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Just because i'm playing heavy metal, it doesn't mean i'm mad, or sad .. i might be glad!
But maybe a bit on the BORED-AS-F*CK side, just a tad
And it might not be my latest fad
I might permanently now view it as "rad"
And listening to it doesn't make me "bad"
Ps: It's a bit more heavy than "Brad"
Also i'm having a few beers, i might add
And my state of dress is "good", today i am not unclad
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(PiP, Poetry in Progress ... < SUSPENDED >)
 
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S_Spartan

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Oh I certainly don't think they are wrong. It's just that I really, really like to be alone, but according to most people if you stay alone you are missing out on something. It would be easier to find an interest in the contact with other humans if I actually felt like there was something good and significant coming out of it.
Yeah, I feel the same.
It's hard to find much substance out there.
Being an introvert is a curse because even though we enjoy being alone there is still that built in urge to socialize, yet when we do it we feel drained by people.
It's like you can't win.
 
Yeah, I feel the same.
It's hard to find much substance out there.
Being an introvert is a curse because even though we enjoy being alone there is still that built in urge to socialize, yet when we do it we feel drained by people.
It's like you can't win.

Exactly. After outings, my mood is "stuffed", doesn't want to settle.
 

S_Spartan

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Exactly. After outings, my mood is "stuffed", doesn't want to settle.
I just sort of feel drained after being around people.
I'm not as bad as I used to be but I'm still pretty bad.
I don't really enjoy people but there is still that lingering human drive to be part of something social.
Wish I could get rid of that completely.
But like eating, drinking, sex, it's part of the firmware.
The other thing is that I'm at a strange place with my ego.
In a lot of ways my ego has died so now I don't relate well to people at all but loss of ego also means that I don't really give a shit about much anymore so I can come off as rude to people because I don't care if they like me or not.
Just a weird place to be all around.
 

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
Ah huv'nae slept for 3 days straight noo... Cocaine - helluva drug, innit? :giggle:
Just joking, insomnia is right b@$#@%¡ :veryangry: Coupled that with being creative... Urrrghh!! :kickingmyself:
 

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
I really need to start drinking again. I think it's my only way I can cope with my family's constant negative BS. :sad: :kickingmyself:
 

State_Of_Trance

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Man, at the start of each week I always get this Sunday evening dread. But it's not too bad today. Two weeks ago? That was bad. This week? These challenges shouldn't be anywhere near as intense as back then (This is me trying to pep talk myself).

I hope to nail down those routine everyday things a bit better this week. In theory, I should be getting up at 6:00 each day and not skipping breakfast, but I slipped a few times last week and just got up at the last second and left for work without food or coffee. This week I hope to stick to these small goals.

And exercise. Completely didn't do it last week.

After several months, research on my first PC build is nearing completion. Trying to nail down just how budget-y of a 144hz monitor I'm willing to accept before it's really just too low quality.
 

GraybeardGhost

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So it turns out my new neighbor is a butt-puffing scumbag. One more reason to move out, and since I can't move out, one more reason (as if I needed it) to take more drastic measures.
 
It's mid-afternoon, not even four
Already i've had enuf boredom, can't take any more
Had some rain, for a few minutes it did pour
Hearing some distant thunder, the mighty power of Thor
Listening to classical music, oh what a fine score!
Today looks like i will stay indoor
Constantly observing my hoarder's decor
My mood not letting me do barely any chore
As, concerning them, I just procrastinate and ignore
Oh i say, freedom to be idle, but what a bore
It's days like today that i yearn for the seashore
To be a seagull, high above would i soar
Not stuck inside, on a wet day, which is what i abhore
An activity to peacefully pass the time, is what i implore
But later on, tonight, i expect some heavy metal, hardcore

A walk have i done
It was kinda fun!
And out came the sun
My reward a cream bun .. yum!

For the day to pass, for night, i'm waiting
The heavy metal is stimulating
My restlessness is for now abating
Thanks to the craziness i am sensing
To my mind the music's captivating
Into my moth-eaten brain, it's penetrating
My attention upon it is fixating
No longer passing time am i hating
But at the same time, frantically escaping
Playing blocks to the manic rhythms (it's enchanting)
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(PiP, Poetry in Progress ... < SUSPENDED >
 
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