Vagaries of emotion. Attempted control by exhaustive thought, concentration. We are to have them. Why can we not simply turn off and on at will? Damned to obey that which is not logical. Human.
As if it wasn't enough yesterday... I felt cold in my room and my father of course never wants to put the heating on. So I always buy the electric fan heater, but when he sees it he takes it away. So now I kept using the lid from the box that is used for drying fruits but he came to my room and took it away. As he went outside with it, I kept chasing him to give it back to me. He got angry and smashed my forehead with it. I felt terrible pain in my head, went to lean on the gate and noticed blood was streaming down my face and hair and dripping on the floor. As I looked in the mirror then it looked quite terrible.. I have some wound there but I am more afraid of a brain damage which doesn't have to be apparent straight away.
Thanks Mrb you're kind with your concerns, I should be moving away now soon, it's not forever but then we will see..
I am so ****ing angryhow dare people make life changing decisions on my behalf? Why do my thoughts and feelings and needs count for **** all??
I give up
something in me's just snapped :: feels like a part of me is dead. **** people, everyone's either fake or blind
I'm cutting everyone out as of now
As if it wasn't enough yesterday... I felt cold in my room and my father of course never wants to put the heating on. So I always buy the electric fan heater, but when he sees it he takes it away. So now I kept using the lid from the box that is used for drying fruits but he came to my room and took it away. As he went outside with it, I kept chasing him to give it back to me. He got angry and smashed my forehead with it. I felt terrible pain in my head, went to lean on the gate and noticed blood was streaming down my face and hair and dripping on the floor. As I looked in the mirror then it looked quite terrible.. I have some wound there but I am more afraid of a brain damage which doesn't have to be apparent straight away.
Lonely and unloved like every time I go out with my friends and watch them easily have success with 'the ladies'...