Falkor

i noticed you were back. but i missed you, i hope your doing well

Hey there, sorry to hear about your massive panic attack today, I've been there myself and it's horrendous, I ended up in hospital too, they don't keep you in luckily and you should get some good help.

Hey Saskia!

That's so awesome! Sounds like you had an awesome date lol. =] Yeah, you should try to get out as much as you can, cause homebound sucks XD
Your mom sounds like one awesome mom, lol, being in a band. That really is a great opportunity for you =]
Whats this new therapy youre trying out? I hope it works out for you!

I've tried alot of self-discipline, you know, general techniques like changing brain patterns/thoughts...trying to address the fear by trying to talk to people, forcing myself to go to social events (even though just recently I made up excuses for a birthday party and a high school reunion-kind of thing at a senior art exhibit at my old high school...even though I really wanted to go -.-). I hope to get some sort of therapy in the future though. Because I want to teach/be a professor in the future, and it's one of my biggest fears that I'm going to be a complete failure and never be able to do it because of my SA. >.<

Thank you, Saskia It's nice to be back. This is one of the most difficult times of my life, as you can imagine. I'm alive, I don't know. I was in the mental hospital for a week, but right now I'm in a group home, which will basically help me transition back into everyday life a little more smoothly. I get to leave here in about a week, so I'm quite nervous to return to the same setting where it all happened. I'll need to do some things differently this time, learning from my previous mistakes (easier said than done). Thanks for your concern!

How have you been lately? I love your new video about the positive aspects of social anxiety. You raised many good points that I need to consider more often because I tend to focus on the negative aspects of social anxiety. I've been working on social anxiety since I've been here in this new house, so your video is very comforting. You're a wonderful person and your accent is awesome, too.

How was your date? Ooh lala.

Doei

Nice to meet you also Im doing pretty good. Full from eating so much though lol you're into guitar playing and poems too huh? awesome!

yea my weekend was pretty good. Nothing to exciting. Some family was here from Ohio so we had a pretty big get together saturday which was pretty fun.
How was your weekend? i hope it was awesome
keep smilin

Yay I made you smile! lol =]

It's good that you're strong enough to withstand the whole visit sometimes! That shows that you have the potential to overcome it. Sometimes I get brave enough to willingly do something that absolutely scares the hell out of me, like being one of the volunteers to present in front of a buncha students in a lecture hall....lol. I get completely freaked out, but to me its a way of proving to myself that I have the capability to get better. Even if I mess up, I tell myself that the mere fact that I could withstand the whole thing at all is in itself defying my SA. =]

What bout you? What ways do you try to improve yourself or challenge your SA?
Do you go to high school, by the way? Or college?

Hi, im new and alot like you from what I have read/seen on your posts and videos. You are very talented and you are fighting the good fight. Dont give up!

yea..im sure you can come out of it though... Everyone has a purpose in this life and i know you do! you are a good singer... you seem very cool. I hope you come out of this 5 times braver than before. I think there is a lesson in everything and I have definitely been learning through my experiences. Just realize you are special and it's not what others think of you that's important....which is obviously what your mind is lying to you and me... anyways... i hope you have a great night! ..and God bless

Hi Saskia! Yeah. Quite a number of people seem to be having problems with the mini-messenger for some reason...

ok so I went to your personal SA site, and the Guestbook thingy didnt let me post this so um here it is lol:

I really respect you for creating this site and also being able to even do anything like post your own video blogs as well about SA, especially considering you haaave SA. lol. thats really awesome. And I agree with the tips section too, those definitely help to at least alleviate some anxiety, or at least take your mind off it. Anyway, great job! =]

hey whats up... i see you just turned 18... how is life ?

Hi there! nice to meet you and thanks for the add

I'd love to be friends! Sounds like we have alot in common. Yeah, I'm new here and I love it so far.

Hi there! Thank you for the friend add. How are you today?

Thank you! I like to do beading, if you want to show me some pics of your stuff sometime, that would be great.

Hi Saskia,
I can see that u really love singing. I hope U have ur voice back soon. And I watched ur video singing with ur mom, it was so amazing. I believe one day u will overcome ur anxiety and become a singer.
And thanks for asking me
My weekend is the same as usual. I only stayed in my room, doing stuff like practising guitar, playing my PSP, listening to music and doing homework. I rarely go out because of my anxiety and depression. Anyway, I can say that I had quite a good time enjoying myself 'cause I could do stuff that I love to do, especially playing Final Fantasy.
And, I only play guitar, I dont sing 'cause I dont have a good voice. Im learning to play a song from Final Fantasy right now. If I complete it, maybe I will post on youtube for u to see

Rembrandt was one of the greatest painters ever. He is one of the 'Old Masters'. If you've time, you can look up his life story. It's very touching in many ways. He is one of the very few masters whose love for his wife show in his paintings.

Nah... nothing much planned. Just tutoring some kids. And maybe painting at night.

it was little to say stupid..no one spoke and the docotor was disorganised, she's rly something:/
but think I'm going to find a better one
how did urs go?