Terrific 20's!! :)
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lyricalliaisons
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I'm 29 now & my entire life has been a waste. I missed out on my 20's & on all the experiences people usually have in their 20's. I also missed my teenage years. I'm sure in 5-10 years or more I'll look back on my 20's with regret & sorrow.
lacucaracha
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ok so i turn 20 in september and im not looking forward to it at all. I havent been to a party or to a club or pretty much socialised at all since i was 17. i leave the house three or four times a week just to hang out at my only 2 remaining friends houses, cos i lost contact with everybody when i left school at 16(which was completely my fault i just stopped going out and answering my fone to them). ive become really depressed over the last year and that stops me from trying to overcome my anxiety. im so worried that m going to ruin the next 10 years of my life by just never going out, but even if i did go out i wouldn't enjoy myself because i think the most minor interactions through waaaay to much, and after i go over every conversation i had over and over again and always can find mistakes and things i should have done different
IGotSeoul
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I freaked out when I turned 20. Something about that '2' just shook me.
vexatiousmind
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I don't want to see twenty-three
How did you do that awesome smiley?
and I hope you see 23, I bet it will be beautiful
I hate thinking about age in this way. Asif in society its become something that happens to you, that you go through and that has things with it. When to me, with my view on the nature of reality, it doesnt really exist. All the thinging about you needing to be this or that way at a certain age, or do ths or do that, its all going by expectations and looking at other people and whats potrayed as how it is.
I mean, whats the difference between being 19, and then a few days lter offcialy being 20? If there were no birthdays, and we didn't count age, would we still think this way, as in, I'm this age and therefore have all these other expectations and am supposed to be this way?
Infact Ive even often thought of about not having a birthday at all anymore haha.
You migh think this sounds insane. And it can apply to other areas. But what if aging in this way is a programmed subconscious belief, which you can disconnect from?
I'm talking from the perspective of our bodies being holographic representation of the mind. With the mind actually contolling alot more than we think.
Just thinking about, things like birthdays, people have everone remind them they're a year older, and it kind of plants it in your head haha.
This ties in with how people can become fatter or thinner or put on muscle and things through thought.
I still feel a kid at heart. And I don't feel different to when there was officialy "teen" on the end of the number. Other than perhaps certain issues being worse at some recent points. But also some maybe being easier. But I count that to just being here longer and things having time to come and go. But also the very pressure I'm talking about about age, which I'm trying to ignore. And I don't want to look at more expecations than what there was in those years.
I know people on here have sad they feel this way, as a bad thing. But seeing what "growin up" involves in this world, and its not my idea of fun or what I'd enjoy. So no thanks haha.
Maybe I say this because I do feel missed about in years before. But maybe its not just that.
Anyway sorry for some of this post being abit weird and off the point in a way haha.
I mean, whats the difference between being 19, and then a few days lter offcialy being 20? If there were no birthdays, and we didn't count age, would we still think this way, as in, I'm this age and therefore have all these other expectations and am supposed to be this way?
Infact Ive even often thought of about not having a birthday at all anymore haha.
You migh think this sounds insane. And it can apply to other areas. But what if aging in this way is a programmed subconscious belief, which you can disconnect from?
I'm talking from the perspective of our bodies being holographic representation of the mind. With the mind actually contolling alot more than we think.
Just thinking about, things like birthdays, people have everone remind them they're a year older, and it kind of plants it in your head haha.
This ties in with how people can become fatter or thinner or put on muscle and things through thought.
I still feel a kid at heart. And I don't feel different to when there was officialy "teen" on the end of the number. Other than perhaps certain issues being worse at some recent points. But also some maybe being easier. But I count that to just being here longer and things having time to come and go. But also the very pressure I'm talking about about age, which I'm trying to ignore. And I don't want to look at more expecations than what there was in those years.
I know people on here have sad they feel this way, as a bad thing. But seeing what "growin up" involves in this world, and its not my idea of fun or what I'd enjoy. So no thanks haha.
Maybe I say this because I do feel missed about in years before. But maybe its not just that.
Anyway sorry for some of this post being abit weird and off the point in a way haha.
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