How are you feeling?

[MsBuzzkillington]

Depressed for God-knows-what reason. I was out with a friend just then and I was waiting for it to end so I could come back and be on my own again. I don't know why this happens.

He and I are going out tonight to have a couple of drinks. I already want to ditch those plans. I know going out will be good for me, but it's very difficult to find fun in it.

I think if you went out already today you shouldn't try and push yourself to go out again, unless you really want to go out. Don't beat yourself up if you don't go out all the time whenever someone invites you out, sometimes we have to take a break from those things.

Also, maybe you just missed SPW. That's okay too, you just wanted to come back to us. Nothing wrong with that.

 

[BlueDays]

Depressed for God-knows-what reason. I was out with a friend just then and I was waiting for it to end so I could come back and be on my own again. I don't know why this happens.

He and I are going out tonight to have a couple of drinks. I already want to ditch those plans. I know going out will be good for me, but it's very difficult to find fun in it.

Sorry to hear your still feeling the depression bad atm Mikey.
It's frustrating how depression can magnify the effort it takes to be around other people. I hope the severity of it passes soon for you Mikey.

 

[MikeyC]

Oh, I'll be sure to post a pic of them all lined up next to each other. I need to take one anyway to use for my presentation when I tell my class what my project is all about.

I'll be interested in seeing this, too.

Hang in there, Mikey! Since you've already spent time with this friend today, would he be really upset if you cancelled on going out tonight?

Yeah, he'd be upset because he knows I have nothing better to do. I'll just suck it up and pretend to be fun. Who knows, I might actually have fun.

I think if you went out already today you shouldn't try and push yourself to go out again, unless you really want to go out. Don't beat yourself up if you don't go out all the time whenever someone invites you out, sometimes we have to take a break from those things.

Also, maybe you just missed SPW. That's okay too, you just wanted to come back to us. Nothing wrong with that.

I've let this friend be very controlling of me, which is something my therapist has told me I need to change by learning to say no sometimes. And yeah, I do miss SPW when I'm not here.

Sorry to hear your still feeling the depression bad atm Mikey.
It's frustrating how depression can magnify the effort it takes to be around other people. I hope the severity of it passes soon for you Mikey.

Thanks, BlueDays. I always find it more of a challenge to be sociable when I'm not feeling good, and since this friend doesn't have an unhappy bone in his body, he finds it hard to fathom.

Thanks for all the replies. It means a hell of a lot. :')

 

[1BlackSheep]

I need to change by learning to say no sometimes.

This is what I was thinking! You have such good intentions but sometimes ya' gotta look out for your own well-being.

 

[MikeyC]

This is what I was thinking! You have such good intentions but sometimes ya' gotta look out for your own well-being.

Absolutely. My therapist has told me I need to start saying no to this friend every now and again and try to even the ledger of power, but that's such a ridiculous change I don't even know if I have that in me.

 

[1BlackSheep]

Absolutely. My therapist has told me I need to start saying no to this friend every now and again and try to even the ledger of power, but that's such a ridiculous change I don't even know if I have that in me.

Baby steps and you'll get there!

 

[MikeyC]

Baby steps and you'll get there!

I don't know how to do that...I guess that's why I'm in therapy. But you're right, so thank you.

 

[MikeyC]

It's nearly 4am in Australia and I am at my friend's place. I said I would have a bad time and I guess I only half-did. We went out to Wollongong to a pub (or bar, if you like) and it was okay. Many, many cute girls but far too insecure to approach any. I was keen for the dance floor but he wasn't so we didn't. We left and came back to his apartment to watch a documentary about corporations and capitalism, which was interesting. I had two vodkas and a beer all night, which is an achievement for me.

What I wouldn't give to be curled up in bed at home right now. All I have is a couch too short for me and a doona that's so thick I may boil to death under it. Yikes!

Well, I should probably go to bed. Thanks to everyone for their comments earlier today. It means a great deal to me...more than you think.

 

[lonely_drummer]

just woke up, feeling ok. I'm really just trying to build up the courage to call my optometrist so i can go get new glasses but ahhhhh Ive been trying for the past two days, I'm bound to do it today, i CAN do it, I need to see, right? haha

 

[bsebring]

The feeling to withdraw will never go away but i am getting better.

 

[Graeme1988]

Extremely tired. For the past 2 nights I didn't get to sleep until 4am. I know... not great.

Today - woke up at noon, and have just spent my whole day watching DVDs. Boredom's starting to kick in now.

 

[SilverSky]

just woke up, feeling ok. I'm really just trying to build up the courage to call my optometrist so i can go get new glasses but ahhhhh Ive been trying for the past two days, I'm bound to do it today, i CAN do it, I need to see, right? haha

This is the 6th month in a row I haven't called my optometrist and I need new glasses lol. I keep saying...DEFINITELY TOMORROW...ok MAYBE tomorrow...but yes gotta see

Um I'm doing alright, finding it harder and harder to get out of bed in the morning, I feel so tired no matter when I fall asleep. But still working out in the morning and cleaning up the house, keeping busy.

Got the 100th piece of bad news in the last month...trying to deal with it while not letting it undo the progress I've made

 

[planemo]

Bored. Stupid. Alone.

 

[MikeyC]

The feeling to withdraw will never go away but i am getting better.

This is good news.

 

[MikeyC]

So apparently a good job I applied for has been filled by someone else. I am disappointed and upset, but not surprised. I had a good feeling I wouldn't get it.

 

[jonas89]

so relaxed and happy¿? haha after yoga class

always a good feeling after a class of yoga or any other exercise

 

[dottie]

feeling grateful which equates happiness.

so something bad happened but i prepared for it by having an emergency fund. i'll pull through. people have come together to help me. strangers (STRANGERS!!) from my temp agency volunteered to give me a ride to and from work today. tomorrow a coworker will give me a ride. how kind is that? even phocas from this site volunteered expertise and checked into costs for me (giving me peace of mind). thanks!

i have a job so i will be able to earn money and keep on keeping on!

 

[Phoenixx]

That's wonderful, dottie!

 

[Porto]

feeling grateful which equates happiness.

so something bad happened but i prepared for it by having an emergency fund. i'll pull through. people have come together to help me. strangers (STRANGERS!!) from my temp agency volunteered to give me a ride to and from work today. tomorrow a coworker will give me a ride. how kind is that? even phocas from this site volunteered expertise and checked into costs for me (giving me peace of mind). thanks!

i have a job so i will be able to earn money and keep on keeping on!

I'm happy to know everything just turno out good somehow. At least u will have some kind of opportunity to get along with some work friends and to feel that have some consideration for what happened : )

 

[Blannabers]

I feel frustrated. Let down almost. I found out my GPA the other and I have yet to actually feel awesome about it. I'm unhappy with everything I do. I hate everything I touch because I feel like no matter what I do, it doesn't matter. I also feel emotionally tired. I feel drained and unwanted.