How are you feeling?

[Beatrice]

Aunt's voice, words, mannerisms grating on my nerves..... -___- What's new then, eh? haha

Last night I had a dream my sisters and I roughly got a hold of her and were slapping her and dragging her around while we threw things she'd done in her face.

It seems I have some pent-up anger....... (understatement for semi-comedic purposes. In case no one catches on).

 

[Phoenixx]

Lonely and bored.

 

[Eraserhead]

Tense, afraid, miserable.

 

[Deus_Ex_Lemur]

Aunt's voice, words, mannerisms grating on my nerves..... -___- What's new then, eh? haha

Last night I had a dream my sisters and I roughly got a hold of her and were slapping her and dragging her around while we threw things she'd done in her face.

It seems I have some pent-up anger....... (understatement for semi-comedic purposes. In case no one catches on).

Sounds like you had a wonderful dream

Lonely and bored.

Welcome to the club. Not exactly a happening club tho I'm afraid

Same old same old. I saw a nice (expensive!) sundae on the menu of a coffee shop today. I've promised myself I'll have one when I'm out of this rut. If...

When. There is no If. This expensive sundae will be yours!

 

[Sial Axetder]

Look! Look at me go! HAHAHAAA it's a BINGO!!

 

[Rembrandt Broam]

Feeling ok, but I haven't got much done today. :/

There's always tomorrow for getting stuff done. That's what tomorrow is for.

 

[Deus_Ex_Lemur]

There's always tomorrow for getting stuff done. That's what tomorrow is for.

That's what avoiding is... =D Tomorrow is always going to be tomorrow.

 

[Rembrandt Broam]

That's what avoiding is... =D Tomorrow is always going to be tomorrow.

That's what's so wonderful about tomorrow. There's a neverending supply of them.

 

[Danfalc]

That's what's so wonderful about tomorrow. There's a neverending supply of them.

Tomorrow syndrome I call it

I'm feeling pretty horrible about right now, partly due to health reasons and lack of answers from my doctor. I pretty much have no option but to suffer through it, what's new.

Feeling pretty hopeless and depressed too. And I have lost interest In pretty much everything. Feeling alone and stuff but I just don't want to be around people either.

I keep telling myself that things will look up or get better, but I have been telling myself that for a long time now and it doesn't reassure me all that much any more. I guess I need to be more proactive about my situation too, but its hard with my problems right now.

 

[Sial Axetder]

Tomorrow syndrome I call it

I'm feeling pretty horrible about right now, partly due to health reasons and lack of answers from my doctor. I pretty much have no option but to suffer through it, what's new.

Feeling pretty hopeless and depressed too. And I have lost interest In pretty much everything. Feeling alone and stuff but I just don't want to be around people either.

I keep telling myself that things will look up or get better, but I have been telling myself that for a long time now and it doesn't reassure me all that much any more. I guess I need to be more proactive about my situation too, but its hard with my problems right now.

I hear that. While things are starting ... starting to look up for me, it's been one rotten month.

Depression kills hope.
Telling yourself things will get better feels like a lie. In turn makes you feel worse.
Keeping busy only masks the true problem that must be dealt with.
Drinking, while it does seem to help, is only temporary and leads to far worse.

I'd like to tell you, Danfalc, that things will get better, they will but that's not what you need to hear nor read right now. Perhaps a little humour?

OR

one of these:

Then the hard part, finding a...

 

[simpsons2007]

Happier now that I can finally cross one person off the 'list of people i'm wanting to re-connect with' list. Nice chat Now if only it can happen with the rest too.

Thats good twiggle.

Keep it up and you'll soon have them all crossed off your list.

 

[superfluouslyme]

I'm a little over a week into my "new me" process. I've already fallen off the bandwagon. And I've just got a general sense of nervousness pretty much constantly now.

 

[BlueDays]

Depression kills hope.
Telling yourself things will get better feels like a lie. In turn makes you feel worse.
Keeping busy only masks the true problem that must be dealt with.
Drinking, while it does seem to help, is only temporary and leads to far worse.

Wise words. If only more people understood that.







I am feeling pretty angry today. Of course the depression only makes it worse :s

 

[Beatrice]

Some guy today told me I looked like a little kid. I should expect to hear it, but every time I hear it I cringe inside and my self esteem drops to dangerously low levels.

I'm developing complexes I never had before, and I'm starting to feel worse about myself more often. It's depressing. I feel very down right now.

 

[BlueDays]

Some guy today told me I looked like a little kid. I should expect to hear it, but every time I hear it I cringe inside and my self esteem drops to dangerously low levels.

I'm developing complexes I never had before, and I'm starting to feel worse about myself more often. It's depressing. I feel very down right now.

Sorry to hear that is really bringing you down Beatrice::
Have you tried different ways of dressing etc? For example wearing an up-style hairstyle can make a girl look older, as well as wearing a long dress, or a shirt with a collar and buttons down the front etc

 

[superfluouslyme]

Depression kills hope.
Telling yourself things will get better feels like a lie. In turn makes you feel worse.
Keeping busy only masks the true problem that must be dealt with.
Drinking, while it does seem to help, is only temporary and leads to far worse.

Well said. I was talking to my sister today and describing how my depression felt, and I told her that it felt like someone/something was just sucking out my soul and crushing it bit by bit. You know, kind of like a dementor.

 

[WeirdyMcGee]

Completely wiped.
I tried so hard to act normal but everyone commented on how I looked miserable and I couldn't say anything to dispute it.
I'm a miserable person. There's no helping it.
The 'happy go lucky' person they saw in the past wasn't really me- it was the show I put on to seem normal and cheerful.

I'm not normal.
There's no point in fighting it anymore.

 

[Srijita52]

Yeah,I'm feelin pretty good.Just a little lazy.

 

[Srijita52]

Completely wiped.
I tried so hard to act normal but everyone commented on how I looked miserable and I couldn't say anything to dispute it.
I'm a miserable person. There's no helping it.
The 'happy go lucky' person they saw in the past wasn't really me- it was the show I put on to seem normal and cheerful.

I'm not normal.
There's no point in fighting it anymore.

None of us are normal,we all are special in our own ways.I'm sorry you're feeling so depressed right now.But don't give up,hang in there WMG.

 

[gazelle]

Completely wiped.
I tried so hard to act normal but everyone commented on how I looked miserable and I couldn't say anything to dispute it.
I'm a miserable person. There's no helping it.
The 'happy go lucky' person they saw in the past wasn't really me- it was the show I put on to seem normal and cheerful.

I'm not normal.
There's no point in fighting it anymore.

Sorry to hear this.I've been in the similar situation before, after breaking up with up with my ex, didn't attend any relatives parties for one year and after showing up I knew what they thought about me, but I found frequently exposing myself and doing exercise to be very helpful .
Although I still don't like family parties (and try to avoid them by time to time! but if I hadn't forced myself that time I guess I would never seen them again and they would've probably stigmatized me ).
Maybe you're being a bit too hard on yourself I think it 's completely natural to be nervous around poeple you haven't seen for a while even if you don't have SA at all.
I'm sure that as soon as you manage to come across as a happy person in front of them they'll forget all about it.