How are you feeling?

I feel energetic and happy for some reason

Sad.. I don't no how much longer can I deal with this anxiety.. I've been now in some pub on a drink with my friend..and even she is ok and knows about my SA it isn't easier for me at all. As we were siting there, pub was filling with people and my anxiety was rising. What a terrible feeling..I would'n wish that my worsest enemy..
I know that If I want to face my fears I must not give up .. but I am really really tired..

I feel like i'm dying. My chest feels so tight, it feels like something is wrapped around my chest and crushing me, as well as having tons of weight on top of that. My back is killing me too, and this is not a panic attack. It's a constant feeling that has been with me two days now.

I'm scared i may have a heart problem as there are many heart problems running through my family. I'm also hurt because no body seems to fooking care. I might end up ringing 999 tonight if it gets worse, yet at the same time i'm too anxious to ring.

This is me, especially right now. This is the way I feel in every setting:

YouTube - Come with me

... and where the f**k is my Dorothy Boyd?

I feel more depressed than I've felt in a long time. I know my family is completely sick of me so I'm lonely right now. And I was supposed to be going back to college this week and I haven't been in yet. I just can't see anything positive at the minute and I'm glad I have all you guys tonight XxX

KiaraBlue said:

I know that If I want to face my fears I must not give up .. but I am really really tired..

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thats the problem though, goin out and facing my fears does nt help one bit :: im still the same as i was when i 1st realised i had social anxiety.

I want so much to have friends and to be able to socialize.. I don't know what to do. I mean I know theoretically, but when it comes to making some steps, I feel like I am suffocating, so afraid of being judged, of not being good enough for anybody and anything. The only one I talk to is my cat. I want to get out of this, I have been trying, but I am not strong enough. It's depressive when you don't have anybody. I am not even talking a boyfriend - just a friend, anybody.

I feel ****ing sick,lost all hope in relationships,married guys having affairs all the time,cant wait for his girl who is in another country,probably cheating on him too,the other girl knowing he is married but doesnt give a ****,girls being all over guys who are in a relationship,guys who want all girls for themselfs,all this became to common,I will probably be alone till the end of my life,cant trust anybody.

Not good. Very panicky. Can't seem to calm down...

Tired, about to watch my tv shows then passout to sleep for about 14 hours

I feel like ripping my face off.

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I feel like ripping my face off.

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Why is that?

I feel worthless and insignificant....i am supposed to feel bad about that, but i am so numb, that i really don't give a hoot

I feel as though the past five years since I got out of high school have gone by so fast and I have done absolutley nothing with my life. I have made no friends nor a girlfriend. Wait. I feel like that? No. That IS what happened. I just want to be FREE of this shackle I call my home. I want to move out of my mom's house even if that means living in an apartment by myself on the miniscule fast food wage I earn.

All because I was too shy to go to college. I tried it; couldn't take it. I'm even too scared to go look at the apartments.

I'm so trapped... why is this demon living in me?

I hate it.

I want it dead.

I can't even make friends on the internet. I never chat in games and I avoid social websites like the plague, because I am too scared to type anything for fear of rejection and this fear blinds me of anything thoughtful to type. I only type what I do here because I know others feel the same way. Although the range of how bad we have social anxiety vastly differs, so I've observed over the four years that I've lurked here.

Life is funny. It really is. People like me, like us, HAVE to exist. I am the runt of society that keeps the average socialite in balance while the extreme extroverts do so at the other end of the spectrum.

I'm sick of having but mere aquaintences at work. Sure, People like me, but nobody KNOWS me. Many a girl are attracted to me, and some find my awkwardness rather cute, so they say, but I can't take not DOING anything anymore. Why can't I fight this and just TALK to THEM! I have missed so many amazing opportunities in the last five years. From friends, to education, to girls to jobs. You name it. So now I am doing poorly in all those deperments.

If I am successful at obtaining an apartment... you all will know it. I will post something here.

The day I am free...

the whole world could know...

the real...

me.

im so confused, my friend just said i said **** behind his back, now his all pissed and stuff...I was like"WTF??o_0" when I got the msg

I went out and watched a movie and went to a late night bar/arcade and it was fun I guess....came home about an hour ago and feel progressively worse with each passing hour. Very mixed emotions on a few different things in my life and one really stands out and I feel lonely.

just got out of bed my cars in the garage being repaired so im stuck here at home board board board ........ ill make myself a cup of tea ... how exciting will that be whooooo gary jumps to his feet and puts the kettle on , full of Anticipation of how great the tea will taste

Feeling good today. Tired but good, hopefully it will last the day.

im actually feeling great today, nothing like music to put ya in a good mood

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