I think the next relationship i get in will be with someone with anxiety, maybe then it will work.
idk all else has failed, so maybe someone with the same mindset will be good for me.
Good luck with that. I tried that
about a year ago. And I was only half joking when I wrote it. But even a little bit of humor didn't help.
My biggest problem with being single is that I don't feel complete, like there's a part missing from the middle of my chest that everyone else has. And that's the main reason I hate holidays so much, especially Christmas. And whenever I'm out and see something beautiful, one of the first things I inevitably wish for is that I had someone to share it with. Whether it's moonrise on an empty beach or just a little songbird, my thoughts always go something like "OOH!.... oh."
The main thing I want is just someone to be there. But I've tried just about everything I can think of, and I still haven't met anyone. I can't seem to even get a penpal, let alone anything remotely resembling a date. And it just leaves me feeling so lonely and hollow.
Above all, I've always been afraid of not being good enough. Whether it's in regards to sports, relationships, art, or anything. So it doesn't really help much when, no matter what I do or try to do, I end up not being good enough. I once heard a friend say (not to me), "You're a loser at the game of LIFE." And I've always thought he should have been talking to me, because.... Well.... :
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And I apologize for this rambling blob of negativity. I've been dealing with a terrible head cold the past two days, so my personality has finally gotten down to the level of my looks.
But don't lower your standards just to make someone else happy, Chlo. There is a Mr. Right out there, and he's worth waiting for.