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Phoenixx

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mad at my dog-he rolled in cow sh*t!!! now i have to give him a bath :(
^ My dog does this quite often. She loves crap and puddles, ponds, creeks, etc. I've gotten to the point where I don't even give her a bath once she rolls in it cuz she's only going to go swimming somewhere anyway. :p
 

Apotheosis

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Feeling groggy -.-

I finally got some sleep last night; woke up at 9:30am and decided to sleep for another half hour. Set the alarm and closed my eyes.

Woke up at 4:06pm.
 
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Beatrice

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Confuzzled!

I made a friend!!!!!! Which is fantastic! We're going to hang out. I don't know when, but we will. And when I turn 21, we're going to drink together. Wooo! I'm so excited. lol

On a negative note.... one of my co-workers said today that she thought I was ten. TEN!!?? I didn't think it could get any worse, but that's the lowest age I've ever gotten..... It hurt and I was depressed for a while but ultimately the positive aspects of the day leveled it out a bit and I don't feel SO bad.

I think it's the uniform.... I don't wear any makeup at work most of the time, my hair is up, no earrings, and the uniform is less than flattering. Probably hides my boobs and hips, and... yeah, I can see how it would make me look a lot younger. It sucks, but at least I know that when I wear my normal clothes and do my hair and makeup I don't look freakishly young.

Anyway, enough rambling.
 

Phoenixx

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^ Yay for making a friend! :) That's awesome. I love making friends, I just wish it was easier. ::p:

As for the age thing, that's just rude. I guess I understand when someone thinks you're a few years younger, but 10? Really?? Why would a 10 year old be working at McDonald's in the first place? Sorry, don't mean to add any more negativity, but I just thought it was a bit ridiculous.
 
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Beatrice

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^ Yay for making a friend! :) That's awesome. I love making friends, I just wish it was easier. ::p:

As for the age thing, that's just rude. I guess I understand when someone thinks you're a few years younger, but 10? Really?? Why would a 10 year old be working at McDonald's in the first place? Sorry, don't mean to add any more negativity, but I just thought it was a bit ridiculous.

No I agree!!! It IS ridiculous. Maybe it was just hyperbole.... like I suspect it is with most people. They think I look young, so they just say 12. I don't know.... I really shouldn't care I suppose but much easier said than done, it makes me feel like a freak.

But thank you for your excitement for me about making a friend :)
 

Deus_Ex_Lemur

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Confuzzled!

I made a friend!!!!!! Which is fantastic! We're going to hang out. I don't know when, but we will. And when I turn 21, we're going to drink together. Wooo! I'm so excited. lol

On a negative note.... one of my co-workers said today that she thought I was ten. TEN!!?? I didn't think it could get any worse, but that's the lowest age I've ever gotten..... It hurt and I was depressed for a while but ultimately the positive aspects of the day leveled it out a bit and I don't feel SO bad.

I think it's the uniform.... I don't wear any makeup at work most of the time, my hair is up, no earrings, and the uniform is less than flattering. Probably hides my boobs and hips, and... yeah, I can see how it would make me look a lot younger. It sucks, but at least I know that when I wear my normal clothes and do my hair and makeup I don't look freakishly young.

Anyway, enough rambling.

I told you this would happen eventually once you got your job and got out =) Awesome! Good for you. This will be great for ya. Honestly that co-worker who said you were 10 makes no sense she's either really stupid or just a poop of a girl. So dont waste time feeling bad. W00t for new friend! =)
 

Helmaninquiel

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My parents are on holidays for two weeks and my sister is also not home so I am alone and I feel totally lost and lonely. I now see what my life will be when I move on my own (I am 24 years old so that will have to happen sooner or later). My only girlfriend is also away right now so this week I have realised that without them I have nobody and I am not capable of doing anything by myself so I just sit around at my house and watch TV or something. When my family is at home I can socialize with them and pretend that I am not so wierd. I also depend on one and only girlfriend who I've known since highschool and if I go somewhere it is with her otherwise I don't go anywhere. Just last time she said to me that she feels like my mother not a friend because she has to drag me everywhere she goes and that other friends ask her what's up with me. It was so humiliating but I don't blame her because it is true. My social life depends on her. Until recently she invited me evrywhere she went but she stopped doing that cause she could't take it anymore. She encoureged me to call some firends myself and to invite them to do something as oppose to always wait for others to call me. She is right but she doesn't know about my social phobia. We were very good friends through highschool but it got worse every year since then because it became more and more obvious that something is wrong with me. I've never had a boyfriend and in highschool everybody thought that I was very shy or not yet interested in boys but when years gone by and I never even went on a single date it was clear that I am not normal. So me and her grew apart. What's the point in having a friend with no life. We had nothing to talk about cause nothing interesting ever happened to me, we couldn't discuss boyfriend issues like any normal girlfriends most offen do. And then she started to ask me directly why I don't have a boyfriend and I couldn't explain it to her so our relationship became very ackward and now we are very distant and I believe she feels sorry for me but she doesn't want to spend much time with me cause it is not going anywhere. I always act the same and deny that I have a problem. I've never told anybody that I have social phobia (self diagnosed). I think that my family and other people think I am normal except for the fact that I've never had a boyfriend which off course is a big thing. The older I get more problematic this is. When I was 18 I could pretend that everything is fine with me, because i wasn't the only 18 years old virgin, but now that I am 24 I feel like I am trapped. I feel so ashamed because I know that all my relatives and friends know that I've never had a boyfriend (though they don't say anything ). Soon it will be perfectly clear to everyone that I have some serious mental problems if I haven't had a relationship at my age. Now that I am home alone I only think about how pathetic my life is and that it will never get better. Actually it will only get worse. I know I am not capable of meeting a boy and dating him and so on, so my only two options are killing myself (which I would already do if it wouldn't hurt my family so bad) or liv in shame as a old virgin always alone with no husband and kids. Both options are devastating to me and that is why I feel trapped. Untill now it wasn't so terribly horible because I lived with my family which I love, I had a friend and I could petend before others that I am living somewhat normal life. And even though inside I was always unhappy I had hopes that next or the next or the next year I will change and I will forgot about what a hard time I had inpuberty. Now all hope is gone an I feel ashamed, lonely and desperate. I am tired of pretending to be happy or at least normal, I am tired of my life.

Don't worry your not alone. I'm 21 right now and have social anxiety and I've be roughly diagnosed with Bipolar. I don't leave my house, haven't in like three years. I sit around all day and wonder what my life would be like if i wasn't so ****ed up, I almost always feel trapped. I'm still a virgin and probably will be for the rest of my life.. I'm am not good with relationships or boyfriends or whatever. When I was social and outgoing I had this guy live right next door to me and he was totally in love with me but at the time I didn't know what to do and he ask me out so I went out with him for like three days ( this was when I was like 16) but anyways I counldn't handle it so I broke it off with him and so for years upon years he would come over to the house and try with me, even try to speak with me and I wouldn't let him.. He was friends with my cousin and I live with my cousin. anyways every time he would come over I would hide in my room and not come out and wait for him to leave and this went on forever. so recently I started talking to him on msn cause hey I thought my life couldn't get any worse so anyways me and him tried really hard to connect but because I'm so messed in the head it didn't happen cause i wouldn't let it so basically now he just thinks I'm really messed up and probably a loser who will never have a life. So honestly your not alone on never going to be in a serious relationship and never going to have a life. I feel trapped and isolated. But whatever you do PLEASE don't kill yourself! I don't know if you believe in god, but that's how I get through day to day. I was seriously thinking about killing myself but I found god. and please if you don't believe that's ok, and don't think I'm trying to shove it down your throat cause I'm not just PLEASE don't kill yourself. If you honestly don't think you will ever get out of the house then invest in hobbies, like watch happy things like friends or will and grace or read, draw... I mean just until you get better.. that's what I do.
 
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anxiety1408

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Stressed out, Depressed. Had a panic attack 2 months ago went hospital, quite frankly never been the same again after that. And since that another something more embarrassing happened, I'd rather not mention, doctor gave me antibiotics for 2 weeks he said have 4 a day and if not better than I will send you to a specialist, So Not better, and now I await an appointment letter from the hospital
 

Newtype

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I feel like a world boxing champion who just lost his title. I studied so hard for a math test, did all the homework, slept 11 hours... and the test was a disaster. Six questions, I didn't manage to find the answer in three of them. I'm gonna have points for trying, but still... It sucks not to be rewarded for all your hard work.
 
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