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mcpon14

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jenz said:
hi all.. im new here! first post! ...ive read some of your personal stories and I can soo relate to them... it is an everyday struggle and it's hard to make people understand that is not somthing you can make dissapear quickly ...i wish it could ....I can especially relate to Maya's post..in my case ..i have a sister (not even a friend) who helps me get out there and get some kind of a social life...its better than no one at all I guess...But i am afraid of what my life will be like if I don't change..because I don't know anybody other than my family... they make me feel normal but when Im out doing normal everyday things I feel like the world is judging me...school and work has always felt like a pain too.. it just feels so hard to relate to someone....I guess thats why Im here I need to talk to people who understand ...instead of keeping it to myself..Im an average 24 yrold but I don't feel that way. My shyness has affected every aspect of my life school work socializing,friendships, relationships etc. By the way are there any hispanics on here that can relate?(not discriminating)

talk to me people!!! I need someone to talk, to you need someone to talk to :eek: I am officially your friend :D lets ease some of our anxiousness!
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I'll talk to you. :)
 
Graeme1988

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
Just making the best of a shitty situation. :sad: Suffering mental like, but that just the price I pay for being raised by an angry, overly aggressive, narcissist, I guess. :idontknow: Arguments seem to be the only thing my family ever do. :kickingmyself:
 
theslowesthand

theslowesthand

Banned
Gradually sinker into the quicksand of misery & despair, yet again. :sad:
But i dare say i shall survive it .. always do...
 
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Cucuboth

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Feeling lonely. Unwanted. Lost. Broken. Feeling like everything, even sleep, is an effort. I don’t want to be at home, and I don’t want to be out anywhere, because I will be alone no matter where I go. If I try to talk to someone, I will be quickly reminded that I don’t fit in. Don’t belong. I just want somewhere where I don’t have to feel like this. I just want the loneliness to stop.
 
Graeme1988

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
I like I'm stuck in a mental instution... Another day, another argument. And the dysfunctional family drama continues.. :crying:

Would it be wrong of me to just disown my family at this point? :thinking: Cuz I feel that's my only choice. Arguments and shouting are all I've ever known of family life. That's "normal" to me. But then I've always been the outsider, more sensible n' level-headed. Ah think that's where much of my family's resent towards me comes from, the fact I'm just that wee bit smarter than them. Jealousy, really. The closest I've come to a calm, ciivilised conversation would be talking to, either, my oldest sister, or my mother when it's just the 2 of us in the house. Can't speak to my older, middle sister cuz she's got such a violatile, predictably unpredictable violent nature about her, that yer walking on eggshells aw the time. And by predictably unpredictable I mean y'know she's going flip out, you just don't know when she flee off the handle. 9 times oot o' 10 summit you said pissed her off. :kickingmyself:

I wish I'd been adopted, I really do... :sad:
 
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Sarah_M

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I feel anxious. I don't have a driver's license or a car because I am a loser. I have driving anxiety something fierce, but driving is a necessity. I went to hypnosis - it didn't really work because I believed it wouldn't. Now I have to shell out MORE money to take driving lessons which is probably better for me, but I am nervous to call. Everything (literally everything), in my life is riding on this. I can't move out of my apartment, go to a 4 year college, have a normal life, be independant, get married or be a mother without a driver's license. I have to do this. I need to buy a car, too. That's going to be expensive because I need a newer car with AWD or buy some snow tires...****.
 
Graeme1988

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
Despairing for my own existence and sanity. For the fact that I'm relate to a bunch of supposed "adults" who are willing to start a legit argument over a piece of fruit. :eek:mg: :confused: :kickingmyself:
 
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Hot_Tamale

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Sarah_M said:
I feel anxious. I don't have a driver's license or a car because I am a loser. I have driving anxiety something fierce, but driving is a necessity. I went to hypnosis - it didn't really work because I believed it wouldn't. Now I have to shell out MORE money to take driving lessons which is probably better for me, but I am nervous to call. Everything (literally everything), in my life is riding on this. I can't move out of my apartment, go to a 4 year college, have a normal life, be independant, get married or be a mother without a driver's license. I have to do this. I need to buy a car, too. That's going to be expensive because I need a newer car with AWD or buy some snow tires...****.
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Do you live in a state (country?) that has a bad reputation for reckless drivers?

Graeme1988 said:
Despairing for my own existence and sanity. For the fact that I'm relate to a bunch of supposed "adults" who are willing to start a legit argument over a piece of fruit.
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Sorry to hear that you're caught in the crossefire once again :( Don't stop holding out hope that maybe, just maybe, your middle sister feels empathy in her own private thoughts for the people she makes feel like utter shite.
 
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Sarah_M

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Hot_Tamale said:
Do you live in a state (country?) that has a bad reputation for reckless drivers?
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I live in Oregon and the population is expanding like crazy where I live. I guess I just feel like no one takes driving as seriously as I do - not to mention I work at a hospital and have seen some accident related stuff. I'm just scared :/
 
Graeme1988

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
Hot_Tamale said:
Sorry to hear that you're caught in the crossefire once again :( Don't stop holding out hope that maybe, just maybe, your middle sister feels empathy in her own private thoughts for the people she makes feel like utter shite.
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Doubt she knows the meaning of the word, she a narcissist - just like our mother.

But I'm used to it - my middle sis has been argumentive bitch since I was a kid. Preferring to shout over ye, rather than be mature about it. Because loudness equald a more rational argument, right? Then she cries: "Why me? What did I do?" :eek:h: Even though a majority of the time she starts the arguments, since you can say or do anything without taking issue with it. :kickingmyself: Still does enough she's in her 30s now.

She always quick to pass the buck, and blaming someone else. Naw, nothing's ever her fault, cuz our mother put in her head that she can do no wrong.

As far I'm concerned, once I get a place my own, I'm done with my family. Frankly, ah gave up hoping that my family would change long ago. :sad: I'm not going to waste my time or energy with ungrateful, inconsiderate, lying, petty people who refuse to acknowledge and accept responsibility when they do something wrong.
 
theslowesthand

theslowesthand

Banned
'The feeling of being together, that i'll never know' :sad:

Man, this music always reminds me of what i will likely never have ... but the fantasy & "virtual company" feels better than nothing/boredom. :sad:

Ha, i guess that makes me sad and lonely tonight, eh :question:
Oh well, pour another one...
 
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Graeme1988

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
Don't know how much more of this I can take... :kickingmyself: :sad: It is f*ckin' heartbreaking to see my usual smiling, upbeat, mother so miserable. So... devoid of life. :crying:

Ah mean, I'm miserable, too - but I'm just a grumpy old man-b@$%@rd by nature.

Why d'stupid, dysfunctional people feel that huvin children will make them better as people? Really?!
So, spawning yer ain - that's the answer? Not sorting yersel oot and being a better person and less of a munter? :idontknow:
 
Graeme1988

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
mcpon14 said:
I feel like hugging someone, lol, because hugging myself is just getting too *insert word* and I just end up making out with myself anyways, lol. :)
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too... awkward? :question: :bigsmile:

I could use a hug as well, but I'd just end up crying on someone's shoulder. :crying:
 
vj288

vj288

not actually Fiona Apple
Sarah_M said:
. I need to buy a car, too. That's going to be expensive because I need a newer car with AWD or buy some snow tires...****.
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I'd go snow tires, the $400 for those would be cheaper than getting an expensive, newer car. I have a dinky sentra in snowy New England and haven't had any issues in winter while driving with snow tires. Just drive slow and safe :thumbup:
 
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