What is bothering you at the moment?
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That the second time i heard this today. I think some people in here don't like being serious all the time because it makes them more depressed. I guess It's good to loosen up sometimes
And yes there is something bothering me at this time.....my drunk mother
mikebird
Banned
I got approached about a magazine delivery job which was in my old hometown area which I knew.
Got details together and quite liked. I received a message about my enthusiasm being fantastic
After a lot of good emails, she asked for my phone number. This spelt doom immediately
I replied with my number and that she must state her outgoing number before calling. I can't afford to answer any unknown number. I didn't get her number. As I was on another line with someone else, I knew it would be her. With no area code to help with location, her anonymous, useless mobile number, it became difficult. Still expect to cope with little stuff, but
stopping talking to one to speak to the other, or vice-versa happens to me every day. The flick of either eyelid leads to absolute loss.
A string of friendly messages installs a good rapport. I always forget that the demand of the phone leads to immediate loss. It's hard to remember that simple fact, when it hasn't happened for a few years.
I now have built such a strong dependency of reading & writing this way now. I easily give up the persuasive attention-grabbing perverts and never answer.
My action was described as rude. I get stuck right on a pivot point of do or don't for my own gain or loss.
I was labelled as a freak and wouldn't be allowed to pick up from the distributor at their home. It seems they are very sensitive and call the police when someone comes to get the material if they don't know them.
Got details together and quite liked. I received a message about my enthusiasm being fantastic
After a lot of good emails, she asked for my phone number. This spelt doom immediately
I replied with my number and that she must state her outgoing number before calling. I can't afford to answer any unknown number. I didn't get her number. As I was on another line with someone else, I knew it would be her. With no area code to help with location, her anonymous, useless mobile number, it became difficult. Still expect to cope with little stuff, but
stopping talking to one to speak to the other, or vice-versa happens to me every day. The flick of either eyelid leads to absolute loss.
A string of friendly messages installs a good rapport. I always forget that the demand of the phone leads to immediate loss. It's hard to remember that simple fact, when it hasn't happened for a few years.
I now have built such a strong dependency of reading & writing this way now. I easily give up the persuasive attention-grabbing perverts and never answer.
My action was described as rude. I get stuck right on a pivot point of do or don't for my own gain or loss.
I was labelled as a freak and wouldn't be allowed to pick up from the distributor at their home. It seems they are very sensitive and call the police when someone comes to get the material if they don't know them.
NamiraWilhelm
Well-known member
I tell myself not to get involved with someone because I'm too delicate, and then I do anyway and get d!cked around... one day I'll learn to take my own advice and stay single.
I feel like sh*t. I keep on giving and getting nothing in return. I wanted to help out with web design in the ID team but am afraid of telling them so. There are also other web developers/experts who applied to do web design. Should I refuse to accept these volunteers and instead, volunteer myself forward to do web design? Would it be fair if I deny other volunteer applicants the chance to do web design, for my own interest?
I want to get into IT but I have virtually 0 volunteer or work experience in IT. I was really hoping I could do some hands on IT work. I don't want to work on the Repository because it was built using ASP.NET C# and MS SQL Server. I don't like working with these Microsoft technologies. I had to install over 200 GB of Microsoft technologies, waiting for 2-3 hours. And when I run the application, the whole thing was so freakin slow! If the Repository was built using Python or some other non-Microsoft technology that DOESN't require me to download 200 GB worth of cr*p, then I will be able to help out. I don't like working with Visual Studio or Visual Web developer. I consider them bloatware which only serves to slow down my computer even more.
So, the ID team leader wanted to hold biweekly videochat meetings. I chickened out immediately. If I join their team, I will be required to join in those meetings. Plus, I sound like a kid for a leader! I mean, they probably expect a leader to be a very mature woman who knows how to talk and socialize. But I am none ofthese. I sound like a kid. I am scared they will find out I'm only a college student without the qualifications to be leader.
Ok, so anyway, I was thinking, maybe i can design my own application for the organization. Like maybe create a mapping app or something.
I want to get into IT but I have virtually 0 volunteer or work experience in IT. I was really hoping I could do some hands on IT work. I don't want to work on the Repository because it was built using ASP.NET C# and MS SQL Server. I don't like working with these Microsoft technologies. I had to install over 200 GB of Microsoft technologies, waiting for 2-3 hours. And when I run the application, the whole thing was so freakin slow! If the Repository was built using Python or some other non-Microsoft technology that DOESN't require me to download 200 GB worth of cr*p, then I will be able to help out. I don't like working with Visual Studio or Visual Web developer. I consider them bloatware which only serves to slow down my computer even more.
So, the ID team leader wanted to hold biweekly videochat meetings. I chickened out immediately. If I join their team, I will be required to join in those meetings. Plus, I sound like a kid for a leader! I mean, they probably expect a leader to be a very mature woman who knows how to talk and socialize. But I am none ofthese. I sound like a kid. I am scared they will find out I'm only a college student without the qualifications to be leader.
Ok, so anyway, I was thinking, maybe i can design my own application for the organization. Like maybe create a mapping app or something.
MikeyC
Well-known member
I hate these! You can't talk, you can't eat, you can't drink, you can't swallow, you can't cough. Give me a headache any day of the week rather than a sore throat!
I'm confused. I had 2 really bizarre skills endorsements on LinkedIn. One was from my boss who endorsed me for a skill which I never even had. Sure, I've taken some e-learning online courses before, but that doesn't suddenly make me an expert on e-learning. The other endorsement was for my Python skill , which I will be glad to accept, except that it came from someone whom I barely know. I only met her online through email exchanges. I never told her I was a programmer. I wonder if she even saw my works.
Don't get me wrong, I am grateful for their endorsements, but it would feel wrong for me to accept them. I think the e-learning endorsement should go to someone else in my organization.
Which reminds me of a while back when I applied to volunteer in a hospital. I listed my classmate's mother as a reference, even though I don't even know her. I have never spoken with her before. I never expected the hospital to actually CALL her, but they did and then she called my mom and asked her all about it. I was so embarassed. I needed an adult reference living in my area. I listed my best friend from CA but the coordinator said out of state references aren't allowed. I will never do this again.
Don't get me wrong, I am grateful for their endorsements, but it would feel wrong for me to accept them. I think the e-learning endorsement should go to someone else in my organization.
Which reminds me of a while back when I applied to volunteer in a hospital. I listed my classmate's mother as a reference, even though I don't even know her. I have never spoken with her before. I never expected the hospital to actually CALL her, but they did and then she called my mom and asked her all about it. I was so embarassed. I needed an adult reference living in my area. I listed my best friend from CA but the coordinator said out of state references aren't allowed. I will never do this again.
Section_31
Well-known member
emotional foreknowledge that something is really, REALLY going to hurt. like not just a stub your toe hurt. More like drop a train on someone hurt.
Trying to be rational and logical and not emotional. But very very difficult. im so glad im on medication for depression because it also blunts my emotional extremes, I can at least still function and do what needs to be done instead of shutting down like I used to.
Hurt or not. Im pressing forward.
"gentleman, if this doesn't kill us, it'll surely break our hearts" - Heartbreak ridge, Korean war
Trying to be rational and logical and not emotional. But very very difficult. im so glad im on medication for depression because it also blunts my emotional extremes, I can at least still function and do what needs to be done instead of shutting down like I used to.
Hurt or not. Im pressing forward.
"gentleman, if this doesn't kill us, it'll surely break our hearts" - Heartbreak ridge, Korean war
neardeath
Well-known member
Sorry for whatever it is you're going through. Yep, pressing on.
hoddesdon
Well-known member
I think this confirms that most (but not all) people with SA are nice people. So the whole thing is a bit perverse.
Jealousy really bothers me. I notice I am very jealous of high achievers. When I read a story about a guy with cancer who is also very successful in the animation industry, had a big mansion on Malibu, and was a big philanthropist and had his own foundation, I was green with jealousy. I was also jealous of "leakers" and "Robin Hoods" who sacrified everything they had for the common good. It didn't matter how much they sacrificed to get to where they are; I'm still jealous.
I am currently ****yzing why I am so quick to be jealous and envious of others. I am jealous of rich people, but I am even more jealous of rich people who do good. I am especially jealous of courageous people who are do good AND are popular for doing it. I am jealous of their popularity, because I was never popular. I was always the outcast, never quite fitting in, and when someone needed someone to pick on, it was me. I was the black sheep. It didn't matter how good I am or how well-intentioned I am, people either don't see it or just didn't care. So, I am jealous when I see good people doing good stuff AND getting praise for it.
I am trying to stop myself from being jealous so easily. There's gotta be a cure for this. I think 1 possible solution to this is to be an underachiever and have very low expectations for myself. The herders in Mongolia sure are happy even with very little resources and little or no education. I wonder what makes them happy. Maybe it's because they have low expectations about life. In the same vein, maybe I need to have lower expectations for myself. Let's face it, I will not be Robin Hood or Mother Teresa in my lifetime. I am no saint. The point is to accept yourself for who you are and stop caring about popularity or whatever.
Ok, despite what i said about people pleasing earlier, I still do have people pleasing tendencies. I have never quite gotten over the days where I was unpopular and bullied for it. But from this day forward, I will fight such people pleasing tendencies and try to accept myself more.
I am currently ****yzing why I am so quick to be jealous and envious of others. I am jealous of rich people, but I am even more jealous of rich people who do good. I am especially jealous of courageous people who are do good AND are popular for doing it. I am jealous of their popularity, because I was never popular. I was always the outcast, never quite fitting in, and when someone needed someone to pick on, it was me. I was the black sheep. It didn't matter how good I am or how well-intentioned I am, people either don't see it or just didn't care. So, I am jealous when I see good people doing good stuff AND getting praise for it.
I am trying to stop myself from being jealous so easily. There's gotta be a cure for this. I think 1 possible solution to this is to be an underachiever and have very low expectations for myself. The herders in Mongolia sure are happy even with very little resources and little or no education. I wonder what makes them happy. Maybe it's because they have low expectations about life. In the same vein, maybe I need to have lower expectations for myself. Let's face it, I will not be Robin Hood or Mother Teresa in my lifetime. I am no saint. The point is to accept yourself for who you are and stop caring about popularity or whatever.
Ok, despite what i said about people pleasing earlier, I still do have people pleasing tendencies. I have never quite gotten over the days where I was unpopular and bullied for it. But from this day forward, I will fight such people pleasing tendencies and try to accept myself more.
