I feel unproductive.
I haven't a clue...... lately it's been changing every few hours. I don't like it.
Why haven't they come out with "Perma-Mood" pills yet? You pick a mood, take the pill, and it keeps you that way for 24 hours or something. Hmm.....
I've got to go and have my haircut. Cut AND colour. 2 hours of small-talk, here I come! (Why can't they see that I'm trying to read the trashy magazine).
I've got to go and have my haircut. Cut AND colour. 2 hours of small-talk, here I come! (Why can't they see that I'm trying to read the trashy magazine).
We always make these things worse in our minds than they turn out to be - try to switch off the thoughts that imagine all the horribleness and picture making it through the day and saying to yourself "that wasn't so bad afterall"
uhhh...
I can't do this thing tomorrow. It's too big-- just too much, too fast. I'm sure I'll die. -__-
I haven't eaten today. I threw up 4 times. I feel like my arms and legs are filled with cement. I can hardly move- can't get out of bed and I'm terrified. I don't think I can go tomorrow.
There are too many people expected to be there and it doesn't make me feel a bit more comfortable at all- knowing that they're all related to me. It makes me feel worse.
Maybe I'll just walk down to the bay at midnight and inhale a big gulp of water. @__@
I feel numb and scared.
If you don't mind me asking, what's going on tomorrow that's so big?