Post your random thoughts/feelings etc

[awkwardamanda]

Hmm. My brother is working out of town right now. He's gone for about two months straight. My dad is also working out of town, but he's closer so he's been able to come home on weekends. My mom was supposed to go with him on Monday and come back next weekend. Now she just told me the job schedule is changing to 11 days straight and 3 days off, so she doesn't wanna go for that long. Damn. I was actually looking forward to being alone for a few days.:alone:

 

[Opaline]

My friend wants to have a drink with me tomorrow. I asked him if he meant a friendly drink and he said a catching up drink (haven't seen him in a little over a year). I hope what he said and what he intends are one and the same, but it does seem a bit of wishful thinking on my part because why would a guy grab a drink with a girl he hasn't seen in over a year and they weren't super close friends to begin with? I don't like him like that, though - oy vey mg:

Looking young and going to a bar presents a special sort of anxiety for me. I want to just relax and have a good time but I feel so uncomfortable because people really do stare at me for looking a few years shy of legal age to drink. Some of you can imagine the anxiety you feel when out in public - now imagine looking several years younger than you actually are, and having lots and lots of people staring at you and some making comments? Imagine the anxiety you'd feel then. Yeah.

What should I wear so I don't look like I'm trying to impress, but still look more mature? :/ ggaaaaahhhhhh

 

[awkwardamanda]

My friend wants to have a drink with me tomorrow. I asked him if he meant a friendly drink and he said a catching up drink (haven't seen him in a little over a year). I hope what he said and what he intends are one and the same, but it does seem a bit of wishful thinking on my part because why would a guy grab a drink with a girl he hasn't seen in over a year and they weren't super close friends to begin with? I don't like him like that, though - oy vey mg:

Looking young and going to a bar presents a special sort of anxiety for me. I want to just relax and have a good time but I feel so uncomfortable because people really do stare at me for looking a few years shy of legal age to drink. Some of you can imagine the anxiety you feel when out in public - now imagine looking several years younger than you actually are, and having lots and lots of people staring at you and some making comments? Imagine the anxiety you'd feel then. Yeah.

What should I wear so I don't look like I'm trying to impress, but still look more mature? :/ ggaaaaahhhhhh

I dread the possibility of ever being asked to go for a drink. I'd just order a diet coke anyway. That would probably lead to a discussion about why I don't drink. And for the record, I look a lot younger than I am too, but not underage-young.

 

[superfluouslyme]

My friend wants to have a drink with me tomorrow. I asked him if he meant a friendly drink and he said a catching up drink (haven't seen him in a little over a year). I hope what he said and what he intends are one and the same, but it does seem a bit of wishful thinking on my part because why would a guy grab a drink with a girl he hasn't seen in over a year and they weren't super close friends to begin with? I don't like him like that, though - oy vey mg:

Looking young and going to a bar presents a special sort of anxiety for me. I want to just relax and have a good time but I feel so uncomfortable because people really do stare at me for looking a few years shy of legal age to drink. Some of you can imagine the anxiety you feel when out in public - now imagine looking several years younger than you actually are, and having lots and lots of people staring at you and some making comments? Imagine the anxiety you'd feel then. Yeah.

What should I wear so I don't look like I'm trying to impress, but still look more mature? :/ ggaaaaahhhhhh

I feel for you. I don't like going out and drinking with friends either. I don't look younger than my age (though I'm always carded, which is the purpose of the age limit, so I'm fine with it). I just don't like to drink much. There are too many alcoholics and self-medicators in my family. So I try to stay as far away from any trouble or temptation as I can. As for clothing... I'm definitely not the person to answer that. I'd just wear what you are comfortable in. Don't wear something that makes you uncomfortable because it will show in your demeanor and posture, and that will make it seem more like you are trying hard to be something else. Just my two cents.

I'm going to hang out with a couple of friends tomorrow night. Everyone is too poor to go see a movie, so we are just going to chill at home. I'm nervous because this is the first time I've seen them since I bailed in spectacular fashion about a month ago. My stress was alleviated some when I ran into one of my friends at the laundromat. (I hate meeting people I know while washing my underwear!!) It was nice to get that initial meeting out of the way. One of my fears was how they would react to seeing me for the first time since my bail. She showed no signs of thinking any different of me. She was her same old self. It was reassuring. :thumbup:

I'm actually feeling really good overall right now. I still have mood swings and whatnot. But I feel like I'm on the up curve. I'm actually doing the things my therapist recommends. I'm keeping busy and being nicer to myself. I'm exercising and eating a little better. I'm doing more of the things that I used to enjoy. And most of all, I'm proud of myself and the improvements I've been making. That's a new feeling.

 

[BlueDays]

Maybe I should just make a large sign with bright red lettering that reads "I am unemployed because I have Depression and Social Anxiety" and wear it around my neck whenever I go out in public.h:

 

[KiaKaha]

Maybe I should just make a large sign with bright red lettering that reads "I am unemployed because I have Depression and Social Anxiety" and wear it around my neck whenever I go out in public.h:

The stigma would be overwhelming. Not only will you be disapproved of because you are unemployed (lazy, too picky, drain on society etc - why should I have to work when you don't etc etc) but you would also be condemned because you have a mental illness AND out of the ones that it is possible to have - the one you happen to have is the one that is most frowned upon and misunderstood.

I say go for it

 

[BlueDays]

...you be disapproved of because you are unemployed (lazy, too picky, drain on society etc - why should I have to work when you don't etc etc)

^ This is precisely why I want to wear the sign. To stop people assuming I am unemployed because I am "lazy, too picky, drain on society etc".....

I think I would rather deal with the stigma attached to mental illness then the negative and totally wrong assumptions that I am lazy, too picky, just don't want to work etc.:sad:

 

[hidwell]

The world is my oyster but I don't like oysters.

 

[KiaKaha]

^ This is precisely why I want to wear the sign. To stop people assuming I am unemployed because I am "lazy, too picky, drain on society etc".....

I think I would rather deal with the stigma attached to mental illness then the negative and totally wrong assumptions that I am lazy, too picky, just don't want to work etc.:sad:

I like your attitude. I say go for it - you would have my admiration.

I am having a lot of trouble accessing this forum. All the pages take a long time to load, searching through posts has been 'disabled' getting a lot of network errors and a message saying that the 'server is too busy' also - links take me back to the main page. Is this happening to anyone else or just me? All other websites seem to load fine... I just cant get this one to work properly.

Hitting the submit reply button will take at least 3 minutes... if it works...

 

[Srijita52]

Back from the reunion, it went okay but there were times when I felt really awkward because of my stupid social skills. Also I don't know why its so hard for me to accept that people would actually want to talk to ME. My classmates were a little shocked to see me though, so that was interesting. But I realised today how quiet I still am. Maybe I got lots and lots of work to do.

 

[hidwell]

Back from the reunion, it went okay but there were times when I felt really awkward because of my stupid social skills. Also I don't know why its so hard for me to accept that people would actually want to talk to ME. My classmates were a little shocked to see me though, so that was interesting. But I realised today how quiet I still am. Maybe I got lots and lots of work to do.

Well done Srijita sounds like you are making progress you go girl. :thumbup:

 

[KiaKaha]

Back from the reunion, it went okay but there were times when I felt really awkward because of my stupid social skills. Also I don't know why its so hard for me to accept that people would actually want to talk to ME. My classmates were a little shocked to see me though, so that was interesting. But I realised today how quiet I still am. Maybe I got lots and lots of work to do.

I like how you shocked them. Maybe they thought you didn't have it in you to show up?
But you did. And you showed them that you are made of stronger stuff than they give you credit for (that is if my assumptions about why they were shocked is true of course)

But aside from that, well done - you should feel proud that you did it, considering you were so nervous. You are extraordinarily likeable.

 

[Srijita52]

Well done Srijita sounds like you are making progress you go girl. :thumbup:

Thanks hidwell.

I like how you shocked them. Maybe they thought you didn't have it in you to show up?
But you did. And you showed them that you are made of stronger stuff than they give you credit for (that is if my assumptions about why they were shocked is true of course)

But aside from that, well done - you should feel proud that you did it, considering you were so nervous. You are extraordinarily likeable.

Thank you Kia. To tell the truth I don't really know why they were shocked. But I guess you're right.

 

[Opaline]

Can't stop kicking myself for quitting my other job. They gave me any hours I wanted, often more because they were short people (which I complained about at the time but now I could really use as many hours as possible), they liked me there. I just hated going through security every day. I wish I could work there again, though.

I've made so many bad choices past few years, I really ****ed everything up. Good opportunities given up and relationships ruined due to depression and anxiety.

Probably the last negative post I'll be making for a while, don't worry. That was just really bothering me. The other job interview was a temporary position so I turned it down, and this job isn't enough hours (and I'm the only white person there, which is uncomfortable to be honest). I'm really struggling right now, I don't know when things are going to be going well for me. Trying to hang in there but I'm a wreck. Thanks to everyone here who've offered me advice and PMs and stuff.

 

[Graeme1988]

If ye want some done right... never send someone else with no musicial instrument experience to a music store asking have your guitar fix. h: :kickingmyself: Do it yer-f**kin'-self!

 

[megalon]

Did anyone else see the story about the russian meteor? crazy stuff
Russian meteor causes blast; hundreds injured - CNN.com
RUSSIAN METEORITE - EXPLOSION CAUGHT ON FILM - *VOLUME WARNING* - YouTube

 

[Graeme1988]

Can't stop kicking myself for quitting my other job. They gave me any hours I wanted, often more because they were short people (which I complained about at the time but now I could really use as many hours as possible), they liked me there. I just hated going through security every day. I wish I could work there again, though.

I've made so many bad choices past few years, I really ****ed everything up. Good opportunities given up and relationships ruined due to depression and anxiety.

Probably the last negative post I'll be making for a while, don't worry. That was just really bothering me. The other job interview was a temporary position so I turned it down, and this job isn't enough hours (and I'm the only white person there, which is uncomfortable to be honest). I'm really struggling right now, I don't know when things are going to be going well for me. Trying to hang in there but I'm a wreck. Thanks to everyone here who've offered me advice and PMs and stuff.

Sorry tae hear that, darlin'. Stay strong, though - as hard as that may be sometimes. :thumbup:

 

[NathanielWingatePeaslee]

Can't stop kicking myself for quitting my other job. They gave me any hours I wanted, often more because they were short people

Hee. Sorry, I just love that one.

Oh, if you had any idea how many epic mistakes I've made in my life. Learning is painful, but you will learn.

 

[coyote]

The world is my oyster but I don't like oysters.

it's best raw with a cold beer

 

[Remus]

Cold fish snot!