i have to go to Brighton to see the sea...and that's not much of a beach, it's all pebbles lol i haven't done much recently, but today i plan on starting afresh, so i'm going out soon, maybe just down to see the duck, i'm not sure yet...but whatever i do at least i'll be out and about hehe