Post your random thoughts/feelings etc

[BlueDays]

I hate the way no matter how hard you try

NOTHING EVER CHANGES

I am still dealing with the exact same crap I was last yr and the yr before

This is one one of those days where i want to break someones face

Yeah, I think some people - those who always seem to get the short end of the stick in life - need to spread their outlook FAR out, many years into the future.

Someone said to me "Just think, in 5 years time none of what is causing you stress now will even matter"............and I thought, hmmm. And whaddayaknow 10 years later - now, it IS still causing me stress exactly as it was 10 years ago! h:

So, I have endeavoured to now think in terms of 15 or 20 years into the future. I am hoping with all of my might that in 15 or 20 years, what is causing me stress at this moment will not matter in 15 to 20 years.
Easier said than done, but it is at least a tiny bit of comfort.

 

[S_Spartan]

Tired of hearing about this restroom stuff, all the problems that America has and this is what we are obsessed with now?
It's like all the fringe groups rule this place now while the "ordinary majority" see their lives shrinking all the time.

 

[MollyBeGood]

Yeah, I think some people - those who always seem to get the short end of the stick in life - need to spread their outlook FAR out, many years into the future.

Someone said to me "Just think, in 5 years time none of what is causing you stress now will even matter"............and I thought, hmmm. And whaddayaknow 10 years later - now, it IS still causing me stress exactly as it was 10 years ago! h:

So, I have endeavoured to now think in terms of 15 or 20 years into the future. I am hoping with all of my might that in 15 or 20 years, what is causing me stress at this moment will not matter in 15 to 20 years.
Easier said than done, but it is at least a tiny bit of comfort.

Oh yeah I used to do that too "A yr from now, none of this will matter" and it did pacify me temporarily. Like taking a shot of whisky does. Now there is nothing I can tell myself because I know better. No more little fun sayings to put a bandaid on reality. How about "Go to sleep and you will feel better in the morning"? That one is such BS LoL I hate mornings and never have I felt better about life the next day after hrs of escapism sleep. I find now even if I have scary dreams I'd rather be in a dream state than awake. That is the only truth I have learned. Not that I am proud to admit that. I don't think my future is going to be better. We will be older and have more health issues. At least we have our health now-that is what they say anyways...

 

[MollyBeGood]

I'm just trying to focus most of ma energy n' time tae gettin' back intae shape, in the hope ah'll fit enough to actually walk around Edinburgh when ah go to the Fringe festival again this year.

This is awesome, Graeme! I would love that for you:thumbup:

 

[Megaten]

This alpha male vs beta male nonsense on Facebook is going to be the end of my sanity.

 

[Opaline]

Daaammnnnn, never knew tea could make you vomit. I'm up late writing a paper and I had a cup of tea, and about midway through it I started to feel really nauseous and wondered what the hell was going on. I thought maybe it was tiredness (that can make you feel sick) or maybe I got food poisoning from the chicken I cooked earlier in the day. I Googled it just to see and found something about how drinking tea on an empty stomach (and I haven't eaten anything for hours considering it's almost 4 am) can make you nauseous because of the tannins.

:sad:

I feel fairly sick right now. I just hope I don't *actually*, you know... puke. Ahem, sorry. Gross.

 

[grapevine]

Feel so insecure and hurt internally - ashamed of myself - suicidal but not acting on it.
Nothing can make this pain go away.

 

[MollyBeGood]

sometimes what you reject is what you really need?

 

[Megaten]

Thats literally the last thing I was expecting

Chris Evans almost turned down Captain America role due to 'social anxiety' - UPI.com

 

[Graeme1988]

Mum, no offence but...

I'm getting really fed up with this dumb blonde routine you keep figuratively pullin' oot yer arse in an attempt to make me feel pity for ya, which you're fully aware ye do. Cuz it's gettin' really old, much like yersel'. And I'm getting tired of constantly having to clarify everything ah say for your benefit alone, since you insist upon asking me rhetorical questions. :kickingmyself:

 

[State_Of_Trance]

Should everyone be creative?

I've never had much drive or passion to create but I wonder if I should. Creative people I know say, "That's how it always is. You just have to tough through the indifference." But what if you and I just have naturally different psychological makeups? If that's the case, then you're forcing a way of thinking on me that only makes sense given your own nature, not mine. A bird may as well blame a horse for not flying.

If, on the other hand, our psychologies aren't actually that different, then, yeah, maybe we should all go for it. But I don't know.

To what extent is creativity universally good for different individuals?

 

[Phoenixx]

This month has been stressful. Parents got scammed from someone they knew, that same person I knew has completely blown my mind of what she was even capable of (proves you can't trust anybody!), took care of my mother earlier in the week to make sure she was alright as she was starting to have panic attacks and social anxiety from the entire situation -- not eating nor sleeping either which is a bad combination for an also epileptic person (father too ignorant to pay attention and brother couldn't care less I swear), have had to work overtime for the past 2 weeks because everyone at work just sucks and it looks like it'll be getting worse too, dog pissing all over the carpets and we have no idea why and she needs to go to the vet which neither I nor bf have time for at the moment, and I have my last final today which I have barely studied for however I don't seem too worried about it and I don't know whether that's a good thing or a bad thing.

And surprisingly, despite all this, I actually don't feel as worse as I could be feeling. Maybe I'm just at that point where I don't give a single crap and I'm okay with it. :thumbup:

 

[theslowesthand]

I hate the way no matter how hard you try

NOTHING EVER CHANGES

I am still dealing with the exact same crap I was last yr and the yr before

This is one one of those days where i want to break someones face

Reminds me of a saying: "If nothing changes, then nothing changes"

 

[Graeme1988]

I'm just trying to focus most of ma energy n' time tae gettin' back intae shape, in the hope ah'll fit enough to actually walk around Edinburgh when ah go to the Fringe festival again this year.

This is awesome, Graeme! I would love that for you:thumbup:

Well, here's hoping. Since it's the only thing I've got tae look forward to in the coming months. Rehab has been tough, and hellish. Since ma physiotherapists are under the impression that I'm both afraid of and hate them for some reason. Yet ah just want to keep things purely professional and not get overly personal.

Why is it when yer more introverted than others, yer always seen as a bad, stuck-up and hateful person? :thinking: :idontknow:

 

[BlackPuma]

My idiot brother broke both his damn ankles because he felt it was a smart idea to climb into a lamppost and let go at the top while he was drunk and high.

Well, good job, dumbass. Now you can't walk, likely for all of spring and most of the summer.

He's twenty-seven, he should know better by now.

 

[Graeme1988]

My idiot brother broke both his damn ankles because he felt it was a smart idea to climb into a lamppost and let go at the top while he was drunk and high.

Well, good job, dumbass. Now you can't walk, likely for all of spring and most of the summer.

He's twenty-seven, he should know better by now.

:bigsmile: Sorry for laughing, but it's just image that description conjured up in my head. Though, you're right, yer brother should've known better. Must've been a dare for one of his equally drunk or high friends. It's seems some people in their late 20s and beyond are still under the impression that they're younger than they actually are - therefore still capable of pulling of silly stunts like that.

 

[Louco]

Should everyone be creative?

I've never had much drive or passion to create but I wonder if I should. Creative people I know say, "That's how it always is. You just have to tough through the indifference." But what if you and I just have naturally different psychological makeups? If that's the case, then you're forcing a way of thinking on me that only makes sense given your own nature, not mine. A bird may as well blame a horse for not flying.

If, on the other hand, our psychologies aren't actually that different, then, yeah, maybe we should all go for it. But I don't know.

To what extent is creativity universally good for different individuals?

I think anyone would have a hard time creating something without motivation. Creating something good is way more about effort and time than a natural gift, which would make things difficult if you don't feel like doing whatever it is...

 

[S_Spartan]

I think anyone would have a hard time creating something without motivation. Creating something good is way more about effort and time than a natural gift, which would make things difficult if you don't feel like doing whatever it is...

Hate to keep being a Bukowski fanboi here but he summed it up very nicely in this poem:


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZN1Tw8XM1LY

 

[kilojoule]

My idiot brother broke both his damn ankles because he felt it was a smart idea to climb into a lamppost and let go at the top while he was drunk and high.

Well, good job, dumbass. Now you can't walk, likely for all of spring and most of the summer.

He's twenty-seven, he should know better by now.

Oh dear I'm sure it was one of those 'what I think will happen' v 'what actually happened' things

 

[State_Of_Trance]

Hate to keep being a Bukowski fanboi here but he summed it up very nicely in this poem:

Snap, that video was intense. Thanks a ton for posting it. It meshes pretty well with what I myself am beginning to think, but in the interest of balance, here's a counter: acquired tastes. Do all great mathematicians / scientists / artists / film-makers / etc. initially have a burning desire to do their thing? Maybe not. Maybe they had to force themselves to try new things and only later realized what they were meant for.

So here's my split personality right here:

• On The One Hand: [Insert Everything from Bukowski]. You do you, I'll do me.
   
• On The Other Hand: Perhaps interest in things is at least partially a developed thing. In that case, forcing yourself to do something you do not deeply want to do might still be worthwhile.
   
• On The First Hand Again: I'm sick of people trying to guilt me into doing things that are a lot easier for them than for me. Just because you love music genre X does not mean that I must force myself to enjoy it for the same reasons that you do.

Ugh, stupid reality. Where's my clear black and white? Why all these pros and cons!?!?!?!