theslowesthand
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It almost sounds like he's got BPD or sth, with the extreme shifts of his attitude towards you? I've come accross sby like this in a mental hospital. Tho i could be wrong - he might just be a class-A as5hole. :question:
How are you feeling?
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It almost sounds like he's got BPD or sth, with the extreme shifts of his attitude towards you? I've come accross sby like this in a mental hospital. Tho i could be wrong - he might just be a class-A as5hole. :question:
GraybeardGhost
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My soul is in agony. I cannot bear this awful world.
theslowesthand
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Listening to Camel-toe of Doom, and feeling surprisngly upbeat & hopeful! :bigsmile:
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
I can definitely relate. Though, I don't have to deal with verbal abuse. But I do get a lotta anger directed at me from my mum from time to time.
I probably get taken advantage of more than anything, like being emotional manipulated and lied to.
Yeah, I have the similar experiences with my mum, who doesn't really communicate with me much. Not going to suggest giving into yer suicidal thoughts, since they probably destroy yer mum. Yer dad might realise how much of an @rsehole he's been. But I've found that it's only in hindsight after like a huge argument or something awful happening, that folk tend to change.
No problem.
erfect:NamiraWilhelm
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Awful. I moved abroad for love, am completely alone without him. But he won't engage, and has no patience for my depression it seems. So when I'm really low, like now, I have no one to talk to. He won't have anything to do with it, thinks I'm being ridiculous and responds with robotic unfeeling answers.
I'm as shit at making friends here as I've always been. What a mistake it was to venture out of my cave.
I'm as shit at making friends here as I've always been. What a mistake it was to venture out of my cave.
FountainandFairfax
in a VAN down by the RIVER
I'm sorry, Namira.
grapevine
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What is with some people and their self-entitlement? My bf (who just wont give me a day and night away from him) when he stays at my place with my parents - its uncomfortable because he thinks its okay to go through the fridge pantry and freezer and make himself food. Well he does ask if its okay once he has pulled something out. And my parents on a budget - my mum in charge of trying to save food and $$ gets really passively frustrated and angry. And it puts me in a situation all the time.
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Well, my mum might be diabetic. And all she's done is f**kin' complain to me about it, and how shit her life. Because, apparently, it's not fair. :crying:
Ah cannae f**kin' take this anymore. :kickingmyself: Told her for years to stop with the junk food and fizzy drinks. Exercise, stop laying about as much. But, no! Me being sensible - cannae huv that. No, I'm supposed to take the burden and be her enabler. Tell her what she wants to hear. Nearly said to her words to the effect of:
But she's probably decapitate me with the f**kin' bread knife if ah did. Since she's got previous when it comes to physically assaulting me with a sharp implement. So I won't push ma luck. And she doesnae take it well when I tell it like it is, tends to react like a spoilt brat being told they can't have something. And, y'know, violently... as all well-adjusted folk do.
Prefers to live in denial and pretend everything's alright when it's not. Blames me for all her problems. :sad:
Ah cannae f**kin' take this anymore. :kickingmyself: Told her for years to stop with the junk food and fizzy drinks. Exercise, stop laying about as much. But, no! Me being sensible - cannae huv that. No, I'm supposed to take the burden and be her enabler. Tell her what she wants to hear. Nearly said to her words to the effect of:
"Yer fat, it's your fault. Deal with it!" ie, "You've only got yourself to blame"
But she's probably decapitate me with the f**kin' bread knife if ah did. Since she's got previous when it comes to physically assaulting me with a sharp implement. So I won't push ma luck. And she doesnae take it well when I tell it like it is, tends to react like a spoilt brat being told they can't have something. And, y'know, violently... as all well-adjusted folk do.
Prefers to live in denial and pretend everything's alright when it's not. Blames me for all her problems. :sad:
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Im kind of happy today because today i talk to some people and they were kind of interested with the conversation so that i have that "acceptance" feelings.
But actually i also feel sad and confused. I was doing a group project with seniors that im not really close with. And they were like do whatever they want. I mean, with people that im not really close with i always think too much of what i should do or what i should not do. And those thoughts actually pressuring me. The result is i become awkward and quiet and i dont know maybe people think im kind of weird. And seing people do whatever they want without thinking too much and seing them easily become friend each other in fun way, it makes me think more about myself. Like, whats wrong with me? why cant i be fun like them?
But actually i also feel sad and confused. I was doing a group project with seniors that im not really close with. And they were like do whatever they want. I mean, with people that im not really close with i always think too much of what i should do or what i should not do. And those thoughts actually pressuring me. The result is i become awkward and quiet and i dont know maybe people think im kind of weird. And seing people do whatever they want without thinking too much and seing them easily become friend each other in fun way, it makes me think more about myself. Like, whats wrong with me? why cant i be fun like them?
defiance
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Yeah I am not sure at this point as well. I mean it is so consistant that you really start to think if he does have some kind of a condition. But I tend to think that he is a class-A @sshole. It is really difficult living with people like these.
defiance
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It's not fair for you to have to take on the burden of another life. In fact it is impossible to do so really. I mean you can't eat healthy for them, you can't exercise for them so I mean aside from emotional support which you have done, I don't see what more you can do in this situation.
defiance
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I want to end it all. The pain in my heart is too heavy. What is this life man....I mean seriously. Wake up SUFFER sleep Wake up SUFFER sleep.
Seriously man WTF IS THIS SH*T.
I live a life of total failure. I can't do anything. On top of that I have a f*cking delusional old man who has ruined our lives. In fact as I am writing this, he won't stop talking and talking and talking. This is annoying everyone and he knows it but he keeps doing it. He gets a kick out of people suffering I am sure of it. I mean why else would he be doing it. I don't know man maybe he does have some mental issues himself. I look at my sweet mothers face and I see she is suffering because of him and because of my failures. That makes my burden even heavier. Man isn't made to carry such a heavy burden. I have to do it. At some point I have to end it. I can't keep this up. This pain is ungodly.
Seriously man WTF IS THIS SH*T.
I live a life of total failure. I can't do anything. On top of that I have a f*cking delusional old man who has ruined our lives. In fact as I am writing this, he won't stop talking and talking and talking. This is annoying everyone and he knows it but he keeps doing it. He gets a kick out of people suffering I am sure of it. I mean why else would he be doing it. I don't know man maybe he does have some mental issues himself. I look at my sweet mothers face and I see she is suffering because of him and because of my failures. That makes my burden even heavier. Man isn't made to carry such a heavy burden. I have to do it. At some point I have to end it. I can't keep this up. This pain is ungodly.
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Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
So, I'm not being an arsehole, then? Because my oldest sister sure a hell made me feel like one when I dared to ask why our mum couldn't do the blood check herself. If she does, in fact, have diabetis. My sister f**kin' glared at me when I said this, she wasn't happy. To the point where I had to add that I'd help if asked. Cuz I know we were going to getting into a row over it. Since, apparently, responsibility for my mum's health lies with me. :kickingmyself:
Hot_Tamale
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I wonder if your health insurance provider would cover the cost for family or individual counseling? Far be it from me to play savior in somebody elses life, I'm just spitballin' here. Dont ever go down without a fight because when plan A doesnt work there are 25 more letters in the alphabet!
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
So, I'm not being an arsehole, then? Because my oldest sister sure a f**k made me feel like one when I dared to ask why our mum couldn't do the blood check herself. If she does, in fact, have diabetis. My sister just glared at me when I said this, she wasn't happy. To the point where I had to add that I'd help if asked. Cuz I know we were going to getting into a row over it, if I had said that. Since, apparently, responsibility for my mum's health lies with me. :kickingmyself:
Ironically, my oldest sibling and I had a length discussion about our mum's obsessive twice a week habit of buying junk food from the supermarket, only because it's on offer, just last year. We got accused of "picking on her" when we asked her why she felt the need to buy four 6-packs of Pepsi every week? Anyway, our discussion ended with both of us concluding that something drastic would need to happen afore our mum changed her ways. And, by the end of the week, we'll know if it has. :sad:
Years of promising me she'd change her ways. Treat me better, heed my advice, etc. But she never did. Apparently saying you do something and actually doing don't quite compute for my family.
And that's the problem: I'm expected to keep my word whenever I promise I'll do something for my family. No excuses! But I'm not allowed to hold them up to those same standards.
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Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
This, this is my life. Expected I have to listen to my mum bang on about how shit life is. And somehow be empaththetic towards her. :idontknow:
defiance
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Unfortunately therapy is out of the question. I'll just ride this out and see if I make it through the pain. These last 3 weeks have been shitty indeed. Maybe once it subsides things might return to, somewhat, normal. I don't know. Time will tell. As always I'll try my best to keep going. Let's hope for the best.
raying:
theslowesthand
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I've always viewed intense & ongoing suffering as a means to an end. It a sign, or symptom, that things out "out of whack" & need changing. It's not suffering just for it's own sake, but suffering for a reason. It's your job to find out the reason(s), & to try to rectify them, for as long as it takes (some issues take years to resolve).
theslowesthand
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Has she been drinking ~24 pepsi's a week? That's about 3 per day, every day. Seems a bit much. A relative of mine had diabetes two; he drank cokes constantly - had a separate fridge full of them; mind you he worked at a coca cola factory. He died of cancer, but who knows if the diabetes was a contributing or at least complicating factor.
Maybe your mum can't change her ways, as her attitudes are "etched in stone"?
Man, your family seems like a "minefield" - put a foot wrong, and you step on a mine, and it explodes!
. Or a complex labyrnth (with mines in it)!
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FountainandFairfax
in a VAN down by the RIVER
Don't you love it when you say something stupid and then you just sit there rummaging through your head trying to remember all the other bone-headed shit you've said in your life?