Feathers

:'( ((cuddle))

Hello Feathers! Thank you for taking the time to respond to my post and give me advice! I know you help a lot of people here. I feel very honoured!

I've looked for jobs before and it's always hard because I can't really find anything about me that stands out. I would say everything I can do is either average or below. And I'm not being negative I just think it's true. And with this presentation I'll make myself look like a joke! So far they think I'm normal because none of us have spoken a lot yet.

But as I said before what I'll do is not attend that week's lesson, most people don't seem to bother going anyway and I don't think the tutor will even notice.

Thank you, you're very nice Hope you have a good day tomorrow, too.

It's still not for a few days yet, but thank you very much!

They have to pick teams in January, and if I'm not throwing 120 ft+ I don't deserve a spot (I would never place). A thrower really has to be strong, and I'm not. Protein? I don't know, I eat a lot (a lot) of eggs here but have really been lacking in the meat department. If I want meat I have to order it, and that's a little hard right now for me. Does milk have protein? If it does then I'm getting lots because I drink a very large amount of milk.(It's probably unhealthy, but I love it )

As far as work-outs go the team organizes them, I just have to somehow improve at a unnaturally fast fate. I just came into the season wimpy (I've never been strong really) and had my grave dug since last august. I'll try my hardest till the very end (or I wouldn't be me) but it's not looking good. That's ok, at heart I'm a lover not a fighter anyway.

It...went. I got to throw a few times before the coach got there so I wasn't feeling super nervous, but I'm not all that great so the throws were sub-par. At the end he basically told me if I don't get twice as strong by January I won't make the team. I guess I better start looking for other things to throw, any ideas?

Well i allready go to the gym 2/3 times a week. But that is certainly something i want to keep doing, even now i work. Gladly i'm sleeping better now. I think i just have to get used to the work rhythm. And today i slept 11 hours! Feel like being reborn So glad its weekend haha.

Btw i allready live on my own for allmost 7 years now. I left my parents house when i was 19 and went to college. Was the best decision ever. That's why i recommended it for you My relationship with my parents is so much better now than it was back then. But sometimes i feel that my mother and sister pity me and look down at me or something. I hate that. Thats why i never tell people i suffer from SA,

Thanks feathers. You are a good person. Sending good vibes your way....

Yeah a bonnet is nice, paired with say Regency clothing. Amish dresses, kinda unflattering.

Oh, thankyou!
You have some prty good posts yourself,
they're very thoughtful and helpful

Hi thank you for your concern. I don't think I can solve anything I am going through with my Intellect. That is usually how I operate. I have certain uh....issues that I need to work out, and then I need to try and make things work with my partner. She wants to work it out and has apologized, and wants to understand. I am just not sure that I am cut out for the life I have created. I need to release something I just don't know what. I will figure it out...... I always do.

nothing to be sorry about - the wild & untamed Feathers is fun :]

Hi Feathers. How´s it going? Came back from that trip yesterday and I´m glad I did it. Doesn´t make things easier though.

Thanks so much for your support message. Made me feel better It went ok, but it was allot more scary than my interview somehow. Had my second day today and i still dont feel comfortable at all. But it might have something to do with my lack of sleep last 2 days. Im exhausted Thankfully i dont have to work tomorrow.

And yeah, parents and siblings do make us feel bad at times! But my mom actually did something very nice for me yesterday. So i guess it can go both ways sometimes.

Awww thank you =)

must go off to bed but way too jazzed - haven't done what I was supposed to do yet either /yikes!/ - remind me not to play 'Wild Thing' in the evening and then participate in inappropriate threads!! LOL!!

Good night everyone!! ha ha...!!

Of course. You have a pretty cool name yourself ^_^ see ya around in the forums!

Just dropped in to say hello hope you're okay x

Hey, thanks for your message on Random thoughts and feelings thread do u mind if I add u?