Ashiene
Well-known member
When I was a virgin, I thought by having sex I would become better and happier. Since I lost my virginity last year to a prostitute, I have been spending large sums of money to pay beautiful, hot women for sex.
It has become an addiction. I thought by having sex with so many hot females (whom in the past I could only dream about) would make my life better, but now my anxiety is worse than when I was a virgin.
Firstly is the large amount of money spent (I wouldn't say wasted, I thoroughly enjoyed each session), and frequently too.
Secondly is the realisation that the only way I could ever get female intimacy would be through paying for it, because no girl would even approach me on their own. And when I pay for sex, I don't have to worry about girls asking me if I have a social life or if I ever dated (which is no) or what my hobbies are (which are incredibly boring).
Thirdly is the sad fact that visiting prostitutes has become like smoking and alcohol. I always need to get my fix and if I stop it for too long I get withdrawal symptoms like reduced self-esteem, increased irritability, aggressiveness, all similar to other addictions.
Lastly, I know that most of my money is going into funding my prostitution habit (which has now become my biggest motivator in life), and when I run out of money to afford indulging in this activity, I would be all alone again, without even the brief moments of female intimacy that prostitutes can provide so well.
I only visit prostitutes that provide the girlfriend experience as well as sex, and even though it may only be a couple of hours together, it is as close as a "relationship" or "girlfriend" I will ever have in my miserable life.
It has become an addiction. I thought by having sex with so many hot females (whom in the past I could only dream about) would make my life better, but now my anxiety is worse than when I was a virgin.
Firstly is the large amount of money spent (I wouldn't say wasted, I thoroughly enjoyed each session), and frequently too.
Secondly is the realisation that the only way I could ever get female intimacy would be through paying for it, because no girl would even approach me on their own. And when I pay for sex, I don't have to worry about girls asking me if I have a social life or if I ever dated (which is no) or what my hobbies are (which are incredibly boring).
Thirdly is the sad fact that visiting prostitutes has become like smoking and alcohol. I always need to get my fix and if I stop it for too long I get withdrawal symptoms like reduced self-esteem, increased irritability, aggressiveness, all similar to other addictions.
Lastly, I know that most of my money is going into funding my prostitution habit (which has now become my biggest motivator in life), and when I run out of money to afford indulging in this activity, I would be all alone again, without even the brief moments of female intimacy that prostitutes can provide so well.
I only visit prostitutes that provide the girlfriend experience as well as sex, and even though it may only be a couple of hours together, it is as close as a "relationship" or "girlfriend" I will ever have in my miserable life.