Quick rant

JohnnAY

JohnnAY

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UGH, this is getting REEAL old. Why can't I just go about my day like a normal functioning adult! I just want to do normal things like go to the library and study without turning into goddamn garden sprinkler!

Today there was a really attractive girl behind the counter at Subway. I was rehearsing in my head while I waited in line: "6 inch turkey on wheat , 6 inch turkey on wheat, 6 inch turkey on wheat". Then, when it finally comes time for me to order..... "CAN I GET A 6 INCH FOOT-LONG."

The whole time I was there I appeared fidgety, sweaty, I stuttered my words, and I could tell she was giving me weird glances. Lastly, as I'm reaching over to take the receipt out of her hand, I drop my caseless phone on the ground. This triggers the attention of everyone else in the restaurant. As I bend down to pick up my phone, I drop my sandwich all over the floor. At that point I was screaming at myself: "CHRIST, CAN YOU KEEP IT TOGETHER?" I'm never showing my face there again.

Thanks for reading. Yea, I know there are starving children in Africa.
 
MikeyC

MikeyC

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You built up the moment too much and then psyched yourself out. Just relax a little more and you'll be okay.
 
vanillabear

vanillabear

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That sucks.. and I totally know how you feel. I take all kinds of long-cuts and walk only during certain times just to avoid large crowds of people. Once I was ordering some take out and mumbled something that I guess they didn't catch so the cashier asked me to repeat it and I said yes.. and then, confused, she asked me to repeat what I said before and I said yes again.. lol -facepalm-.. I do this on a daily basis..hope that maybe comforts you?
 
JohnnAY

JohnnAY

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Lol! Yea, I usually just laugh at myself afterwards. Just it happens so often now that it's hard to find humor in it anymore; and just the constant sweating, ughhh. Thanks for the replies.
 
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ImNotMyIllness

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That really sucks! But, it happens. I don't think anyone there gave it a second thought. They're busy worrying about their job and thinking about getting off work.
The customers that they remember are the ones that are very mean to them. You're fine!
 
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jaim38

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I can relate. There were many times when I said the wrong things or did something embarassing in public. Being around people makes me act stupid. When I'm truly alone I feel smarter and more alert.
 
hoddesdon

hoddesdon

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^ I was in a bistro once, and, when something needed to be cooked first, someone asked how long it would be. The person behind the counter replied: "About six inches".
 
paperie

paperie

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Don't worry too much about it. Maybe I'm alone on this, but if I witness someone have an embarrassing moment...I think it's more cute than anything, in an endearing way.
 
Ashiene

Ashiene

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Many years ago, I finally took the courage to go out after being homebound for months. I wanted to test my anxiety. So I went to take the train for an hour-long ride. And got scolded very loudly for 5 minutes by a middle-aged man (who accused me of kicking his foot) in the very crowded public train. That was my reward for being courageous and facing my anxiety- to be humiliated and shamed.

Why do I put myself through such horror? After that incident, my anxiety skyrocketed and I became homebound again for a longer time.
 
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