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[Silatuyok]

Okay, I'm back from therapy. That was just about the most unbearable thing in the whole world. I was almost shaking as I was telling my therapist, Julianne, about me and why I was there. It's very difficult to tell a complete stranger that you're depressed and anxious and you need help.

I had to try not to burst into nervous, involuntary laughter.

However, as the session went on, I got less nervous (but not completely calm). I have got very good first impressions from my therapist and I'm going back next Friday. She told me she wouldn't be offended if I said I didn't want to see her anymore, but I said I did.

I know it's probably nothing, but just before I left, I said, "I like you upon first impressions," and she replied with a chuckle and "you don't have to say that." Was that bad? Should I not have said that? Now I'm going to be thinking about that all week instead of the session we had. ::

All things considered, though, it was a success of sorts.

That sounds like a pretty standard first therapy session to me. Well done! It's definitely a success, so don't forget to celebrate.

 

[DeadmanWalking]

Okay, I'm back from therapy. That was just about the most unbearable thing in the whole world. I was almost shaking as I was telling my therapist, Julianne, about me and why I was there. It's very difficult to tell a complete stranger that you're depressed and anxious and you need help.

I had to try not to burst into nervous, involuntary laughter.

However, as the session went on, I got less nervous (but not completely calm). I have got very good first impressions from my therapist and I'm going back next Friday. She told me she wouldn't be offended if I said I didn't want to see her anymore, but I said I did.

I know it's probably nothing, but just before I left, I said, "I like you upon first impressions," and she replied with a chuckle and "you don't have to say that." Was that bad? Should I not have said that? Now I'm going to be thinking about that all week instead of the session we had. ::

All things considered, though, it was a success of sorts.

Welcome back! Yes, as Marie and you have said, that meeting was a success. Now, I don't think what you said was wrong, there was no romantic implications and you were telling her what was on your mind, which is what you need to do more of around her. Remember, she can only help you if you tell her what's wrong.
Anyway, don't worry so much (about the sessions and about what you said)! The past is the past and all you can do is change the future. Let your worries go or else the future will pass you, okay?

 

[MikeyC]

That sounds like a pretty standard first therapy session to me. Well done! It's definitely a success, so don't forget to celebrate.

Standard = being nervous out of your skin, yeah? :: I am feeling good that I went, but I hope I can relax a little more next time. I like who I have as a therapist so I think I can make that happen.

Thank you for your kind words, Sweet Marie. And I will celebrate with ice-cream!

 

[MikeyC]

Welcome back! Yes, as Marie and you have said, that meeting was a success. Now, I don't think what you said was wrong, there was no romantic implications and you were telling her what was on your mind, which is what you need to do more of around her. Remember, she can only help you if you tell her what's wrong.
Anyway, don't worry so much (about the sessions and about what you said)! The past is the past and all you can do is change the future. Let your worries go or else the future will pass you, okay?

Thanks, Deadman! I don't think what I did was wrong, but it's still something that'll claw at me. It definitely was NOT romantic! Just trying to be nice that I hope did not backfire.

Thanks, mate. I hope for better sessions to come!

 

[Silatuyok]

Standard = being nervous out of your skin, yeah? :: I am feeling good that I went, but I hope I can relax a little more next time. I like who I have as a therapist so I think I can make that happen.

Thank you for your kind words, Sweet Marie. And I will celebrate with ice-cream!

I went to a great therapist for about six months last year, and every time I had to psyche myself into walking into his office building. And I would always sit with my purse or a scarf or something in my lap to hide my shaking hands and so I would have something to fiddle with when I was nervous. I never got over it...but I'm sure you will.

 

[MikeyC]

I went to a great therapist for about six months last year, and every time I had to psyche myself into walking into his office building. And I would always sit with my purse or a scarf or something in my lap to hide my shaking hands and so I would have something to fiddle with when I was nervous. I never got over it...but I'm sure you will.

I don't like that! :/ You poor girl. She gave me a bottle of water and a glass, and I kept drinking water and fidgeting with my glass to hide the nervousness, which was so evident.

Sorry to hear you never got over it. I hope I do!

 

[Phoenixx]

Okay, I'm back from therapy. That was just about the most unbearable thing in the whole world. I was almost shaking as I was telling my therapist, Julianne, about me and why I was there. It's very difficult to tell a complete stranger that you're depressed and anxious and you need help.

I had to try not to burst into nervous, involuntary laughter.

However, as the session went on, I got less nervous (but not completely calm). I have got very good first impressions from my therapist and I'm going back next Friday. She told me she wouldn't be offended if I said I didn't want to see her anymore, but I said I did.

I know it's probably nothing, but just before I left, I said, "I like you upon first impressions," and she replied with a chuckle and "you don't have to say that." Was that bad? Should I not have said that? Now I'm going to be thinking about that all week instead of the session we had. ::

All things considered, though, it was a success of sorts.

^ Well done MikeyC! I don't think what you said was out of context at all. Try not to worry about it. You were just being honest, it's great that you got a good impression from her. Makes the process easier, I would think.

 

[KiaKaha]

Making a waldorf salad. I am all out of waldorfs though

 

[this_portrait]

Trying to convince myself that I'm NOT going to be an old maid...

 

[MollyBeGood]

getting ready to take a bath.

 

[DeadmanWalking]

Trying to convince myself that I'm NOT going to be an old maid...

May I?

You are not going to be an old maid! Trust me, I bet there are a lot of guys on campus that have a crush on you and you don't even know it! You'll find someone and, when, not if, you do, tell me and I'll help you as much as I can, alright?

 

[this_portrait]

Trust me, I bet there are a lot of guys on campus that have a crush on you and you don't even know it

That's doubtful. I've already established myself as the weird, quiet girl who comes off as rude to everyone...

 

[DeadmanWalking]

That's doubtful. I've already established myself as the weird, quiet girl who comes off as rude to everyone...

You never know. Some people can see through that and people like different qualities in a person. You say you're weird and that you come off as rude, but I don't see that in you. I see a kind person with dreams who has a hard time expressing herself. Just trust in yourself and believe in the good qualities that lie within you because if I can see it, then others can see it.

 

[this_portrait]

You never know. Some people can see through that and people like different qualities in a person. You say you're weird and that you come off as rude, but I don't see that in you. I see a kind person with dreams who has a hard time expressing herself. Just trust in yourself and believe in the good qualities that lie within you because if I can see it, then others can see it.

Tell that one to everyone who has (and still does) criticize me for being a rude b*tch.

 

[Pyrophosphate]

... a rude b*tch.

Is that how you see yourself?

 

[this_portrait]

Is that how you see yourself?

I feel that's how a lot of other people see me, particularly some people I know.

 

[DeadmanWalking]

Tell that one to everyone who has (and still does) criticize me for being a rude b*tch.

Then screw them; you don't need people who are going to treat you like that. Not everyone will act or treat you with hostility when you talk to them. So, let down your guard (a bit at a time) and believe that you are a person worth getting to know, because you are. We all are; we just need to come out of our shells a bit so that people can get to know us. Keep trying because, if you quit, then the chances of being alone are absolute. If you try, then at least you have a chance of getting a friend, no matter how big or small those chances are.
And I have not criticized you for being a rude b*tch and neither has anyone else on here, so there are people who will see through that shell to the person that lies within.

 

[Pyrophosphate]

I feel that's how a lot of other people see me, particularly some people I know.

Maybe you should try not to associate with those people, if you can help it at all.

 

[maybmental2]

I've been home from work for about two hours and just finished cooking some kind of chicken stuff with peppers and black beans and corn and green beans and spices. Oh and lots of garlic and onions =) I'm also listening to music I stoped whatching tv about a month and a half ago :/

 

[MikeyC]

^ Well done MikeyC! I don't think what you said was out of context at all. Try not to worry about it. You were just being honest, it's great that you got a good impression from her. Makes the process easier, I would think.

Yeah, it was absolutely much better knowing she was someone I knew I could get along with easily. As soon as I saw her and spoke to her for a few seconds, I could tell she was going to be alright.

Thanks for your kind words. I'm still coming down from the nerves of the whole thing.