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worriedguy90

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My biggest fear is becoming a pedophile and molesting children and babies. Now I feel that it is coming alive. Whenever I would pick up my baby cousin to watch him for my aunt, I would get a tingling sensation as if I am about to have a boner, and I don't know why. It never happened before, but lately it has been and I have to put him down and get out of the room because I get so anxious. I honestly don't want to hurt kids, but am now really afraid I am turning into one.
 
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Krista

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Dear, this sounds like a very vicious case of OCD. My fear is not this one but I understand exactly what you're talking about. You focus on it so much to the point where your body reacts not because you want it to but because you're thinking about it so much. I would seriously suggest you go see a doctor. Not because you would intentionally do something but just to be on the safe side.
 
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philly2bits

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I agree with Krista. It sounds like OCD by the mere fact that it scares you and causes great anxiety. That wouldn't be the case otherwise. I suggest you see a doctor as well. They will be able to explain it far better then anyone here and help you with possible treatment.
 
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Rockhopper

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I read a thing about someone who thought about being pregnant so much, they actually started producing milk in their breasts, even thought they weren't pregnant. So I think it's just your thoughts. Are you sure your tingling sensation wasn't just the panic attack? I get tingly like on the back of the neck when my OCD gets triggered and I start panicking.
 
EgoZero

EgoZero

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Oh come on people. Give a better suggestion to this man. Would anyone of you actually go to doctor and tell that you're afraid to become a pedophile? I guess not.
 
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frogger

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To the above poster: I actually discuss my fear of being a pedophile with my therapist. I actually feel the only way to recover is to describe my thought processes in detail.

To the creator of this thread: I can relate as I have POCD and at one point it got so bad I was afraid of babies. I don't think you are actually sexually attracted to them, as I wasn't. I think you need to get your anxiety under control for now, and the thoughts will diminish eventually. I find myself laughing about some of the intrusive thoughts I had about a 3 year old family member now, as they were so distorted by fear they actually didn't represent my sexual desires at all. Hope this helps some...
 
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Krista

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EgoZero said:
Oh come on people. Give a better suggestion to this man. Would anyone of you actually go to doctor and tell that you're afraid to become a pedophile? I guess not.
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Actually all are good suggestions, those with the courage to speak their fears are the ones who are rewarded with the diminishment of them. Don't make him feel like it'd be a wrong idea to tell someone because in the end it would be the right one.

frogger said:
To the above poster: I actually discuss my fear of being a pedophile with my therapist. I actually feel the only way to recover is to describe my thought processes in detail.

To the creator of this thread: I can relate as I have POCD and at one point it got so bad I was afraid of babies. I don't think you are actually sexually attracted to them, as I wasn't. I think you need to get your anxiety under control for now, and the thoughts will diminish eventually. I find myself laughing about some of the intrusive thoughts I had about a 3 year old family member now, as they were so distorted by fear they actually didn't represent my sexual desires at all. Hope this helps some...
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That was very helpful advice, I think yours will probably be more suffice since you've also got Pure O relating to this subject. As do I, I found out after talking with my doctor about my irrational fear of driving.
 
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mrb

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hmmm i really dont know what to say to this thread , but mate you really have to seek help for that , you have come on here and told us all that, so that means your not giving in to those not normal thoughts , good for you , get control of those thoughts through a therapist or something ... as you said you ran out of the room , so you know its wrong , thank god for that mate , sounds like your in control but get help to make sure it doesnt get out of control ......
 
Nicholas

Nicholas

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You are not a pedophile, because don't "become" one all of a sudden, like it's a disease. If you were a pedophile, you would not put the baby down, but you'll keep holding it and get excited, and you would like it. I've read some stories about pedophiles, and it seems they don't think what they do is wrong, they don't avoid children or get anxious, but they actually look for them and get excited. Just think of it like any other paraphilia: if you think children are as sexually attractive as a girl's boobs, ass, legs, etc. (or high heels, leather clothes, etc. if you like those things), then you are a pedophile. Otherwise, you're not.
Since you are not enjoying it, I believe you are not a pedophile. It just seems like a weird kind of OCD which somehow affects your penis (in fact, the fear of becoming a pedophile is a common obsessive thought in pure O, as far as I know).
 
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2isthesquarerootof4

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There is a very well known furniture store owner here in Texas and his Daughter also feared molesting a child, Her Father Mattress Mac has donated a large amount of money to help research OCD, because they know how little is known about it and how horrible it can be living with or loving someone with OCD. Here is a link to an article about her, I am not sure if they have details about her compulsions on her non-profit's website: Mattress Mac's Family Discusses Daughter's Struggle With OCD - Health News Story - KPRC Houston

I really hope you talk with a behavioral health professional about your OCD, because that has to be a terrible obsession-compulsion to cope with on your own, and it is something you never never want to become a reality.
 
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Tangent

Tangent

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Spike Lee said:
btw i think this thread should be deleted.

It gives us a bad name
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Giving people with mental illness a bad name? Hehehe, that's already been done :D

I think this thread should stay. It's intriguing and no doubt helpful for people with similar issues. This is a real issue that affects real people so why should we hide that? Nobody is advocating or justifying paedophilia so I think it's ok.
 
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I think go talk to you doc about this Worriedguy90, this could possibly be pure 'O' OCD. I don't think a pedophile would confess such a thing on a forum.

My pure 'O' OCD something that makes me have compulsive thoughts of the last "thing I want to happen", I have it with impulses to jump off heights and to punch people for no reason or kiss someone to close to me, these are things that I do not want to happen but because of the pure O, you have this impulse, it is not an urge, it is not a want or desire, more like being controlled by remote control and having to resist it.
 
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Krista

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Spike Lee said:
btw i think this thread should be deleted.

It gives us a bad name
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Gives who a bad name? If this collective "us" is people with Pure O or OCD then I think you should reevaluate your statement. This is a serious issue for this person, something he feels he has no control over and would like help and understanding about. If you've also got OCD then you should understand how that feels. If not, maybe you should not come back to this thread if it makes you uncomfortable.
 
Falkor

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I have to tell you something, I get anxious too when I hold babies.
I get a red-head. I'm glad I can't have a boner lol... But i understand how much embarrassing that must be :|
You know why this is? Because of the emotional feelings u have with babies, u can't control it, like when someone huggs me my face get red too. It's just that I can't control those emotions. And with babies it's intense/sweet/emotional, so it's like loving someone.. and that makes u feel weird. Well this is my experience.
Maybe ur high sensetive? it turns out that way, because u think too much about things, like when people are talking about sex, I totally get red, and I don't know where to look at. And when people talk about that theyre proud of me, I don't know where to look at too, it's just emotions. And they're too strong.
But of course I love those emotions. But with other people around I feel ''ashamed''. When I'm alone i don't get anxious holding a baby.
I even have this when holding a dog.
Hmm.. this sounds like i'm a real OCD-er.. But it's just weird. u know. I can't explain.. But u aren't a pedophile believe me.. It's just anxiety.
U won't ever do anything wrong to a baby, right? So there's nothing wrong.
It's just u can't control ur thoughts/feelings.

stay strong
 
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