How are you feeling?

dean01

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inspired!! gonna power up the recording studio and do some old fashioned venting.
dark and grimey, dubstep yes yes!
 

planemo

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Same. Though I think I may be getting sick.... woke up with nausea and fatigue :/ No fever though.... hmmmm, don't know.

Sorry to hear that. I'm not sure if I'm sick either. my nose is really clogged up and my eyes are watering. I've been feeling like this since the temperatures have become colder, but i'm not really sick. :confused:

But it may prove to be a blessing as we are getting visitors, and i really would like to avoid having dinner with them. My family will object of course, and i can understand why. I'm a grown man, but my fear or trigger reaction when being around people is just to hide, and i suppose it's kinda childish behaviour. It's ok if a child does but it's kinda weird if someone my age does it...

Just wish I could wake up tomorrow and this natural tendency to avoid people is gone. I mean how much longer am I gonna keep this up? I wish i could just grow up and take it like a man.
 
a bit mad. I just came back from the supermarket and just saw that there was a dirty diaper in the middle of my back yard. I was like: wtf? Who the hell throw diapers in other people's back yard? I live alone. I have a house since November 2010. I've heard from my neighbours that the neighbourhood is very quiet. I've also experienced that the street where I live is not a bad place to live, but I don't know the people in my street. I often work fulltime, so I don't see many ppl in my street.

My parents live in a district where you can find a lot of racists and scums. The kids in their neighbourhood often throw garbage and stuff in my parents garden. Now I'm wondering about the ppl in my neighbourhood. I'm not scared yet, but you'll never know...
 
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dottie

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@sinpopia oh that's a bummer. there's nothing worse than feeling insecure in your own home. when i was younger my family lived in a neighborhood where we were harrassed because we're white. they'd do the same thing. throw stuff in our yard, write horrible things on our garage door. so glad to be out of there. but the diaper probably wasn't targeted at you, it was probably just some low-class thoughtless passerby throwing it over their shoulder. people are so tactless.
 

Phoenixx

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Awesome :) FINALLY figured out how to make gluten free bread from scratch. I created the recipe completely on my own and it came out great. :D Tastes awesome too.
 

planemo

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Well I managed to get out of eating dinner with the guests. Not really unhappy, coz it's what i wanted, but I am unhappy because that's what i wanted. (if that makes any sense)
 

lunarla

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I made it most of the day yesterday feeling pretty good, content at least. Now.... no good. Trying to keep it is such a task. How low I always keep coming back to is kinda scary.
 

dean01

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much better today, my stress levels droping and my heads clearing.
i had to come back on this site but knew the stress of doing so would effect me. it was worth it!
thanks to all for being so kind to me in my moment of choas :)
 
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