KiaKaha
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Coyote, I dont want to talk about it OK?
Its just... its just hard to deal with...
*starts trembling*
How are you feeling?
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Coyote, I dont want to talk about it OK?
Its just... its just hard to deal with...
*starts trembling*
coyote
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MikeyC
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Welcome to apathy. It's a horrible feeling. Sorry you're feeling so low. Is it because of the move?
Hope it's nothing too bad, mate.
Phoenixx
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^ Tumblr isn't letting me upload anything either. It also won't even let me save those posts as drafts. >.< I really hope they get that sorted soon.
polishgirl
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Haha I just wanted to say, you must be one of the nicest people I've come across here! I appreciate you replying to my every single rant on this thread! Thank you so much, it really does help
I think the move just triggered everything I had in me for so long. The lack of confidence and hatred towards myself shows itself even more when in a new community. I feel so lonely here, I left a lot of good friends back home but now I am starting to wonder that maybe I didn't matter to them at all, because I can't seem to matter to anyone here. I hope that makes sense.
Srijita52
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It does make sense, moving to a new community is hard, it takes a little time to make new friends. I'm sure you mattered to your old friends and I hope you can make some great friends at your new place as well, everyone feels a little detached in the begining but it will get better, just stay strongHaha I just wanted to say, you must be one of the nicest people I've come across here! I appreciate you replying to my every single rant on this thread! Thank you so much, it really does help
I think the move just triggered everything I had in me for so long. The lack of confidence and hatred towards myself shows itself even more when in a new community. I feel so lonely here, I left a lot of good friends back home but now I am starting to wonder that maybe I didn't matter to them at all, because I can't seem to matter to anyone here. I hope that makes sense.
Bored. Always tired. Kinda sick.
Invisibleman
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T oday at school there was this one and only day to sign up for the school's rugby team.I was terrified to go,I paced back and forth for a good chunk of the lunch hour just to gain the courage. I went up to the table and kept walking as I was too scared,I did 10 laps and each time kept walking by,my heart felt like it was going to pound out of my chest. I finally mustered up the courage and went up to the table, the mountainous boys looked at my petite 130 pound frame with a kind of odd look but they didnt say anything which I was scared they would have. I tried my best to stand up tall and strolled awkwardly to the sheet and put my name and that was that. Even the small victories still make me feel kinda depressed, its ridiculous how my SA makes me take such trivial things and blow them completely out of proportion
Srijita52
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I hope you feel better soon
Yeah,I can relate. But its great that you gathered up the courage to join, well doneT oday at school there was this one and only day to sign up for the school's rugby team.I was terrified to go,I paced back and forth for a good chunk of the lunch hour just to gain the courage. I went up to the table and kept walking as I was too scared,I did 10 laps and each time kept walking by,my heart felt like it was going to pound out of my chest. I finally mustered up the courage and went up to the table, the mountainous boys looked at my petite 130 pound frame with a kind of odd look but they didnt say anything which I was scared they would have. I tried my best to stand up tall and strolled awkwardly to the sheet and put my name and that was that. Even the small victories still make me feel kinda depressed, its ridiculous how my SA makes me take such trivial things and blow them completely out of proportion
I hope you feel better soon
Oh, I'm just moody and extremely bored and a little scared about the future. Same as always. I'm just letting it effect me this time. Thanks, though!
Srijita52
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Oh, I'm just moody and extremely bored and a little scared about the future. Same as always. I'm just letting it effect me this time. Thanks, though!
No problem
If you ever want to talk I'm here.
Shyangel
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I had a day of sins today. I drank some beer and wine and smoked tobacco out of a hookah with my sisters today. I rarely drink and I never smoke any kind of tobacco out of anything, but I thought I would try it today. My sister demanded I try it so I didn't have much of a choice anyway lol. I didn't mind and will probably do it again once in a while for fun.
Shyangel
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Awesome job!! That's a big scary step you took. You should feel proud.
I don't know if I could have done that. The anxiety thing is a killer. It is crazy how it makes the simplest task look insanely impossible. I can feel you on that.
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MikeyC
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Well, thank you. :Haha I just wanted to say, you must be one of the nicest people I've come across here! I appreciate you replying to my every single rant on this thread! Thank you so much, it really does help
I think the move just triggered everything I had in me for so long. The lack of confidence and hatred towards myself shows itself even more when in a new community. I feel so lonely here, I left a lot of good friends back home but now I am starting to wonder that maybe I didn't matter to them at all, because I can't seem to matter to anyone here. I hope that makes sense.
: I'm really not that nice, though.Moving is a big deal. Moving countries is a massive deal, because you essentially need to start again, which is super difficult at the best of times. I can understand your loneliness and I'm truly sorry you have to go through that. Despite what you think, you do matter. You will make friends and you will start to enjoy your new life. It all just takes time when you suddenly up and move.
My inbox is always available if you like to chat.
Rugby! Go you! I'm glad you did that, mate. Don't worry about your small frame, either. That means you're agile!T oday at school there was this one and only day to sign up for the school's rugby team.I was terrified to go,I paced back and forth for a good chunk of the lunch hour just to gain the courage. I went up to the table and kept walking as I was too scared,I did 10 laps and each time kept walking by,my heart felt like it was going to pound out of my chest. I finally mustered up the courage and went up to the table, the mountainous boys looked at my petite 130 pound frame with a kind of odd look but they didnt say anything which I was scared they would have. I tried my best to stand up tall and strolled awkwardly to the sheet and put my name and that was that. Even the small victories still make me feel kinda depressed, its ridiculous how my SA makes me take such trivial things and blow them completely out of proportion
Aw, superfluous. Thinking about the future is a bad thing, as I know from terrible experience. You have lots to offer, though. I hope you feel better.Oh, I'm just moody and extremely bored and a little scared about the future. Same as always. I'm just letting it effect me this time. Thanks, though!
Don't get hooked on tobacco! Cigarettes are awful and I hope you don't turn into a smoker.
I'm also concerned about your sister "forcing" you to do these things. You have a right to say no if you want to.
MikeyC
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It's definitely not a good idea. I've tried cigarettes, too, but only when blind drunk. I only remember one time but my friend is adamant I've done it a couple of times. The one time I do recall it I coughed my lungs up.
It's not just the health benefits, but the financial side of it, too. I don't know what the prices of cigarettes are in America but in Australia you're looking at nearly $20 for a pack of 30 or so. If I was a smoker I'd have to give up eating or something.
Please please please please do not seek an escape using substances! :
: If you like the euphoria they give you, you'll want more and more and soon enough it could turn into an addiction. I'm lucky I'm not an alcoholic because of that, as I would sometimes drink my problems away. I don't drink much anymore but with my personality I could've been highly reliant on alcohol.Sorry to sound like a nagging father but I have a friend who smokes a LOT of pot and I fear he's getting an addiction, so I don't want it to happen to you.
EDIT: I will add, though, that trying something is not a bad thing. I guess most people experiment with drugs of some kind at some point in their lives.
MsBuzzkillington
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I think hookah is fairly innocent. A lot of people do it as a recreational thing and I don't think it's the same as smoking a cigarette. I tried it once just to see what all the hype was about but I didn't really do it much because it still felt really awkward and wrong.
I think it's okay that you tried it but it's also okay to say no if you don't want to do it again. Tell your sister that you tried it and didn't like it and she can stuff the hookah where the sun doesn't shine for all you care.
It's also okay if it's something that you want to do again. But make sure that you are doing it again for the right reasons and not to try and escape from something. We can never truly run away from our problems. When whatever substance you are using to get away disappears your problems are still there. I can understand feeling like you just need to let loose and get away from things sometimes, but it can be a dangerous path to walk down.
I think it's okay that you tried it but it's also okay to say no if you don't want to do it again. Tell your sister that you tried it and didn't like it and she can stuff the hookah where the sun doesn't shine for all you care
. It's also okay if it's something that you want to do again. But make sure that you are doing it again for the right reasons and not to try and escape from something. We can never truly run away from our problems. When whatever substance you are using to get away disappears your problems are still there. I can understand feeling like you just need to let loose and get away from things sometimes, but it can be a dangerous path to walk down.
Shyangel
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It's definitely not a good idea. I've tried cigarettes, too, but only when blind drunk. I only remember one time but my friend is adamant I've done it a couple of times. The one time I do recall it I coughed my lungs up.
It's not just the health benefits, but the financial side of it, too. I don't know what the prices of cigarettes are in America but in Australia you're looking at nearly $20 for a pack of 30 or so. If I was a smoker I'd have to give up eating or something.
Please please please please do not seek an escape using substances! :
Sorry to sound like a nagging father but I have a friend who smokes a LOT of pot and I fear he's getting an addiction, so I don't want it to happen to you.
EDIT: I will add, though, that trying something is not a bad thing. I guess most people experiment with drugs of some kind at some point in their lives.
Funny, Mikey, I didn't really expect you to be so smart about this sorta thing, no offense. You come off as the type to do these things.
Yeah, I honestly hate them for the most part, but it's something that I can do to get my mind off of things, so I can see me doing it again, I don't think I'll do it many more times, though, because I really don't like it. I'll try my best not to do it often.
Easier said then done, but your definitely right. I sometimes really feel like there's no other way to be happy. So, it's hard for me to commit to saying, " No, I wont do that." Because the temptation is pretty great. I would say I'm, certainly, the type of person to get addicted to these kinda things, but I don't think I will out of fear.
No it's okay, Mikey, your just looking out. I appreciate it.
I hope your friend works out his problem.
True. I think that might be all it is for me. I'll just do it for a little while and be done with it soon to settle my curiosity.
MikeyC
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I hope I didn't come across as mean. After re-reading my post that's easy to misinterpret.Funny, Mikey, I didn't really expect you to be so smart about this sorta thing, no offense. You come off as the type to do these things.
Yeah, I honestly hate them for the most part, but it's something that I can do to get my mind off of things, so I can see me doing it again, I don't think I'll do it many more times, though, because I really don't like it. I'll try my best not to do it often.
Easier said then done, but your definitely right. I sometimes really feel like there's no other way to be happy. So, it's hard for me to commit to saying, " No, I wont do that." Because the temptation is pretty great. I would say I'm, certainly, the type of person to get addicted to these kinda things, but I don't think I will out of fear.
No it's okay, Mikey, your just looking out. I appreciate it.
I hope your friend works out his problem.
True. I think that might be all it is for me. I'll just do it for a little while and be done with it soon to settle my curiosity.
As Buzzkillington has said: if you want to do it on a recreational basis, there's nothing wrong with that. I guess I'm a little worried after seeing my friend "try" pot, and now he's smoking upwards of 5 bongs a day, sometimes 10 or more. He's also tried LSD. I certainly wouldn't want you to do anything like that for fear of addiction.
I guess I'm just an old fart now, haha. Ultimately it's up to you what you want to do. I just hope you make the right choices.
You're a smart girl so I have every faith that you will.