Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Six more days to go, then these bloody daily injections will be over...
Post your random thoughts/feelings etc
- Thread starter Remus
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hmmm what
I really need to stop putting myself in the most ridiculous of situations. There really are some incredibly insane and bizarre people out there that I would rather not deal with. It doesn't help with anxiety. I don't know how to handle things on my own and that stresses me out a lot. I can't be in my own mind and reality and fluidly speak to people and socialize and that makes me really sad. Resting for a few days and figuring out what to do. Oh well.
I really need to stop putting myself in the most ridiculous of situations. There really are some incredibly insane and bizarre people out there that I would rather not deal with. It doesn't help with anxiety. I don't know how to handle things on my own and that stresses me out a lot. I can't be in my own mind and reality and fluidly speak to people and socialize and that makes me really sad. Resting for a few days and figuring out what to do. Oh well.
anomicdeer
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Had the interview. Thought I did great. Even asked questions. I guess they knew I wouldn't fit the teams environment well (personality wise). They said they'd call at the end of the day. Maybe he meant week... That would make more sense.
this_portrait
Well-known member
Please let things start looking up in my life. Took my first Wellbutrin today, so even if things don't start looking up, at least let me feel numb to them.
S_Spartan
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I notice that any time I have a windshield wiper go bad it's always on the driver's side during the worst possible time. Like when I'm driving on a busy interstate in the snow and road muck and I only have like a 6" sliver to see out the window.
Look over at the passenger side and it's clear as a bell!
Look over at the passenger side and it's clear as a bell!
GraybeardGhost
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A clever man always has a trick up his sleeve.
A smart man knows when to leave it there.
A smart man knows when to leave it there.
Razzlecherry
Banned
You have to enjoy the little things.
I buy groceries like a week ahead, including everything needed for dinner. It takes a little longer, but afterwards you don't need to interact with anyone for a week. Plus, it incentivizes to eat healthy.
anomicdeer
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I hate this.
I hate being that.
I ruined this.
I ruined that...
I hate being that.
I ruined this.
I ruined that...
this_portrait
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Hate to admit it (and it's kind of ironic for someone like me), but I feel like I always crave attention. Not to the point where I'll do outrageous things to get it, but I tend to get upset on the inside if people don't talk to me. If someone doesn't talk to me, I start feeling anxious that they don't want to (or that they don't like me). I always try to rationalize myself out of this, but most of the time it doesn't work. If I acted on these feelings, I would probably be one of the clingiest people ever. It's like I've grown to hate being alone.
I'm at this weird point in my life where I could feasibly be living anywhere in the US that I want to in ~6 months, after I graduate. I like Wisconsin, I grew up here and I've been happy here for 24 years. But, in the last couple years, most of my family sorta moved away from me. It's just me, my step-dad, and a handful of friends here now. I don't have a job or own a house or anything. For the first time in my life, I don't feel anchored. I can go wherever I can find computer geek work (literally anywhere).
Of course, my mom wants me to follow her to South Carolina. My thoughts are that if I'm gonna pack up everything I own and move 1200 miles away from "home", I might as well go somewhere that I want to live, right? ....Right?
Maybe this doesn't have to be as big a deal as I'm making it, but it's a feeling that's been creeping up on me the last few months. A mix of anticipation, anxiety and mindfulness about this all has been keeping me awake at night.
Of course, my mom wants me to follow her to South Carolina. My thoughts are that if I'm gonna pack up everything I own and move 1200 miles away from "home", I might as well go somewhere that I want to live, right? ....Right?
Maybe this doesn't have to be as big a deal as I'm making it, but it's a feeling that's been creeping up on me the last few months. A mix of anticipation, anxiety and mindfulness about this all has been keeping me awake at night.
SilentAndShy
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Hate dealing with people at work in a face to face or phone situation at the moment, anxious and on edge even more so. To the point, considering looking at other work opportunities but maybe and hopefully it's just this week but not sure. It's making me anxious.
anomicdeer
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I really wonder what it is about me that makes me so unsuccessful with getting a job. Others go job searching and they get interviews and get an offer from everyone and they just need to decide who they want to go to. I swear for me it's the complete opposite.
There is the one place I use to work at that it out of the area and I wanted to go back but I have no money for direct deposit or even rent the first month and I though I would get help from my sons family, that they would let me live with them for a couple weeks. Then I'd be able to pay for a place to live because it's so easy to live in that area. When it comes to paying rent I mean.
Now I don't even want to go up there anyways.
I apply to so many jobs and I finally got a call from someone for an interview but I don't even think they are interested in me. I asked questions during the interview and I think I asked them really good questions especially that the store manager seems to like some of the questions I asked. There is always someone better right? But I can't be that better person huh?
There is the one place I use to work at that it out of the area and I wanted to go back but I have no money for direct deposit or even rent the first month and I though I would get help from my sons family, that they would let me live with them for a couple weeks. Then I'd be able to pay for a place to live because it's so easy to live in that area. When it comes to paying rent I mean.
Now I don't even want to go up there anyways.
I apply to so many jobs and I finally got a call from someone for an interview but I don't even think they are interested in me. I asked questions during the interview and I think I asked them really good questions especially that the store manager seems to like some of the questions I asked. There is always someone better right? But I can't be that better person huh?
anomicdeer
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Then I hate telling people I don't have a job because it takes forever for me to get anything.
I can do all the research in the world reading about how to get a job but they seem to only apply to high end positions. I can have the perfect resume and could possibly get an interview but who would they rather have work with them? Not me!
There are so many people that have jobs and they don't even want to do shit with their life but I'm trying to be positive every single day and smile and know what I want in life and it's so simple but I can't even simply get a simple job!
I can do all the research in the world reading about how to get a job but they seem to only apply to high end positions. I can have the perfect resume and could possibly get an interview but who would they rather have work with them? Not me!
There are so many people that have jobs and they don't even want to do shit with their life but I'm trying to be positive every single day and smile and know what I want in life and it's so simple but I can't even simply get a simple job!
SilentAndShy
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I know of a friend who was out long-term work but he probably didn't try as hard as you are. Have you considered volunteering? I know people dismiss the idea completely but it helped me get a job thanks to the reference and it helped lift a depressive period for me slightly as well. I don't want to sound patronising on other advice as I'm sure you've got all things in hand.