the "whatever" journal

Just a thought:

I'm in a depressed state today. I feel stupid, incompetent and unlovalable. Sigh*

w*n*c*a*m said: ↑

Just a thought:

I'm in a depressed state today. I feel stupid, incompetent and unlovalable. Sigh*

Aw, don't feel that way. Didn't I read on the last page you got engaged? That means that the most important person in your life loves you, and that's all that matters. 🙂

But I know these feelings are hard to shake. If you need to chat, I'll be around.

MikeyC said: ↑

Aw, don't feel that way. Didn't I read on the last page you got engaged? That means that the most important person in your life loves you, and that's all that matters. 🙂

But I know these feelings are hard to shake. If you need to chat, I'll be around.

Waaaaah! Somebody cared.

Thanks MikeyC... I don't know what's with me these days. I feel extra sensitive. Must be a hormonal thing. I don't know. :🙁:

w*n*c*a*m said: ↑

Waaaaah! Somebody cared.

Thanks MikeyC... I don't know what's with me these days. I feel extra sensitive. Must be a hormonal thing. I don't know. :🙁:

I care. But, more importantly, your fiancee cares. He wants to marry you, and that means he loves you more than anyone else. That's got to be good! 🙂

There's nothing wrong with feeling extra sensitive, as long as it doesn't affect your day-to-day living. Talk to us here or to people you trust and hopefully you can pinpoint why you're feeling this way. 🙂

((hugs))

Bad days come and go, good days come again!! 🙂

A lot of people have been feeling iffy these days, what with elections and uprisings/riots and everything worldwide, some weird times, it seems?

You are smart, competent and loveable. C+ life, remember? 🙂

Things aren't just 'black' or 'white', lots of colors inbetween!!

I've been feeling iffy these days too, some good successes and LOTS more things to do, yikes!!

Hope things get better for you and all of us here too!!

Feathers said: ↑

((hugs))

Bad days come and go, good days come again!! 🙂

A lot of people have been feeling iffy these days, what with elections and uprisings/riots and everything worldwide, some weird times, it seems?

You are smart, competent and loveable. C+ life, remember? 🙂

Things aren't just 'black' or 'white', lots of colors inbetween!!

I've been feeling iffy these days too, some good successes and LOTS more things to do, yikes!!

Hope things get better for you and all of us here too!!

Thanks Feathers, sigh* even a C+ life seems hard to me. But yeah, I'm still doing it.

Just a thought:
You know the feeling that you're such a crap and nobody really likes you? That whenever you meet new people and have a good start in the beginning, you know that the time will come when that person sees the real you and hates you in the end? That you know you're not a bad person but you're just not the outgoing type, you're not naturally cheerful, you don't reach out to others but you respond well when they reach out to you. You feel like everything you say would sound against them, better to shut up than to be misunderstood. But when you don't speak, they'll think you're such a snob or bored with them. Then you start thinking why you have to bother too much about what they're saying. You try to convince that it's not your problem that they misunderstood you. It's funny how you don't want them to get too close to you but you expect people to stick with you anyway.

w*n*c*a*m said: ↑

That whenever you meet new people and have a good start in the beginning, you know that the time will come when that person sees the real you and hates you in the end?

Yes! Well, something similar, anyway. I made a friend in high school who was new and a bit weird, and I knew I was the "stepping stone" for her to meet other people. Which she did and we slowly talked less and less.

Has a similar thing happened to you? You're not crap, by the way.

MikeyC said: ↑

Yes! Well, something similar, anyway. I made a friend in high school who was new and a bit weird, and I knew I was the "stepping stone" for her to meet other people. Which she did and we slowly talked less and less.

Has a similar thing happened to you? You're not crap, by the way.

Ahhh... thanks for the comforting words, MikeyC.

Bah! Sometimes a D+ life is worth something too!! 🙂

Crappy days can happen... Some people even change their Myers-Briggs personality from I to E based on season changes!!

These thoughts in the head can happen too, yeah, usually they're not realistic!!
some people can see you as 'mysterious' and 'interesting', even if you're not 'all that' outgoing etc!!

You're right about invitations, maybe check if some are worth accepting, or if you'd like to hang out with these people somewhere else, at another time?
If your friends are single they might have different 'need-to-hang-out' wishes than if they are 'coupled up' too? Any other couples you and your man could hang out with?

Sometimes the 'pretending' can work, and one can even cheer up oneself by smiling at others and talking to them (at least that has been my experience), sometimes I do need some peace too... People have different needs for this... Do you know what Myres Briggs personalities you and your friends might be? Maybe it could help you and them understand the differences and different needs for hanging out too? (Or just tell'em it's winter and you need to 'hibernate'? 🙂)

w*n*c*a*m said: ↑

Well... it feels like most of my "used to be" companions and acquaintances are gradually drifting away from me. I know it's my fault because I don't reach out to them and when they invite me to gatherings, I often decline. I don't wanna mind much about this matter, it's just that I can't help feeling left out or paranoid if they are talking negative things behind my back. Makes me think if it's better to "pretend" just to connect with others, than to show the real me.
By the way, thanks for the comforting words, MikeyC.

That's how it is, though - there are some people in your life that you'll feel you're drifting away from, or losing touch with. People come and go in your life and there's not much you can do about it.

No need to pretend, either. You have a fiancee so you've done something right. 🙂

MikeyC said: ↑

That's how it is, though - there are some people in your life that you'll feel you're drifting away from, or losing touch with. People come and go in your life and there's not much you can do about it.

No need to pretend, either. You have a fiancee so you've done something right. 🙂

Yeah... he is my miracle. :😮:

My life is such a sht. I'm ugly, no brains, no confidence, no friends, no job, no money... I'm nothing.

w*n*c*a*m said: ↑

My life is such a sht. I'm ugly, no brains, no confidence, no friends, no job, no money... I'm nothing.

You know that's not true.

MikeyC said: ↑

You know that's not true.

It perfectly describes me MikeyC... and on top of that... I like your quote. Sigh!

w*n*c*a*m said: ↑

It perfectly describes me MikeyC... and on top of that... I like your quote. Sigh!

Again, I will remind you that you're engaged, so you mean the world to someone. I'm sorry you think so lowly of yourself, but to someone special in your life they think you are everything.

I wish I could change your thinking, but I can only really offer typed-out support from half-way across the world. I hope you can see yourself the way you deserve.

Of course, I do think very negatively of myself, too, even when others around me assure me that it's not true and that I shouldn't have that kind of attitude. It's certainly difficult to think highly of yourself when you're depressed and in a massive abyss of sorrow. I'm assuming that's what you're going through? It's not good. :🙁:

I wish you a lot of happiness. 🙂

I like my signature, too. Sigh returned!

I'm the same way about having to find my old post. I really like this idea of a "whatever" journal I think I might start my own, would you mind?

I know the feeling of obligation of going places it sucks!

w*n*c*a*m said: ↑

My life is such a sht. I'm ugly, no brains, no confidence, no friends, no job, no money... I'm nothing.

OMG I feel like you just described me! I feel exactly the same way and I hate it! I hope we can get better though :]

me basically, in a depressed mode 🙁

Insanewoman389 said: ↑

OMG I feel like you just described me! I feel exactly the same way and I hate it! I hope we can get better though :]

I don't know if I'll be glad that you can relate to me, or I'll be sad because I don't want others to feel the same way as mine. But hey, I wanna believe that we'll get over this soon. And yes, I don't mind if you make your own journal. A lot of people started it already and it would be nice to have someone share their personal thoughts and experiences on this site. Welcome to journaling! (is there such a word? haha) 🙂